H A M ZA ft A B B A S

a picture speaks thousand words...there are 20 pictures in this post..Syukur Alhamdulillah..we are blessed with 2 charming sons...

Hamza's first swim

Hamza loves his bathing time so much. When he was smaller (and shorter in length, hehe), we bathe him in his tub. We bought him a recliner, and that made it alot easier for both, Hamza and us. Basically, he'll just relax away and enjoy his bath. His feet and hands'd go spleesh! splash! He'll kick the foams and he'll eat 'em. So, during the Christmas Hols, the family gathered in PD. We took the chance to take Hamza for his first swim. My sister pulak, gave him 3 swimming nappy! aaaah, Syukuuuur. *kang xpasal-pasal poo dalam pool kang. eeeww. We bought him a float, tapi besar for him since he couldn't sit properly. We still use it despite it being too big for him. 

His Baba put him in his float, and u know, he didn't do much. He didn't paddle/swim. *maybe sebab air sejuk. But, it lasted for 5 minutes only. 5 minutes! His Baba took him out, wrapped him in his towel, and u guessed? He fell asleep almost immediately! hahahahaha.. Hamza, hamza. all his granduncles and grandaunties geram looking at him! The next day, he went swimming with Hammam. Hahahaha. This time, he stayed longer in the pool. Haih. My son, dah besar dah. How time flies.. hmmm..

In my car (float!)

Can we go now? Sejuk!! Bbbrrrr!!

Mama!! Come in and join me and baba!!

Chicken Pox ke Teething?

I just got up some minutes ago. He woke me up several times, and now I just couldn't put myself back to sleep. He is though. I do not hope for this. But i think Hamza is not feeling well. It started off yesterday morning when changing his nappy. I noticed some coarsness in his voice and i think he had a bit of temperature as well. But, i thought that that's normal. Yelaaa, bangun pagi kan? Fed him as usual and left him for work. Since it was a friday, i came home earlier. Saw my mother trying to feed him his porridge. But, again, something was amiss. He didn't look excited like usual duing mealtime. and my mother said he slept for a good 4 hours that morning. Which to me, is a bit unusual and so unlike him. He'll usually sleep for a maximum of 3 hours.

On top of that, he only took 3 1/2 onz of EBM, his baba fed him around 12ish. He usually takes 7 onz of EBM at that time of day PLUS his porridge. I came home with an engorged breasts. On other days, i'd express on oneside and let him feed on the other. But this time, i fed him on both breasts coz he wasn't eating and drinking well. And fell asleep immediately. Weird kan?

Later when i came home from work, I asked my mother and was told that, He woke up at 3.00 pm, after i left for work, and played a bit and had his feed. he took 3 1/2 onz which lasted him for 2 hours and had another 3 1/2 onz before dozing off again at around 5ish. Memang sangatla xbiasa macam tu. Biasa dia bangun when we come home. And u know, I had to wake him up, coz it was already 730 pm and it's past his dinner time as well as bathing time. Dia mandi kol 630. But i managed to feed him and bathe him soon after i woke him up. He did take his porridge. Tapi slow sikit la. 

I am pretty worried. My neice Anfaal was down with chicken pox 2-3 weeks ago. It was difficult for child quarantine. There were only 2 carers for 3 babies. My mother and my sister (the mother). So Hamza is already exposed to that. Hammam is now having pox now. Hmmm. Doa je la. If it comes out, fine. I hope it wouldn't be too bad. Praying for the best. Owh dear. As for now, I couldn't find any spots on his body. Mudah-mudahan takde lah.

hmmmm. Eh, Hamza is up. I need to feed him. Macam ni la rasanya dah jadi mak. Amazing. Thank you Allah. Thank you Allah.

Nursery for Hamza

yes.. I am.. I mean, we'll have to put him at a childcare center or a nursery starting May this year. Reason being, my mother is leaving for Cardiff.. Yes yes.. Again.. This time, it'll be longer. 2 months. My eldest sister needs help for her son. She'll be sitting for her finals sometime in May. And i obviously can't take leave for 2 months. Impossible.

So, i have to start scouting for a nursery or a babysitter to look after Hamza while mama and baba is away at work. So far, i am looking at nurseries. But you see, it is not as easy as that. I've found one in Kota Damansara. CIC. I've called them up. Unfortunately, they no longer offer that service. So, i have to start again.

 help my mama and baba please

Anyone who lives in Kota Damansara? Suggestions? I definitely need help.

Hamza at 5 months

I am on leave today... Why? Hamza had his 5th month immunisation jab yerterday. I will usually stay in incase his temperature shoots up. So, that explains why. But Alhamdulillah, as until now, hamza is as active as ever. No muscle pain at the injection site, and no low-grade fever. Syukur. The previous jab was painful i know because he cried the whole evening, and i couldn't even touch his right leg. Sengal. He'd cry everytime we try to cuddle him, lift him up or when we try to put him down. It's so heart-wrenching. But it lasted for 1 day only. He got better the next day but with a low-grade temperature. Sian anak aku. But i am glad the nurse was more gentle with him this time.

At 5 months 8 days, Hamza now weighs 7.3 kg, and is 70cm long from head to toe. His head circumfeence is 42cm. Basically, he's growing well. Alhamdulillah. And still feeding on my milk. But at 5 months, he drinks 7 onz of EBM. Banyak!! So i've started him on solid. I had  no choice, but he too loves it to bits. I started him with apple puree. Now, we feed him rice [brand nestle tu] during the day. otherwise, it'll be a nightmare for me. Hamza is one baby with huge appetite and huge tummy as well. huhu. [anak baba la katakan]

Owh.. i want to share this incident that took place while i was in the room waiting for the nurse to check on Hamza. My son has a small white patch near the corner of his right eye. So, i requested to see the doctor. the patch looks to me like fungal infection. So yeah, i just wanted to confirm that it is fungal. The nurse took us to the doctor. baik hati dia. then she started the conversation..

nurse: awak kerja hospital bahagian apa?

me: Farmasi.

nurse: ooo. patutla awak tanya pasal anak awak. ubat dah tau la ni.

me: haah. saya nak confirm diagnosis je. 

nurse: awak pegawai kat Fever Center ke?

me: tak. tapi semua pegawai rotate kerja kat fever center. 

nurse: tu la.. ni nak cerita ni. maybe farmasi terlepas pandang kan? [aku dah apehal nurse nih?] 

           kebetulan smalam, doctor sendiri pegi amek ubat dari farmasi. dia datang kat kami tunjuk 

           ubat. doktor kata "tengok!farmasi bagi ubat dah 'expired'! ada ke?" 

me: [terkejut!] ye ke? staff nurse tau ubat apa?

nurse: tak tau pulak ubat apa. tapi memang dah 'expired' pon. doctor sendiri tunjuk kat kami ubat 

           tu. dia tulis 12/09. kan?

me: doctor pulang balik x pada farmasi? mintak ubat baru?

nurse: kami ada offer nak pergi balik pada farmasi. doctor xnak. itu lah. mungkin farmasi terlepas

           pandang atau pon farmasi nak habiskan stok. ye la, ubat batuk kan semua orang makan.

me: eh, xkan la kitorg nak bagi ubat yang dah nak expired. lainkali, pergi bagitau pegawai farmasi 

       tu. Janganla biar je. bagitau, supaya kami tau salah kami.

Bengang kejap! i mean, come on. How could the doctor? Went to the nurses, show to them our mistake and not tell us?! Apa masalah dia? Bagitau je la. Inform. Saje je nak mencari salah orang! I called up the staff incharge immediately and told her. She was definitely shocked to hear about the incident. And when checked, memang dah nak expired. I said to her, memang it is our mistake. negligence i shall call it. But does it hurt to tell us that the drug is nearing to its expiry date? does it? Maybe it does kan? Haiyooo..

On the contrary, after complaining about us not doing our job, she too didn't do hers well. She didn't even ask me about Hamza's development as accoding to the check-up book. All the other nurses asked me except this one. All she did was, gossip [it was more like a gossip than a complaint] and tulis-tulis dalam buku. tak tanya tak apa. aduih haih. 

Oklah, hamza dah menjerit-jerit! Got to go.

Happy

Alhamdulillah

Hamza was very cooperative with me, his father and his neyna. He was such an easy baby the night i had to leave him. Husband sms-ed me saying that he talked himself to sleep. Cute! He never does that whenever i am around. That's for sure. The whole 10 hour away-from Hamza felt like ages! I kept looking at the clock. Bila la nak pukul 8 pagi ni??!! There were times i felt like driving home to be with my baby. :( I missed my son terribly. I even cried at my husband before i left for work.

By 8 am, i was all ready to go home. Drove home as fast as i could. Aaaah. As i reach home, Hamza was already up and waiting for my return. I think so. My breasts were so engorged that morning. I forgot to take the breastpump with me to work because i was too busy being sad that night before i left for work. I fed Hamza immediately. It couldn't wait. The pain i mean.

I am most glad and grateful to Allah. Syukuur Alhamdulillah. Ya Allah, u can never imagine how worried and sad i was that night. And i know, Hamza is such a good son, and a very patient boy. I am most glad. Upah susu 1 hari. :) 

okla, i need to have some rest.

**on a different note, i'll be working the 5pm-11pm shift tomorrow!! Aaaargh! Hamza, tunggu mama balik ye baby.

Introducing...

... Our Newborn Son...

Hamza bin Md Faizul

Ye, itu lah nama diberi. Semoga menjadi insan yg kamil dan muslim yang soleh.. ameeen..

Welcome My Son..

I guess, u can by now guess that i have given birth.. Yes.. I have. To a healthy and big baby. And it is a boy. It wasnt all an easy labour. But Alhamdulillah, I am glad, i have passed one of the biggest challenges a woman could ask for.

Chronologically, this was what happened..
20th July 2009, 11.00 pm

After watching House MD, I started experiencing intense contractions. I didnt time my contractions though. But the contraction was not that regular, except that it was intense. I woke up almost every hour because of the very strong pain. Woke up my husband and told him about it. He stroked me back to sleep.

21st July 2009, 6.05 am

I was asleep when my waterbag gave way. Husband screamed in shocked seeing me jumping out of the bed. *dia risau jatuh katil.. hehe.. It was a gush of fluid.. So, yeah.. i know that we'll be seeing our baby really soon. But, thing is.. we haven't actually decided which hospital to go. Yeah, we decided to go to a nearby *pusat bersalin. We thought that was the best decision and the most convenient in terms of distance from home. Told my mother about it, and got ready.

7.30 am
Had baked-beans for breakfast, while husband prepares the car for me. My mother told me not to worry because the amniotic fluid will be replaced from time to time.

9.00 am
Already at the Pusat Bersalin. Went in to see the doctor and she said that i have to be admitted. Yes, and she said they will have to induce me and saying that baby has to come out within 12 hours or there will be a high risk of baby getting infection. Yeah. Checked in, and they gave a shot of enema. I was already starting to experience contractions but it was very mild. Ala-ala Period pain gitu.

Boleh senyum lagi sbb belum induce

1.00 pm
I 'walked' into the labour room. I was quite shocked to see the condition of the labour room, but i said to myself.. We've made the decision.. so yes. they started me on the drip, and i started to experience contractions.. Husband was there to help me with my breathing techniques, and best of all my sole comfort provider.

2.00pm

Doctor came in and VE'ed me.. I was only 4 sentimeters dilated. And she said.. "we have to push u into the OT for a C-Sect. Your baby is not fully engaged, and we cannot wait. Baby will be at risk of lungs infections and its not good etc2.." I said to husband, i dont want to be cut open. This is only my first child. Why can't she let me try for a normal birth? Husband was definitely out of words. My mother came. She didn't look too happy with the situation. I was already crying. I asked husband to call my aunt (she's a gynae) and she said that they can wait for up to 72 hours. The doctor came in many times, asking us to decide. I asked for more time, she wouldnt let me. It was like an ultimatum for me. I hated it!! I asked husband to call the hospital through my boss to see what will the hospital do for cases like mine. After much considerations, I said to my mother, I want to be transferred out to Hospital Sungai Buloh.

5.30pm

Left the PUsat Bersalin, and still having contractions. 5 minutes apart. husband drove like mad.

630pm
Already being assessed by a specialist. She said, baby was already fully engaged. position wise, normal (doctor tadi cakap, baby buat face presentation), and i am still 4cm dilated. *maybe sebab stress.. They said they'll continue with oxytocin and will see me again in 4 hours time. I was praying hard that i'll be able to deliver within that 4 hours.

730pm
VE'ed me again. Still 4 cm. It was stressful to know that i havent really progressed from 4cm.. this time around, husband couldnt be with me in the labour room. Its the hospital's policy we have to abide to. But i still bargained for my husband. But all attempts failed. I cried really bad. Macam orang meroyan pon ada..

800pm
They increased the oxytocin dose, running at 12mls/hr!!!! Contraction got worse!! it was just super intense!! I took a dose or 2 of the laughing gas from time to time.. but obviously it didn't help at all. Then, i decided to have Pethidine! but they were so slow! they said they had to monitor the baby first. Ok, i waited for 15 minutes, and still no sign of nurses wanting to give me pethidine jab. after a good 30 minutes, i was already screaming for it. hahahha.. tapi, memang sakit gila!!!

930pm
the specialist came in to assess me. Contractions was beyond imagination already!! i was in soo much pain! unbearable. I dozed off from time to time due to the effect of pethidine, but, the pain was still there. So i called for the specialist. I said to her " can i go to the toilet? i think i need a hot shower" she was shocked, and VEed me, only to find out.. i was already 8cm dilated. She said "you'll stay on the bed, and we will call for your husband. Dah x lama dah ni" And my husband came in! aaaaahh.. i cried immediately.. Sakit ok! He couldnt help me with my breathing techniques anymore.. sbb dah kerap sangat and everytime the contraction comes, its just Super INTENSE!!!

1045 pm
I started to realise that i wasnt "menahan" sakit anymore.. But i was already starting to push to kill the pain. So i said, call them in. I think i am ready! And they came in and yes.. I was already fully dilated and baby dah entered the birth canal. Not long after that, i started to push!! 1108 pm, the cute little entered the world.. Lega.. Hilang semua sakit! Alhamdulillah. as soon as they handed the baby to me, Husband took him and Azan kan baby.. I cried. Xpercaya..

Now, presenting my little Hero.. His name will be announced on the after day 7 of birth.

His 1st Hour.. Our son..

We are most Grateful to the Almighty for this little gift here. Alhamdulillah, he's a healthy boy. My family love him to bits. Including all the aunties, atuks and neneks, and great grandparents.. My inlaws pon came all the way from Terengganu to see their new cucu. hehehe.. Syukur alhamdulillah.. Ramai yang visit bagi cash.. so we'll open a savings account for him really soon. And best of all, I am most grateful to Allah that we decided to pindah to Hospital Sungai Buloh.. Coz i got to experience normal birth instead of being operated on. Syukur..

okay, till then.