dikala bosan

i have been here for almost 2 months, and i just cant wait to go home. i really do. I've learned so many things here. macam2, and i've been through all sorts of experience,throughout my stay here. Apart from the heart-wrecking experiences which i dont wish to remember, there are other things that did brought me to smile, and feel happy. I enjoy the bus rides to the city centre and to Traf*ford Centre. i mean, i dont ride buses back in Malaysia, coz i have a car. so, i do enjoy it here. I am sure, it would be very much the same in Malaysia. I know that they've improved the bus system. Good. Sometimes, i would missed the service and ended up waiting for another half hour. When i'm just inpatient enough, i'd just try other services and make sure i would get to the destination . usually, its faster that way. Other than that, someone will drive for me. The road system here is different than in Malaysia. Memangla diorg lagi curteous. that is without a doubt.

ok, so other than that, i cook like almost every single day. I repeat, every single day. i've never really cook, as in real meal. i do la spaghetti (shadap! at least i know how to), gulai udang, chicken curry, sup ayam. yg lain2 tu, i;ve never tried it before, so buat la ayam/dgg masak merah, masak paprik la. and buat sup daging. fuiyooo! as well as gulai daging salai! achievement! never tried it before, but of course i know how it is being done la. mmg, boost my confidence in cooking. Pastu, i've always wanted to try to decorate cupcakes, but i just couldnt find the correct icing recipe. So, one day, went to a bookstore, and i found this baking book for childrens party, and gua ape lagi, cikun la recipe. secare terang-terangan.xpe.kat sini, membaca buku di kedai adalah legal, apetah lagi nak mengcikun recipe. jadi, i tried it and owh, it tasted so good, manis,tp x la sampai kencing manis. sedap! haha.puas hati! Owh2, karipap jugak!! semangat betul!!

oklah,dah bosan.
ciao

Aimi

this is a birthday entry for my dear dear friend, Aimi. She is a very special friend to me. And i love her very much. My dad used to tell me "Your true friends are those from school days, sebab mase tu masing2 kecik and the freindship is pure, dah besar2 ni, masing-masing ada kepentingan sendiri. and i dont make a good friend myself. I'm more a family person. I think so. ahaks. But she was the one who has always been there when i needed someone. She has always listened to whatever that i feel like babbling, during happy moments and even sad moments. Even this blog, i think she has never failed to update herself with whatever that i feel like telling (okla, sbb die je yang tau pon :p). And i am so grateful to have her as my friend. And despite me being the lousy friend as always, i will not forget to wish her on her birthday, so i'm going to do it right now, coz i know she'll be reading it.

Yang, i dont do this to any other friend, but you. Thank you so much for all the memories we had, thank you for all the kindness you've offered to me, and thank you for being such a wonderful2 friend. I miss you so much.

May Allah bless you with many happy returns of the day. I hope u will get married cepat2, have babies cepat2, and happy always. ahaks, :p. and i hope that whatever comes in between us, be it distance, husbands, (bfs have failed to keep us apart la kan?) we will always remain as we are. *maybe kite leh match make kan anak2 kite pulak..(overla kan?) hahah.

Happy 23rd Birthday Aimi


lots of loves,

Jane.ahaks

If it makes you happy..

its been awhile since i last felt happy. i am happy only when i'm with my sister n her husband. I so love their company. and when i go out to town/go out of the house, even for a walk to a nearby shop to get milk. i'll be miserable immediately when i'm back at the house. Just dont ask me why. However, today was different. Its the little boy's birthday party. there were easily 50 people in the house (not including us, the host). and everyone did have a good time. I myself, felt so much happy. at least i get to meet people. Suddenly, the crave to laugh with someone else, and not them.

they are the over-stayed malaysian doctors, architects, engineers and they are doing really well here. with their children, all speaking london ok! berabuk! ahaks. but they are just a bunch of very nice people. so, since there were about 15 family who came, the little boy received 15 bday presents.owh how lucky. all the best toys a child would want. Malangnya, masa aku kecik, mane ada erti bday2 party ni. Of course we celebrate bdays, but its just amongst us, family members. Maka, hadiah pon satu sahaja. obviously from my parents la kan. and that only happens in like, once in, i dunno, probably 3-4 years. So this boy is a lucky boy. And then, i realized that, memangla best kan party-tarty ni, nak2 kat sini. u dont have ur family here. adik beradik semua kat malaysia. pastu, all that u have is your small family and friends from the uni days. or after that, which ever la kan. sebab tu la semua org happy2. *dah tu semuaorg sebaya kan? cuba kalau buat kat malaysia, mana ada 50 orang. kawan atuk nenek lagi, kawan mak, kawan bapak, u know those kinda things. hmmm..*tatau la ape yg aku bebel. tp, aku teringin nak bebel.
And i am so freaking tired! i love the kids, wpon diorg buat aku berang *kadang2 coz i caught the whole brood, jumping on the bed, MY BED!! tp, they are kids. Kalau aku dulu pon aku buat jugak, tp gerenti kene piat telinga. The day wasnt very kind to us. It rained in the afternoon, and windy so it was pretty cold. so kanak2 riang girang tu HAD to play indoor, instead of outdoor. tp, xpe. i liked it. I know i wont get these often. So it was good, wpon all the good things wont last that long though. there were some episodes of *kesakitan hati. Tapi, the day was very much better than the days before this. owh so very much better! Owh2! i know why. sbb, org xorg gaji kan aku! ahahahaha. aku syukur sangat. wpon the kemas bit was hell. Sampah ya rabbii!!! seb baik dalam rumah je, imagine kalau kat luar! sure esok kene rake the garden,damn!!so,it was good. Good good good.

So, since i did most of the cleaning up, i am so freaking sure that i'll have to do the rest esok. Sampah, sape nak buang?! Nanti busuk. Aku suruh buang tadi degil. ergh, BBQ set, canopy, sape nak dismantle? erk?me?! *gulp. hahahaha. aku pon nak berkira laaa kan? eh, dah la. ni ada gamba kanak2 riang girang bermain games. Aksi yg sungguh melucukan.. aku sungguh gembira.

listening to the instruction on how to play the game
focus kids, focus!

shake your booty!!
kecik2 dah pandai joget mcm org tua!
nasib baik joget dan melompat, that makes u
a kid, still. pheeewwwh!

hurry up!pass the box over to me, quicklY!!

budak-budak tido?whatt!!
ini bday party,kenape kene tido?!
sebab korg tu memekak sangat!hahahaha!
semua kene tipu!bagus2!
Pssst psssst*they though it was a game.hihi

okay la.i'm tired, i need to get some sleep.
ciao.

Muhasabah

wow, i've just read this blog. It is where all the articles written by dr. Asri. Mufti Perlis. and i've backlogged for six months. Personally, i like the way he delivers the message, it is very clear and because he relates it to Our (malaysians) lifestyle, mindset, and that have made it even clearer. Rase mcm nak copy paste one article. Tapi he didnot only discuss about one problem, but as u go along, u'll realize that everything is related, in many2 ways. For example, he mentioned about single moms, yg amek hormone pills to breastfeed the adopted child. he said, there is no problem with that, but we have to investigate why, org dh xnak kawen, have their own children. Thats where he relates the problem. Masalah in family institution, *hak wanita (as according to Islam, not the feminist) xdijaga, mahkamah syariah tidak efektif, masalah kemunduran dalam pemikiran Islam dikalangan masyarakat. fuiyooo.

The thing is, Dr. Asri dah menyediakan kita semua, a medium, memudahkan kite. sometimes, we do not realize until someone hits us on our back. So practically, that is what Dr. Asri is doing, and what we have to do is, Jangan cepat melatah. We must want to learn. mencari ilmu. Ilmu agama to be exact. I mean, this is obviously for myself as well, a reminder. the message that Dr. Asri is trying to convey is, Islam is not rigid, not difficult to practice, and definitely not backwards. If only we know how beautiful Islam is. hmmm. what we have to do is, we have to open up our hearts and mind. and Mintak doa to the Almighty that He will mudahkan ilmu untuk kita semua, dan tunjukkan kepada kita semua, jalan yg benar. InsyaAllah.

wow, please go here if u want to read more. please do.
toodloo.

Demam already

they wanted to visit their friend in sheffield, but it was merely to get the feel of their new audi a3. yeah. cun gile.i like the car too. but i really didnt feel like wanting to join them to sheffield. i am feeling abit under the weather. ermm.. low grade temperature, muscle aches, chesty cough and sore throat. and i dont want to go to their friend's place and terpaksa terbaring on the sofa just because i'm not feeling well. so, eventually i was alone. luckily, it gets dark around 930. and they were already home. so, xdela cuak sangat.

btw, rumah ni dah tua. it is a 200+ years old house. So, u can expect la all the scary bits, once a while. u do get things like, the baby cuz just went 'my friend is downstairs.. my friend is old' hahaha. it does sound scaaaryy.. tp, so far, xdela lagi kejadian2 yg tidak di ingini. ahaks. anyways, i'm 20 days away from going home. lepas tu, owh, i just cant wait.

okla,i've to rest.
ciao.

keberjangkitan kuman

budak kecik tu demam, and now, i have sore throat. tidak ku suka!! kalau aku sok-sek lepas ni, nasiblah kamu-kamu yg ada dekat dengan aku. pasti akan turut berjangkit

Which group do you think you belong to?

i received this article from a good friend. :) And i think it is a good piece of article. terdiam sendiri membaca. Mesti mencari lebih ilmu dan du'a agar tidak tergolong dalam mana-mana golongan yang terlupa.. ameeeen..

There are 1) the women who wear Hijab out of conviction that it is the Islamic thing to do. Then there are 2) the women who wear it only because their mothers and grandmothers wore it; unaware of its true Islamic significance. The third group, 3) the non-Muslim feminists, rally against anything that covers up even one inch of the female form, but we already expected this from them. And finally, 4) there are the secular "Muslim" women, who almost never practice Islam anyway, but who have Muslim names and roots, who make it a point to appear at all Muslim gatherings with hair fashionably styled in full public glory.

i wish i could write more..but i think the article would suffice. i wish you all the best, and baca lah dengan hati yang terbuka.

Masih Aku Terasa

Akan ku simpan
kenangan cinta kita
yang tak akan terpadam selamanya

Kehangatan cintamu
masih aku terasa
seperti baru semalam kita berpisah

Masih aku terasa:Gersang

I miss home so much. the food, the weather, everything. it was a good thing he transferred loads of songs malay and english into my laptop before i left. So listening to malay songs, makes me feel so much closer to home. The thing is, i crave for songs from early 90's era. the likes of gersang, lefthanded, wings, blackrose, damasutra. and its on repeat on my laptop. But this particular song here, reminds me of my late friend, a bestfriend she was to me. Asiyah Hananah. *:(

She passed away when she was only 2 months away from her 17th birthday in a car accident. Sedih pulak. Allah lend her to me as a bestfriend, for just a year. I'm glad enuff for the short time given to enjoy her company. owh,i miss her so much, still. owh back to my story. during our school days, we always right messages to each other, eventhough we meet like every other time. *we werent in the same class, but of course we hanged out together alot. buat perkara jenayah bersama-sama, dgn jaja,atam,zilad. One fine day, she handed me a msg. very nicely folded, neatly written with pencil. inside it, the lyrics that i put up. Mase tu terlupe betapa bestnye lagu gersang tu. so she sort of like ingatkan balek the song to me. and we nyanyi like all the time, and thats how it kept playing on my mind.

a few months later, i lost her in a car accident. it's terrible to lose someone whom u've been very much attached to. and the rest of the gang was with her *they survived, and were given a month rest. i was alone, and it was just terrible. i cried most of the time, in class, when i wake up in the morning *coz i had to pass by her dorm where i usually stopped by before having bath. And especially when i listen to this song. And now, i still miss her. so much. its been 6 years already. Asiyah, i know that u're in good hands of Allah, and u're always in my heart.

okay, i'm crying now. rinduuu..

susah senang dikongsi bersama

i need more garden therapy
the heart-ache is really eating me out
if i dont stand up,
i know i'll crumble down
crumble down really bad!

More garden therapy please oh please!

Of Smiles and Heartaches

To start with, we went to London last week. It was such a busy and exciting week for me, i got to meet many doctor friends of both my aunt and uncle. Such nice ppl they are. That doesnot count the emotional wreck i had to deal with. I'm just so glad that he's there for me, my sis as well. So, what did we do basically? the first day, i took grandmama to Highstreet *Eastham. The street stretches up to, i do not know how many miles. But, we only managed to walk until P*rimark. It rained and the poor lil A*mad, had to be kept out of the cold.so,we went back home immediately. I seriously didnt know that there are many more shops and market up ahead. *i seriously thought that was like, far enuff for me. only to founf myself being laughed at for only able to get to P*rimark?! such an embarrassment,really. H*ighstreet Ea*stham bustled with people and buses. Most of them aren't mat saleh eng*land, they are from.. everywhere. multinational town, i guess. ahaks. I craved for burger K*ing, Mc*Ds, and Pi*zza H*ut. Unfortunately, they are all non-halal in this country.So i had to settle with H*alal F*ried Chicken.

Too many people, too many shops, and not a very
good weather

The market, and fruit-mongers
the cherries were very2 fresh.yummy!

cherries.:D

The next day, we left e*astham for heath*row. but, we stopped by at Kew Garden. and it was lovely. Lovely Lovely Lovely. I can say, it's worth the money we paid. a good 12.50 GBP per person. Ahaks. Unfortunately, the weather was not as lovely as the blooming roses, but it was alright. I'll just let the pics do all the talking alright?

on the way to a conservatory. the surroundings,
tranquilizing.

i can just sit in the garden and enjoy the
tranquility.owh, its good the aching heart
:from the rhododenrum garden

one whole stretch of lavender
i have the close up,but too many pics to put up.

beds of roses
they are of different colours and vibrant.
u'll be attracted to it naturally
aaaaah.love.love.

finding our way out of that part of the garden
on the way to see

she's a beauty, but she looks like berus j*amban.
heheh.but she is a beauty.lets give justice to it.
:p

meditteranean garden. of palms, cactus
and many more. I just dont know their names.
this is when it began to rain.owh dear.

yet another conservatory
it says there :CLOSED:
:p

sungguh Indah.

one of the wonders of Allah's Creations.
*amazed

the building over there is the called O*rangery
Thats where ppl organize Garden wedding.

need i say more?
this garden is also called the smell garden
u just have to smell the flowers, they all..
lovely!

read and smell
:)

another rumah kaca

dtg sini!cuba bau!wangiii!
This is the rose that they use to make
perfumes. aaaaaah.

yes it is. this is the Rose.
.exquisiteness.
bunga untuk mama.

pretty.
Allah is the Greatest, owh most definitely

jalan slow-slow
u should want to feel the
effects of the fragrance and the beauty of
God's Creation

i've never seen this on before.

look at the colour pigmentation
amazing!

Lily?! Lily it is!!
my mom's favourite
.calmness.

why cant i go both ways?
overwhelmed by the mesmeric-view of the garden

the Princess of Wales Conservatory

They have plenty of plants from different part of the world, according to
the climate or continent.

Orchids.white, purple,yellow?
such vibrant colours.
xleh benti amek gambar!sayang!

cantiiik!!
all the different types of orchids.
i've really run out of vocabs to describe all these.
hahahaha.tp mmg tersangat indah.

rainforest plants

dead Titan Arum.
busuk but huge
oh oh terbalik
huge! but busuk!

ala,mcm penah tgk je.
kt mane?:p

this is a definitely a sirih and kayu manis family.
pandai2 je.
the bulbs are pink!

u get these alot in gardens in malaysia.
.lily.

cactus and mediteranean plants

sweet.ive always loved this shade of pink

SERABUT!!
mcm lalang.

yellow buds.

this is the barrel cactus.
besar.macam barrel.
gendang.i'm so amazed.

u dont get this often, kan?
yes, cactus do bear flowers

cactus cactus cactus

one of the last pics i took.
i was being told that the conservatory is about to be closed,
so i have to quickly leave.

water lily

periuk kera
sape tak tau?!
the ones that i saw in Malaysia, they were small,
tiny weeney,but this one is big!

well, that was it. my trip to Kew Garden. Its such a lovely experience and if i have more time, i would love to spend more time there, definitely. as i said ealier, its good for the aching heart. i really enjoyed myself. before i stop, this pokok down here, bunga die bau mcm bunga tanjung!

Wangii!!!

okay, that is all about it i guess. i'm all of vocab. thats what u get when u have to talk to a 3 year old kid, and plus the lack of reading. enjoy this post. i hope u'll love it as much as i do!
till then, ciao.