Kerja

hey. have been busy these days. Since i've started working, i dont have much time to blog nowadays. Nevertheless, i'm blogging now. So, how's work and everything u ask? yeah, work is good. I love my work. Suka kecoh2. hahaha. but u know, there will always be days when u just dont wanna go to work, and there will always be those who will bug you in everyway they could. Anyways, i'm enjoying it. every bit of it. i'm currently attached under clinical, which means, i will have to go up to the wards and follow the rounds. With specialists and medical/house officers. i enjoy it. I enjoy listening to their discussion, enjoy trying to understand how they interpret the Xray-film, CT film.. hmmm.. i'm amazed they could see what i couldnt. hahahaha. And the best part is, being questioned about drugs, dosage, side effects, how to administer, when to administer etc. That should be my area of specialty. Although i have to admit that i most of the time have to rely on books to answer all their queries, but i'm glad.. i'm actually contributing. kan? Ketaq gak lutut. Bukan lutut je, tangan pon habis ketaq. tp jawab mesti yakin. Salah pon, yakin. tapi mesti betulkan, dan dengan yakin. heh.

i was in ICU for 2 weeks. How i wished i could stay longer.. i enjoy the rounds so much. The ICU team, they are really good, and the best thing is they really respect pcists' say. Good. And, seeing all the patients in the ICU, really got me 'insaf'. Its just sad, looking at the patients attached with so many wires onto the body, with all the beepings from the ventilators, pressure monitors and etc. Because they are all intubated, the nurses will have to perform suction from their throat for aspirate. and u know, its actually painful. worse still, when they contract bugs from the hospital environment itself, nosocomial infection and these bugs are usually resistant to many antibiotics which leaves the docs antibiotics with increased risk of organ damage. Some survived, some didnt. Its just sad to know that the patient couldnt survive. Insaf.

That was ICU. Now, i'm attached under the Infectious Disease Ward. We are the referral center for patients with retroviral disease. So, i could say that 90% of patients in the ward are RVD +ve patients. Semua ada. Melayu, Cina, India. And they come in with all sorts of weird infections, ones that normal people dont get, but they do. if u're in the medical line, u'll understand when they say, opportunistic infections. Its a bit scary though. 3 days in the ward, my eyes became very itchy. i dont know whether its just me, or its the ward itself.but everytime i go up into the ward, i'll start rubbing my eyes, and it does scare the ***t out of me. Anyways, no matter how they contract the disease, i hope they will have enough time to ask for Forgiveness from Allah and that Allah will help them during the time of death. Let Us all make doa that Allah will make it easy for all of us.

Sometimes, we should look at these people. When u talk to them, u can sense the feelings of regret in the patients, only that it is too late. sedihkan? Jadi, kita2 yang sehat ni, lets count our blessings. And lets become an obedient servant to Allah. Mungkin kita kene bawak anak2 kita ziarah these RVD+ve patients to teach them to value life. Dont do drugs, dont do prostitutes, sex rambang and homosexual/bisexual relationship.tolong la jangan. sedih melihat. let us learn from their mistakes and lets not do the same mistakes, can we? Kita ada Tuhan, Jadikan Dia sebagai tujuan hidup so that our lives will be more meaningful and be blessed, with Allah's will. ameen.

thats enuff for today.till then. ciao

series of unfortunate events

How would u feel, if u're getting news of people around you have passed away? undescribable. This i may call my series of unfortunate events. I thought, what the heck since i'm now working in a hospital, and u know how fast things go in hospitals. Today they are ok, the next day, they're gone. But nope, it didnt help me, not a bit. to start off with, my old friend, Fadil died in mid August. he succumbed to his injuries after a road accident. the news came like a thunder. I thought he was already getting better, thus i postponed my visit to the hospital. what a shame. He died the next day. Shame. shame. I wished i had visited him. and thats only a wish.

With Fadil no longer alive, and me consistently monitored my friend [the gf] i know she is going through a rough time trying to get used to the fact that Fadil is no longer here, made it even harder for me to come to a realisation that he's gone. sometimes, after reading what she sent to his f*riendster, i thought he is still alive and well.. Just as i was about to come out of it, i received a news from my cousin that my aunt is very ill. Didnt want to take the chance of not getting to see her incase if she died, i went to see her. with Him of course. She died the next morning. that was early thursday morning. And on sunday morning, i was awakened by my mother, telling me that our neighbour from our previous home, the son died in an accident. and he was my age. sedihkan?

tu tak kira lagi patients ICU. i am now supplying meds for ICU patients. Its just sad. I wish u people well, and i'll always make d'ua to Allah, that He'll grant us good health and let us enjoy the days remembering Him, praying to Him, and enjoy the company of our loved ones. insyaAllah.

I wish Hasrul bin Rashid (a patient in the ICU) well. May Allah help u and bless you. May Allah bless us all. amiin..

Count your blessings, before its too late

remember my last post about my late bestfriend, Arwah Asiyah? Today, another friend of mine passed away. It got me stunned in disbelief for a moment. A friend informed me about the accident sometime in june, and it got me wondering why is he still not recovering after 1 month in the hospital. It turned out that, he had many complications due to the accident.

When i received the news, i didnt know how to respond. to cry or to not cry. The news came like the wind. it just went, but u can feel the breeze. I cried abit in disbelief, teringatkan arwah asiyah and remembering how much he loved her, and now, he will be joining her. I can say that i was emotionally confused. I called Joe up immediately, told him the news. We were just trying to set-off after a commotion [which i irresponsibly started]. Poor him. But i was grateful, that he would still listen and gave words of comfort. that was what i needed.

Rang up a few friends of mine, broke the news to some who have yet to be notified of the death of our friend. All that i received was, 'hah?!' 'yeke?'. After all the phone calls, i wondered to myself, it could've happened to anyone, to me, to my loved ones. How will i handle the emotional stress when i couldnt even control myself from not being jealous. erkk? I quickly made my prayers to Allah, the Almighty. part of it was, 'panjangkanlah umur ku and the ones i love, dan dekatkanlah kami dgnMu. Pls forgive the sins of those yang telah meninggal...' Owh, Allah.. The Greatest, i am indeed so grateful that i still have my loved ones with me who loves me dearly. Owh Allah the Greatest'. Maybe i took Joe for granted all this while. Hurt his feelings, many times. But i truly love him, and i am so grateful. so grateful, to have him, My family, friends who loves me, and everything that i have today. syukur syukur syukur.

i should do this more often, i believe. I am still grieving, teringat2 arwah asiyah. But i believe, These are what has been written, and yang Maha Mengetahui is Allah. i'll make du'a that Arwah will be at peace in the hereafter... Al-Fatihah..

Home at Last!

And so, for your information, i am HOME!! at last! I am so happy to be home. I have definitely missed out on alot of important events during my stay in Manchester. I am so so so happy to see Him, again after a good two months of not seeing each other [mujur la teknologi canggih]. I missed my mom, my dad, my 'budak kecik', kakak and my one and only brother. Despite that, i'm starting to miss my other sister, the one in Manchester [I miss u already!]. Okay-okay.

Just so u know, I travelled by E*mirates, and it was just a bad experience this time. We arrived at the Manchester Airport fairly, 2 hours before the scheduled take-off time. As soon as i stepped in into the airport, MY FREAKING ****!! the queue was terribly long! Just to make sure that i was in the right queue, i asked someone in the middle part of the queue. Kejiii!! Apehal la e*mirates ni? apesal service teruk sangat! Dahla kat Manchester airport! I was certain it's a full flight, and all the maks and paks a*rab with their very2 big and many luggages, 'owh God, boleh ke bag2 aku nak masuk ni?!' i said to myself. 10 minutes before i reached the check in counter, it was already 45 minutes to take-off. i knew we were running late. but i kept praying that they would delay the flight. Finally it was my turn. I kindly asked the guy to put me together with my grandmother. what do u expect. thats the reason me being there, to accompany her. And then the DRAMA began...

the guy: How many hand luggages do u have miss?
me: Three all together. I had a handbag, a laptop bag, and my grandmothers handbag.
the guy: Ok, i want to weigh ur hand-luggage now.
me: hah? ok. (nenek ku dah berlari mengambil bagnye) excuse me, my gmother went to take her bag.
the guy: Its okay maam..[He saw her walking swiftly towards us and the same time, lifting the bag up in the air.] now, would u mind putting ur luggages here.

my brother in-law helped me with the bags. It was bloody heavy! i had 3 luggages with me. and i know it is going to be overweight.

the guy: Look, ur luggage is overweight by 7kgs. But u have to check in quickly. so, I suggest that u remove some of ur things from the bag, and leave it here with ur family or pay. Decide now, quickly! there are other passangers waiting to be checked-in..
me: WHAT?!! How much do i need to pay?
the guy: its 37P per kg maam, and for 7kg is 300P (that bit of info, mcm angin lalu je)

****! i was panicking! my sister called for my uncle, but obviously he was not much of help for that situation. dalam hati aku, Him, being a frequent traveller he should have known the trick. 'we cant pay 300P, its just too much! xleh nak buat ape, keluarkan je la ur barang2' he said, instead. i was already sweating the shit out of me, and cursing everyone [dalam diam]. okay. i carry two luggages with me. i bag, filled with clothes, the other is penuh dgn hadiah2. my nenek pulak terus attack buku Harry Potter [i bought two of it]. marah dah ni! those are for the 'budak kecik' and her friend! mcm la barang aku je kan yg ada dlm tu. Kalau die xtumpang beg tu, leh la nak sindir2. hisssh! Marah dah nih!! pastu my uncle said, ha, remove the chocolates from ur luggage. mind u, i bought chocs worth of 10P. kecewa!!!! those are mainly for my dad! and then, i removed the bedsheets and other stuff from the bag as well. so fine. we hoped that that was 7kgs worth of barang2. Then, i went to another counter, nak check in balek la ni! the lady there was very2 kind. She weighed all the luggages, and to our surprise..

the lady: miss, it's 61kilo only. u can carry more if u want to!
me: haa??!! WHAT! those things i removed cant be 7kg.
my sis: so which one do u want to take home first?!
me: i want the bedsheets. [hatiku teramat sedih ni]
the lady: okay, the plane is leaving in 20minutes, so u have to run.
me: what! [hish, mcm tu je la perkataan yg aku tau] okay. thanks for ur help.

Salam2 my sister in a rush, i cried. xterhingin nak salam him and her. hahaha. but i did. and xsempat nak say thanks to my brother in-law. but i have a card for them. sedih sangat! i miss my sister already! okay. sampai security check, the queue was long. there were easily 15 people in front of me! i peeped at their tix, and owh, not going on emirates, so i asked them if i could make my way first. then the security guy stopped me. miss, only one handluggage is allowed. i said to him, My flight leaves in 15 minutes! tp, sumbat jugakla my handbag in the laptop bag. then, we had to wait. bloody hell! lembab gile buat kerja!aku nak balek la!! aaaah, as soon as we passed security check, RUN! RUN! my grandmother had to take off her shoes. sian die. and after that, things went better.

Stupid la e*mirates. Dahla inflight entertainment rosak. Lauk hari tu wek! xsedap! service macam bangang!! sian chocolates tu! Bila dah tenang tu, i started recalling back what happened earlier. i remembered him weighing my laptop bag, and my laptop is a 3.5kg laptop. BODO!! he weighed my laptop!!!so,sebenarnye, xla 7kg overweight and i could have just stuffed in the chocs in my laptop bag!and carry as handluggage. ^&%)%^#%%*&! i started swearing and cursing to that guy! Esok ko jadi KATAK!!! benci nye! and my sis says that its not worth it if she post the chocs home. so, tataula, pass la kat sedara mara mana yang nak balek nanti. kecewa. bodo lah E*mirates. kalau dah a**b tu, a**b jugakla. macam la hebat sangat! aaaaah!! oppression!! i should have told the guy 'look, i am late because ur system is so stupid! it took you a fucking 4 hours to let us all in! and now u want to put the blame on me? and create all this unnecessary problem! u had 5 counters running, and yet your service sucks!' ini setelah menyedari diri ini diperlakukan!!:(

okay, i need to go to bed. Jetlag still. but, it feels so good to be home!jeds, I miss u! it wasnt our day. and hari ni, i can accept it. okla.nak tdo.ciao!

Old Trafford!

Take me home, United Road
to the place, i belong
To Old Trafford, to see United
Take me home, United Road

So i am so excited to tell you about my very-very first Manchester United match. i know i sound a bit poyo.say whatever u like, but it was really an amazing experience for me, really. My brother in-law took me to the stadium. We went there twice on the same day, Ist August 2007. early morning, to be the first thousands to get the latest home kit. for him :).. That'll last him for two seasons, i'm glad. bought some souvenirs for myself and a friend. then we went back to hulme for lunch. By 530 pm, we were ready to get our butts into Old trafford stadium. So many people, some of whom we've met came all the way from birmingham, and i am sure many came from all over the country. I was so excited that i giggled alone, and jerit2 sorang2 in the car. My brother in-law being a liverpool fan, wasnt really amused but i know he was as excited as i was, secretly. hahaha. by the time we arrived at Old trafford, tarffic was terrible. Mujur ada policemen (in hot leather pants,yaww) to guide the traffic, it took us 1 bloody hour just to get to the parking, then it was 7pm and we had to pay a freaking 10P for the parking tickets!! Shoosssh!!! But it was just soo good.

Glory-glory Man United!
Glory-glory Man United!
Glory-glory Man United!
As the Reds go Marching ON! ON! ON!

traffic congestion on the way to the car park.
Fans walking towards the stadium.

When i got out of the car, i was so overwhelmed. adults, elderlies, childrens and babies mostly clad in the new home-kit can be seen everywhere. Just too many of 'em! Met a few malaysians there. i wore his New jersey. I had too! but he gave me all clear to 'rasmikan' his new jersey. There was still an hour before the game begins, so i heret my brother in-law to go see what the locals have to offer. Byk k! Man U scarves, man u emblem pins and many2 more. I just didnt have enough money to buy 'em. managed to get 3 man u pins for ourselves. that thing costed me a bloody 2.50P each!! Siap ada episode berebut the emblem pin dgn this mat-saleh. He wanted the one that i bought and that was the last piece. haha.. sorry dudes!

This is before the game begins. Just look at the crowd!

By 7.30pm we started to make our way into the stadium. and when i stood facing the field, i was just so overwhelmed and excited. I wish you were there with me. I know it would be more meaningful for you, and for us. The field, was so beautiful. Very green and very-very well maintained. And i could see players from both teams on the field. kicking some balls, running here and there, warming up. I had to take pictures for him. I know he'll love it so much! i could see Rooney, Christiano Ronaldo, Ryan Giggs, Ferdinand, Van der Sar on the field. yang lain tu, xfamiliar mula2. At approximately 7.45 pm, the show began. It started off with the song *we are the champion, sung by two singers from New Zealand. It was superb! i went goosebumps, Yela, Inter Milan won the Siera A league and Man U won the EPL. Pastu they pasang lagu Take me Home United Road and Glory Glory Man United. Those around me menyanyi dgn semangat. If u were there, i am so sure you would sing ur heart out darling. U were constantly on my mind. muaaaah!!!

warming up session

Rooney! rooney!!

At 8 pm sharp, the game began! fuh. the rest of the Man U players were, Vidic, Wes Brown, Michael carrick, Chris Eagles, Evra, Oshea. Rooney scored the first goal at 15th minute. All of us stood up and jumped in joy!! and then they started singing Glory2 man Utd followed by united cheers. When the camera focused at Rooney, everyone screamed Rooney!rooney!rooney!. Just 10 minutes after the Man U scored, Ibramovic pushed Evra down! Kejii!! and man U players sort of lose their focus on the game because the ref refused to stop the game and then Inter Milan scored their first goal. S**l punye ref!! 10 minutes later, they scored another one!! Damn! haih!! Shortly before the end of first half, Inter Milan scored yet again,their 3rd goal, just like how they scored their first goal. ref!! lu siutss!!! Hurmm. Italians are soo super-opportunist! Kejiii!!! by end of first half, the score was ManU 1- InterMilan 3.

Just before the game starts

clap! clap! clap!

Throw in for United! Thats Giggsy!

at half time, this singer, *cortez sang an opera song, the famous *Nessun Dorma, and it was just lovely. 15 minutes later, the players got back onto the field. and the game started. This time, Christiano Ronaldo's free kick was deflected into the goal by InterMilan's players. and so we scored the second goal. I really hoped that Man U would recover back from the 1 goal difference. and perhaps and equalizer so that there would be a penalty shoot out. However, they didnt managed to do it. aaawww.. kecewaa.. but it was good though. my sister wasnt so well, that at first we thought of heading home straight. But just imagine, 73,000 people turned up at the stadium, the roads would be so badly congested. I remembered reading this girl's blog, saying that they waited outside the south entrance (where the players come out) to get for their signatures. Waited and waited, Inter Milan Players were immediately directed to their busses. xsempat nak mintak signature. byk security guards and we had to stand behind barriers. i had to squeeze myself in between those matsallehs!! dahla besar, busuk pulak tu! then from afar, i could see rooney, ryan giggs, Ronaldo. tp diorg xnak sign. Fine! pastu mase tu tomasz Kuzsczak tgh busy sign2! so i screamed! Please sign mu tickets!tp, xdpt.sedih sangat. but seb baik my brother in-law pergi dapatkan his signature for me. Then there was Anderson. owh. yang ni maximum jerit!! He came so near.depan je!and he's cute. I got his signature!! :D then came nani, and chris ronaldo, they all masuk into his car. Fletcher pon ada, ferdinand, and oshea was the last. so, xsempat nk dpt their signatures. dpt 2 pon jadi la. happy enuff. that will definitely make him soo much happy..

Tomasz Kuszczak,hmm.where are the others??

went home feeling contented. i hope that i could come here again, i want to take him with me. and take him to see a match. before we start having children. And tomorrow, i'll be on my way home. i just cant wait to see him!i really cant wait!! oklah. i've run out of ideas. ciao!!

dikala bosan

i have been here for almost 2 months, and i just cant wait to go home. i really do. I've learned so many things here. macam2, and i've been through all sorts of experience,throughout my stay here. Apart from the heart-wrecking experiences which i dont wish to remember, there are other things that did brought me to smile, and feel happy. I enjoy the bus rides to the city centre and to Traf*ford Centre. i mean, i dont ride buses back in Malaysia, coz i have a car. so, i do enjoy it here. I am sure, it would be very much the same in Malaysia. I know that they've improved the bus system. Good. Sometimes, i would missed the service and ended up waiting for another half hour. When i'm just inpatient enough, i'd just try other services and make sure i would get to the destination . usually, its faster that way. Other than that, someone will drive for me. The road system here is different than in Malaysia. Memangla diorg lagi curteous. that is without a doubt.

ok, so other than that, i cook like almost every single day. I repeat, every single day. i've never really cook, as in real meal. i do la spaghetti (shadap! at least i know how to), gulai udang, chicken curry, sup ayam. yg lain2 tu, i;ve never tried it before, so buat la ayam/dgg masak merah, masak paprik la. and buat sup daging. fuiyooo! as well as gulai daging salai! achievement! never tried it before, but of course i know how it is being done la. mmg, boost my confidence in cooking. Pastu, i've always wanted to try to decorate cupcakes, but i just couldnt find the correct icing recipe. So, one day, went to a bookstore, and i found this baking book for childrens party, and gua ape lagi, cikun la recipe. secare terang-terangan.xpe.kat sini, membaca buku di kedai adalah legal, apetah lagi nak mengcikun recipe. jadi, i tried it and owh, it tasted so good, manis,tp x la sampai kencing manis. sedap! haha.puas hati! Owh2, karipap jugak!! semangat betul!!

oklah,dah bosan.
ciao

Aimi

this is a birthday entry for my dear dear friend, Aimi. She is a very special friend to me. And i love her very much. My dad used to tell me "Your true friends are those from school days, sebab mase tu masing2 kecik and the freindship is pure, dah besar2 ni, masing-masing ada kepentingan sendiri. and i dont make a good friend myself. I'm more a family person. I think so. ahaks. But she was the one who has always been there when i needed someone. She has always listened to whatever that i feel like babbling, during happy moments and even sad moments. Even this blog, i think she has never failed to update herself with whatever that i feel like telling (okla, sbb die je yang tau pon :p). And i am so grateful to have her as my friend. And despite me being the lousy friend as always, i will not forget to wish her on her birthday, so i'm going to do it right now, coz i know she'll be reading it.

Yang, i dont do this to any other friend, but you. Thank you so much for all the memories we had, thank you for all the kindness you've offered to me, and thank you for being such a wonderful2 friend. I miss you so much.

May Allah bless you with many happy returns of the day. I hope u will get married cepat2, have babies cepat2, and happy always. ahaks, :p. and i hope that whatever comes in between us, be it distance, husbands, (bfs have failed to keep us apart la kan?) we will always remain as we are. *maybe kite leh match make kan anak2 kite pulak..(overla kan?) hahah.

Happy 23rd Birthday Aimi


lots of loves,

Jane.ahaks

If it makes you happy..

its been awhile since i last felt happy. i am happy only when i'm with my sister n her husband. I so love their company. and when i go out to town/go out of the house, even for a walk to a nearby shop to get milk. i'll be miserable immediately when i'm back at the house. Just dont ask me why. However, today was different. Its the little boy's birthday party. there were easily 50 people in the house (not including us, the host). and everyone did have a good time. I myself, felt so much happy. at least i get to meet people. Suddenly, the crave to laugh with someone else, and not them.

they are the over-stayed malaysian doctors, architects, engineers and they are doing really well here. with their children, all speaking london ok! berabuk! ahaks. but they are just a bunch of very nice people. so, since there were about 15 family who came, the little boy received 15 bday presents.owh how lucky. all the best toys a child would want. Malangnya, masa aku kecik, mane ada erti bday2 party ni. Of course we celebrate bdays, but its just amongst us, family members. Maka, hadiah pon satu sahaja. obviously from my parents la kan. and that only happens in like, once in, i dunno, probably 3-4 years. So this boy is a lucky boy. And then, i realized that, memangla best kan party-tarty ni, nak2 kat sini. u dont have ur family here. adik beradik semua kat malaysia. pastu, all that u have is your small family and friends from the uni days. or after that, which ever la kan. sebab tu la semua org happy2. *dah tu semuaorg sebaya kan? cuba kalau buat kat malaysia, mana ada 50 orang. kawan atuk nenek lagi, kawan mak, kawan bapak, u know those kinda things. hmmm..*tatau la ape yg aku bebel. tp, aku teringin nak bebel.
And i am so freaking tired! i love the kids, wpon diorg buat aku berang *kadang2 coz i caught the whole brood, jumping on the bed, MY BED!! tp, they are kids. Kalau aku dulu pon aku buat jugak, tp gerenti kene piat telinga. The day wasnt very kind to us. It rained in the afternoon, and windy so it was pretty cold. so kanak2 riang girang tu HAD to play indoor, instead of outdoor. tp, xpe. i liked it. I know i wont get these often. So it was good, wpon all the good things wont last that long though. there were some episodes of *kesakitan hati. Tapi, the day was very much better than the days before this. owh so very much better! Owh2! i know why. sbb, org xorg gaji kan aku! ahahahaha. aku syukur sangat. wpon the kemas bit was hell. Sampah ya rabbii!!! seb baik dalam rumah je, imagine kalau kat luar! sure esok kene rake the garden,damn!!so,it was good. Good good good.

So, since i did most of the cleaning up, i am so freaking sure that i'll have to do the rest esok. Sampah, sape nak buang?! Nanti busuk. Aku suruh buang tadi degil. ergh, BBQ set, canopy, sape nak dismantle? erk?me?! *gulp. hahahaha. aku pon nak berkira laaa kan? eh, dah la. ni ada gamba kanak2 riang girang bermain games. Aksi yg sungguh melucukan.. aku sungguh gembira.

listening to the instruction on how to play the game
focus kids, focus!

shake your booty!!
kecik2 dah pandai joget mcm org tua!
nasib baik joget dan melompat, that makes u
a kid, still. pheeewwwh!

hurry up!pass the box over to me, quicklY!!

budak-budak tido?whatt!!
ini bday party,kenape kene tido?!
sebab korg tu memekak sangat!hahahaha!
semua kene tipu!bagus2!
Pssst psssst*they though it was a game.hihi

okay la.i'm tired, i need to get some sleep.
ciao.

Muhasabah

wow, i've just read this blog. It is where all the articles written by dr. Asri. Mufti Perlis. and i've backlogged for six months. Personally, i like the way he delivers the message, it is very clear and because he relates it to Our (malaysians) lifestyle, mindset, and that have made it even clearer. Rase mcm nak copy paste one article. Tapi he didnot only discuss about one problem, but as u go along, u'll realize that everything is related, in many2 ways. For example, he mentioned about single moms, yg amek hormone pills to breastfeed the adopted child. he said, there is no problem with that, but we have to investigate why, org dh xnak kawen, have their own children. Thats where he relates the problem. Masalah in family institution, *hak wanita (as according to Islam, not the feminist) xdijaga, mahkamah syariah tidak efektif, masalah kemunduran dalam pemikiran Islam dikalangan masyarakat. fuiyooo.

The thing is, Dr. Asri dah menyediakan kita semua, a medium, memudahkan kite. sometimes, we do not realize until someone hits us on our back. So practically, that is what Dr. Asri is doing, and what we have to do is, Jangan cepat melatah. We must want to learn. mencari ilmu. Ilmu agama to be exact. I mean, this is obviously for myself as well, a reminder. the message that Dr. Asri is trying to convey is, Islam is not rigid, not difficult to practice, and definitely not backwards. If only we know how beautiful Islam is. hmmm. what we have to do is, we have to open up our hearts and mind. and Mintak doa to the Almighty that He will mudahkan ilmu untuk kita semua, dan tunjukkan kepada kita semua, jalan yg benar. InsyaAllah.

wow, please go here if u want to read more. please do.
toodloo.

Demam already

they wanted to visit their friend in sheffield, but it was merely to get the feel of their new audi a3. yeah. cun gile.i like the car too. but i really didnt feel like wanting to join them to sheffield. i am feeling abit under the weather. ermm.. low grade temperature, muscle aches, chesty cough and sore throat. and i dont want to go to their friend's place and terpaksa terbaring on the sofa just because i'm not feeling well. so, eventually i was alone. luckily, it gets dark around 930. and they were already home. so, xdela cuak sangat.

btw, rumah ni dah tua. it is a 200+ years old house. So, u can expect la all the scary bits, once a while. u do get things like, the baby cuz just went 'my friend is downstairs.. my friend is old' hahaha. it does sound scaaaryy.. tp, so far, xdela lagi kejadian2 yg tidak di ingini. ahaks. anyways, i'm 20 days away from going home. lepas tu, owh, i just cant wait.

okla,i've to rest.
ciao.

keberjangkitan kuman

budak kecik tu demam, and now, i have sore throat. tidak ku suka!! kalau aku sok-sek lepas ni, nasiblah kamu-kamu yg ada dekat dengan aku. pasti akan turut berjangkit

Which group do you think you belong to?

i received this article from a good friend. :) And i think it is a good piece of article. terdiam sendiri membaca. Mesti mencari lebih ilmu dan du'a agar tidak tergolong dalam mana-mana golongan yang terlupa.. ameeeen..

There are 1) the women who wear Hijab out of conviction that it is the Islamic thing to do. Then there are 2) the women who wear it only because their mothers and grandmothers wore it; unaware of its true Islamic significance. The third group, 3) the non-Muslim feminists, rally against anything that covers up even one inch of the female form, but we already expected this from them. And finally, 4) there are the secular "Muslim" women, who almost never practice Islam anyway, but who have Muslim names and roots, who make it a point to appear at all Muslim gatherings with hair fashionably styled in full public glory.

i wish i could write more..but i think the article would suffice. i wish you all the best, and baca lah dengan hati yang terbuka.

Masih Aku Terasa

Akan ku simpan
kenangan cinta kita
yang tak akan terpadam selamanya

Kehangatan cintamu
masih aku terasa
seperti baru semalam kita berpisah

Masih aku terasa:Gersang

I miss home so much. the food, the weather, everything. it was a good thing he transferred loads of songs malay and english into my laptop before i left. So listening to malay songs, makes me feel so much closer to home. The thing is, i crave for songs from early 90's era. the likes of gersang, lefthanded, wings, blackrose, damasutra. and its on repeat on my laptop. But this particular song here, reminds me of my late friend, a bestfriend she was to me. Asiyah Hananah. *:(

She passed away when she was only 2 months away from her 17th birthday in a car accident. Sedih pulak. Allah lend her to me as a bestfriend, for just a year. I'm glad enuff for the short time given to enjoy her company. owh,i miss her so much, still. owh back to my story. during our school days, we always right messages to each other, eventhough we meet like every other time. *we werent in the same class, but of course we hanged out together alot. buat perkara jenayah bersama-sama, dgn jaja,atam,zilad. One fine day, she handed me a msg. very nicely folded, neatly written with pencil. inside it, the lyrics that i put up. Mase tu terlupe betapa bestnye lagu gersang tu. so she sort of like ingatkan balek the song to me. and we nyanyi like all the time, and thats how it kept playing on my mind.

a few months later, i lost her in a car accident. it's terrible to lose someone whom u've been very much attached to. and the rest of the gang was with her *they survived, and were given a month rest. i was alone, and it was just terrible. i cried most of the time, in class, when i wake up in the morning *coz i had to pass by her dorm where i usually stopped by before having bath. And especially when i listen to this song. And now, i still miss her. so much. its been 6 years already. Asiyah, i know that u're in good hands of Allah, and u're always in my heart.

okay, i'm crying now. rinduuu..

susah senang dikongsi bersama

i need more garden therapy
the heart-ache is really eating me out
if i dont stand up,
i know i'll crumble down
crumble down really bad!

More garden therapy please oh please!

Of Smiles and Heartaches

To start with, we went to London last week. It was such a busy and exciting week for me, i got to meet many doctor friends of both my aunt and uncle. Such nice ppl they are. That doesnot count the emotional wreck i had to deal with. I'm just so glad that he's there for me, my sis as well. So, what did we do basically? the first day, i took grandmama to Highstreet *Eastham. The street stretches up to, i do not know how many miles. But, we only managed to walk until P*rimark. It rained and the poor lil A*mad, had to be kept out of the cold.so,we went back home immediately. I seriously didnt know that there are many more shops and market up ahead. *i seriously thought that was like, far enuff for me. only to founf myself being laughed at for only able to get to P*rimark?! such an embarrassment,really. H*ighstreet Ea*stham bustled with people and buses. Most of them aren't mat saleh eng*land, they are from.. everywhere. multinational town, i guess. ahaks. I craved for burger K*ing, Mc*Ds, and Pi*zza H*ut. Unfortunately, they are all non-halal in this country.So i had to settle with H*alal F*ried Chicken.

Too many people, too many shops, and not a very
good weather

The market, and fruit-mongers
the cherries were very2 fresh.yummy!

cherries.:D

The next day, we left e*astham for heath*row. but, we stopped by at Kew Garden. and it was lovely. Lovely Lovely Lovely. I can say, it's worth the money we paid. a good 12.50 GBP per person. Ahaks. Unfortunately, the weather was not as lovely as the blooming roses, but it was alright. I'll just let the pics do all the talking alright?

on the way to a conservatory. the surroundings,
tranquilizing.

i can just sit in the garden and enjoy the
tranquility.owh, its good the aching heart
:from the rhododenrum garden

one whole stretch of lavender
i have the close up,but too many pics to put up.

beds of roses
they are of different colours and vibrant.
u'll be attracted to it naturally
aaaaah.love.love.

finding our way out of that part of the garden
on the way to see

she's a beauty, but she looks like berus j*amban.
heheh.but she is a beauty.lets give justice to it.
:p

meditteranean garden. of palms, cactus
and many more. I just dont know their names.
this is when it began to rain.owh dear.

yet another conservatory
it says there :CLOSED:
:p

sungguh Indah.

one of the wonders of Allah's Creations.
*amazed

the building over there is the called O*rangery
Thats where ppl organize Garden wedding.

need i say more?
this garden is also called the smell garden
u just have to smell the flowers, they all..
lovely!

read and smell
:)

another rumah kaca

dtg sini!cuba bau!wangiii!
This is the rose that they use to make
perfumes. aaaaaah.

yes it is. this is the Rose.
.exquisiteness.
bunga untuk mama.

pretty.
Allah is the Greatest, owh most definitely

jalan slow-slow
u should want to feel the
effects of the fragrance and the beauty of
God's Creation

i've never seen this on before.

look at the colour pigmentation
amazing!

Lily?! Lily it is!!
my mom's favourite
.calmness.

why cant i go both ways?
overwhelmed by the mesmeric-view of the garden

the Princess of Wales Conservatory

They have plenty of plants from different part of the world, according to
the climate or continent.

Orchids.white, purple,yellow?
such vibrant colours.
xleh benti amek gambar!sayang!

cantiiik!!
all the different types of orchids.
i've really run out of vocabs to describe all these.
hahahaha.tp mmg tersangat indah.

rainforest plants

dead Titan Arum.
busuk but huge
oh oh terbalik
huge! but busuk!

ala,mcm penah tgk je.
kt mane?:p

this is a definitely a sirih and kayu manis family.
pandai2 je.
the bulbs are pink!

u get these alot in gardens in malaysia.
.lily.

cactus and mediteranean plants

sweet.ive always loved this shade of pink

SERABUT!!
mcm lalang.

yellow buds.

this is the barrel cactus.
besar.macam barrel.
gendang.i'm so amazed.

u dont get this often, kan?
yes, cactus do bear flowers

cactus cactus cactus

one of the last pics i took.
i was being told that the conservatory is about to be closed,
so i have to quickly leave.

water lily

periuk kera
sape tak tau?!
the ones that i saw in Malaysia, they were small,
tiny weeney,but this one is big!

well, that was it. my trip to Kew Garden. Its such a lovely experience and if i have more time, i would love to spend more time there, definitely. as i said ealier, its good for the aching heart. i really enjoyed myself. before i stop, this pokok down here, bunga die bau mcm bunga tanjung!

Wangii!!!

okay, that is all about it i guess. i'm all of vocab. thats what u get when u have to talk to a 3 year old kid, and plus the lack of reading. enjoy this post. i hope u'll love it as much as i do!
till then, ciao.