Goodbye

I am at home now. It's Friday lunch break. That explains the updating. Anyways, life has been good, Alhamdulillah. Hamza has 2 teeth now. I am more than happy. *tapi gerun pun ada juga! Habis la mama! He is on a different note, active than ever. He loves to play, hates to be left alone. Now, making sounds like maaa.. baaa.. taaaa.. and his vowels, complete. a e i o u. semua bunyi dah ada. Alhamdulillah.

So, what brings me to update my little space here? My assistant. I have an assistant, and all i can say is,  she is SUPER GOOD in doing her job. Reliable, creative, independent, and best of all she make a good friend too. Thing is, she applied for a transfer to Perak some months ago. Of course I am aware of that. Then, today the Perak Health department called, asking her to report-in this very Monday. I know she's very very happy. Who wouldn't? If I were her, I'd be jumping of joy! But, I am not her, and now, i am left with none. What a shame. I am sad, beyond words. Of course there will be replacements. But it'll never be the same. hurmmm. 

I know I am so not ready for goodbyes just yet, but I've always known that THIS will come. and the day has come indeed. Today. Nak buat macam mana, ye dak?

If you are reading this, I'd like to say thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for the memories, the joy, laughters, semua la that we've gone through together as rakan kerja. Thank you for being a very good assistant and thank you for being a friend to me. I appreciate it so much and I hope you will enjoy your new workplace and best of all, I know you'll enjoy being around with your family members. :) Until we meet again. Kiss the babies for me.

till then, toodles

Pregnant again?

AM I??

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NO

Seriously, I am not pregnant.

I seriously think that nowadays, Peer-pressure is a huge factor in baby-making. Not those who have just gotten married. I am talking about second pregnancy here. It's a no big issue here afterall. But, yeah, after reading through some blogs and seeing that many are getting pregnant again, I too feel like wanting to get pregnant again. So, THAT is what i am talking about here. Peer pressure. But, then again, it CAN NOT be just about peer pressure. It hit me just now, 

'They are all my age and are having babies, again. I think i am ready for another baby'

The BIG Question here is

AM I??

Am i really ready to have another baby?

There are many other things to consider before actually planning to have another baby. At least, this is how i think it should be. No offence to those who 'accidentally' got themselves pregnant again. :) For now, i consider myself lucky the fact that my beloved mother WANTS to care for Hamza while we're away at work. And infact, we live with my parents. So it's not such a headache to find Hamza a nursery/caregiver. It will be, soon. haih. takpe. nanti fikir. Eventhough, to be honest really, never in my life have I want my mother/parents to be the caregiver of my children. Reason being is, they are not the young people like we are. That's it. But, i have to let go because my mother insisted and she insisted. Sometimes i wished i am a stay-at-home-mom, neither do i want to just keep away my degree in the cupboard just like that.

My parents had 5 children in 6 years. Ye. kami la anak-beranak yang berderet 5 orang bila pergi Kamdar ataupun Globe Silk Store zaman dulu. macam-macam perangai tak usah cakap la kan? Sometimes i wonder how my parents managed it? When we ask, they'd say.. we just do what we have to do. Amazing. Kitorang bukan nak tolak rezeki. Tidak langsung. Of course we want to have more children. Until we have settled in our new home, i guess we can start planning on having another baby. Ye ke bang? hehe. As for now, keinginan is only a feeling of wanting to have something. It shouldn't solely be about wanting.

I want to enjoy my baby first because i have quite bad morning sickness when i was carrying Hamza. So, if i get pregnant now, i am afraid that he won't be getting enough attention from me. On top of that i still want to breastfeed him. when i have wean him off properly, i know it's time to give him a brother or a sister. :) And to top it all up, I am grateful to Allah for everything that we are blessed with.

Hamza's calling for mama. :) Toodles