If not for you..

I Will Still Love You
[britney spears]

Time may take us apart but I will still love you. I promise
Oh ho..., Oh yeah
And when the stars, stars are falling
I’ll keep calling

I promise that you’ll be my one, my only everything
I’ll never be untrue
And I promise back that for your love I will do anything
I will give you the stars, I will buy you the moon
Even through the longest of our nights
Even through the darkest days our love will find a way

Chorus :
And when the stars are falling. I’ll keep calling
I will still love you
And when your dreams are fading. I’ll be waiting
I will still love you

You are my summer breeze my winter sun, my spring time song
My Autumn touch of gold, yeah
And you are my sky, my rain. The earth in which my love grows cos you’re all
The smile in my heart and the breathe in my soul
Even if we find ourselves apart
We will hold out hopes and dreams forever in our hearts

[Chorus]

Tell me how you feel
I finally know how it feels. Tell me if it’s real
My heart tell me it’s real
So real, so real

[Chorus]

Time will take us apart that’s true but I will always be there for you
You’re in my heart, you’ll be in my dreams
No matter how many miles in between
I promise you that I won’t forget the day we kissed of the day we met
The sky may fall and the stars may too
But I will still, I will still love you

[Chorus]

I know the distance is really bad for us. I know.. *sigh. Just hang in there a little bit. Ilu n imu

Something Funny to laugh about

He will make u laugh so hard when he sings his ABC. he's start 'A B C D eee fe d.. amamam amamam A B G!' and the song goes on and all that u can hear is A B C D and G. hahaha. Shameful for a 3 year old kid not knowing ABC, let alone to recognize the shape of the letters. hahaha. That'll be my Goal this month! to teach him ABC before he starts schooling. I was in the room, stitching when i heard him calling for his Mummy and banging on the door. I guess, it was around half past 9. he was already sleepy. but poor lil kid, mummy was praying. he waited for abit, knocking on the door. and when the door was still unopened, i could hear him grumbling 'Oh noo!! Not Again..' 'Oh noo.. Mummy!! open the door! Not again!' And, when i stood at the door, this is what i found.. isnt he adorable?!

Sitting on the weighing scale
Muncung and merajuk

when i found him, he was pouting at the corner.
i laughed immediately. Cute and Cute!!
Then i went back into the room to grab the camera, and i had to quietly
snap the pictures, coz he looooveess the camera..

After the curik-curik shot.
he realized that i was taking his picture,
he ran to me and said, 'lemme see.. i wanna see!!
its Amad!!' *thats how he pronounce his name.

then i asked him to do it all over again so that i can
take a better picture. and guess, what? he did.
he sat in that corner, and pouted! and he even sulked!
look at him! aaaww. leh berlakon! stressnye lah tgk budak kecik nih!

after the second shot, he came running to me, wanting to look at the picture,
then, he voluntarily sat back on the scale in the corner , waiting
for me to take more of his pics! he's only 3!
bebudak zaman skarang. ish2.
xsempat nak snap pon adik Ah*mad, die dah pandang sini
'Amad picture!Amad picture!'

this last one, mmg la xjadi. dah over-excited.

hahaha.. isnt he cute and adorable. Dalam marah2 pon, he could still give me a few good pose.
kids nowadays. geraaaam!! hehehe..
ok ciao.

Anti War Protest

Last friday, i was walking with me sister in town. We came upon this group of people clad in *Troops Out tees, and a man approached us. "Hi, We are from such and such, and we're going to have an antiwar march this sunday. would u like to join us? its regarding the occupation in Iraq. Would u like to sign the petition here. before the march, all is expected to gather at the Albert square at 12 noon" So, we signed the petition and took the leaflet they handed to us, and walked away. and then we thought, why not?! its a peace march. its not like the ones u see on TV with bomb strikes and stuff. so, ok sunday will be it! we're going for the anti war march!

On sunday, we got to Albert square around 10 to 2. Hoklen, lambat siut. Parking is terrible in the city centre. 5.20 GBP for 2 bloody hours. budus. anyways. so we ran to i dont know where, but we ran towards the crowd. and there were alot of posters by the road side, picked them up and disperse into the march. excited we were yesterday. then we lift the posters in our hands and start screaming "troops go out!!!" hahaha. funny. Later on, we joined this group. there were few ppl who lead the anti-war cry. so it was definitely better than having to scream alone. It ended around 2, with us back to Albert square. the thing is, Gordon Brown was somewhere near albert square, in a meeting. so since he's the next to become PM, that gives valid reason for the march to be held yesterday. We tried to stay there and listen to the 'talk of protest' but it rained so heavily. we went back straight. obviously we were soaking wet and cold.

the thing is u know, many locals joined the march. of course there were many of us, in tudung joining the protest. and the locals, they were very much excited as well. obviously, not everyone is the same.

The March
Volunteers;having a lil chat about the current issues.
Iraq,Iran,Palestine,
and those who are being oppressed by u know who

i, on the other hand.. alone..
TROOPS GO OUT! TROOPS GO OUT!
there were a few who joined my cry
so,it did feel good.

GET THE TROOPS OUT NOW!!
GET THE TROOPS OUT NOW!!
TROOPS OUT NOW!!

lalalalalalaalala...
*while pointing at the police men; ...THIS IS WHAT DEMOCRACY LOOKS LIKE!

No war! World peace!
liberate the middle-east!!

Intifada!Intifada!

those, who joined the march..
young, old, and babies too!

*Albert Square
listening to the anti-war speeches

i am glad i was lucky enough to have experienced this. Its not just about being there, and screaming.. but you know, it sort of like puts you back in reality. about the war in Iraq, in most muslim countries, the middle-east, palestine. And obviously we, the lucky ones, who can still eat proper food, go to school, shopping.. we should help them. kalau tak siapa lagi nak buat kan? plus, its good to see so many locals in the March.. Bukanla sume non-muslim jahat. they were the ones who went all out in the march. i know i wont get things like these in malaysia. We should not think about ourselves all the time. Ramai lagi yg sengsara and susah and mcm2.

okay.ciao.

Pangkor Day 3

that very morning, woke up, had bfast and gathered by the beach. ada Sukaneka. fuiyooo.. the first game we played was to pass rubberbands by mouth using straws.. hahaha.. nak tergelak aku main!Gilo!saje je buat aksi2 tak senonoh. obviously our group lost la kan, despite dah pas getah dlm tgn.. kodi laa. *hahahaha..kantoi! Then main cari slippers. which ever group gets to gather their slippers the fastest, they win. Unfortunately for me, RADZI bullied me. he grabbed mine and threw it away.Hep!! i got really emotional after that. hahahaha.. slipper ilang! tp well, itu la main game namenye, dak? And so we lost again. Pastu, dah gaduh ber-round2 tu dgn yg tak puas hatinye (including me that last bit) we sambung, main group yg mane plg pjg. obviously we didnt want to sacrifice any of our tali seluar. hahaha. so our group was the shortest! owh, how pitiful. we lost every game! Tapi dapat hadiah la.obviously it was for fun. another game is to carik sweets dlm tepung jagung. Pun kalah.. apedaaa.. kodi betul! We had penyampaian hadiah as well as sesi bergambar. Ahahahaha. mcm2 aksi dan gaya. sesi membaling tepung pon ada. Hendra was kind enuff to powder my face.. thanks babe. Siap kau! nnt aku balas blk! Ok, for now, let the pics do the talking. huhu

Pais and woksay.. what are u guys doing?!
ooo,pass getah gune straw. ahaks.. fuuuh.

these, are my groupmates. walaupon kalah,
kite tetap ROCK! okla kodi la jugak!
Main tipu pon kalah. haahaha

Hello!pandang sini!buat ape pandang sane??
Pharmacy batch 2003/07
hmmm..ceria sungguh mereka2

muka2 yg telah ditepung!hendra, nanti kau!!:p
hahaha. i miss my friends already!

before we went back to the chalet to pack our bags, us, together with a few more friends went kayakking to a nearby island. best! since it is a gulf, the wave wasnt that big. so kayakking there, was easy. We saw many huge jelly fishes. it did scare the **** out of me. haha. sampai2 kat sane, we swam sepuas-puas yg mungkin. took pictures and then blk! we raced back to shore. hahaha.. enjoyed it so much! we definitely had a wonderful time on the island, kan? tp, i dont have the pics la. kat Pais. then, blk and packed our stuff. by 12 noon, we were all ready to leave for the jetty. sedih. such good memories we had in Pangkor. Since this was our last, it got me into tears. i will always remember the good times we had. so, these are some pics before we left for the mainland.

only for those in pink?!

on the ferry back to mainland. smile while u still can, ppl.
matt?layan jiwang dah?!

smile smile ppl!
nazrul, ridza, shroul, matt, hendra, syeril, akey

smiling faces. soon, the smiles will go away..
hello to tears.

we reached KL at around half past 8. Had a salam-salam session. To those who werent there, we miss you guys so much! And i tell you, eventhough we might not be close to everyone in the class, but sometimes, kite ckp/buat ada menyentuh perasaan org lain. baik/tidak. some have helped me alot! and to those, who have helped ome, even alittle, i thank you so much and i will remember each of u. Obviously i couldnt repay back, but i'll always make du'a to Allah, to bless us all with good health, life, job and a wonderful family. insyaAllah. and to those whom i have hurt their feelings intentionally/without, do forgive me. i hope all of us will become great pharmacists soon. the future is already today. Good luck and all the best to each and everyone of u! the memories we had, i'll keep it close to heart.

till then, ciao

Pangkor Day 2

Day 2 activity; the most anticipated in this holiday trip; snorkelling. yeap, we went snorkelling. the designated spot for snorkelling wasnt that far from Teluk N*ipah. 3 minutes of boat-ride? hahaaaha. So, all of us, with the life-jacket strapped onto our body, plus the goggles and mouth-piece yg macam straw tu, went snorkelling. the water there?blue, cantik!! bukan hijau mcm laut tu. very2 beautiful. the chalet owner-cum snorkelling instructor, thought us how to snorkel, all the breathing techniques and what nots. it was good. he said "kalau ko boleh berenang, nnt pakai flippers tu" which i wished i did. but obviously i didnt. the training session was for a blardy 3 hours. i took the chance to teach some friends how to swim. ahaks. enjoyed that session.

sebelum berlepas ke Pulau G*ian

another pose before we left for the island
rad,syeril,richard,hendrita,fais,ponyot,emi,locco,af,matt,thim,say, shroul,
ak,g,cactus
*saje-saje je menghighlite name org2 yg berkenaan, kerana mereka sangat funny.

After Lunch
at the designated snorkelling spot

senyum!! the goggles and the snorkel

according to hendrita, the spikey-thing that the guy is holding is a 'landak laut'

we headed back to Pangkor after many complaints due to exhaustion after almost 6 hours of snorkelling. Later in the evening, some of us went to get some refreshments; ABC, laksa, and/or rojak while lepak-ing by the beach.

Melepak by the beach

gamba feveret hendra
us sitting by the beach having ABCs. sedap!!

patutnya ada bbq and we bbq sendiri, tp sebaliknya
Nasi kawah!! hahahaha, boleh la ek hendra?

karaoke session with the gang!
mujur tak went out of tune, or sumbang!

we screamed our lungs off until midnight. and went to rest. ahaha.

Pangkor Day 1

i've been doing nothing much these past few days and it is really bugging me. i've been updated by friends that this very summer, 3 friends are getting married and a few more are going to get engaged. and then it got me abit frustrated due to the fact i won't be able to make it in time for their weddings, and i wanna get married too!! ahahah. anyways.. i'm here to update our class trip to Teluk Nipah, Pangkor. there were 56 of us. The holiday was a blast! Despite it being our last holidays as students, so to speak. So, back to it, we had to wait for a bit at the lumut jetty, so in between that, i got myself a pair of cute slippers.

In random:Ros,nana,aliaa,gee,jida,emi,sya,ema,izza
dataran jetty lumut. its all new, nice and very2 much organized
as compared to 5 years ago?

the guys: rad,shroul,locco,ridza,pjoe,say,syeril,pais,matt

apart from shopping, many decided to do this instead..

on the ferry to Pangkor!
we'd rather sit in the hot sun instead of in the air-conditioned part of the ferry

on the way way to Pangkor! HooraaY!

we reached Pangkor Jetty prolly 45 minutes after we left mainland. everyone was ecstatic and inpatient to experience Pangkor. Upon arriving, the chalet owner was already there waiting for us. we rode in a pink Van from the jetty. *rempit ku semangat! naik and turun bukit, kalah mat-mat rempit kat KL tu. so, as soon as we arrived, we settled down, and terus serbu makan. the food served was soo delicious, plus the fact that our stomaches were already screaming for food, all of us definitely ate like monkeys.

we rested for an hour or so, and then went straight to the beach. wow, the day was hot! and in the hot burning sun, we played a few games. beach volley la, bola beracun la. i on the otherhand, sat on the beach, enjoying the scenic panorama of the gulf. jiwang la sikit kan. tp i sorang je.

beach volleyball. bola tu keras, sakit tangan main!

Locco,pengasas bola beracun that afternoon! these girls
had loads of fun! and its fun to see them play too!

membasuh kaki. Situ byk barnacles, luka kaki!!

merenung masa depan agaknya.

mesmerizing and super breath-taking

Slightly before nightfall

It was just soo beautiful and being able to witness it, beyond words
Look at this one

Nightfall

speechless
i can still feel the gleaming rays of the about-to-set sun in my eyes.

and its just perfect if u're with ur loved ones

but best of all, is to remind ourselves how Great Allah is.

anyways, that very night, after dinner we had a bit of activity. but i dont have pics on that. so, thats it for day 1. What about day two?

Excuse me, I have a name!

i dont know if i'm over-reacting or not. but i guess, anyone in my position would be pissed as well! aku ada name. kalau tak tau pon, panggel la kakak. bongok. or u can even ask me my name. ade ke panggel aku Minah?! aku ni nampak je gembire2. tp aku pon ada perasaan. ingat lawak ke panggel org minah pastu siap order2 pulak tuh. aaaargh. geram2. aku bukan bestpren kau, leh sesuka hati panggel MINAH. *minah? hmmmmph!

hmmmph. berakhir sudah episod melepas geram. sekian, terima kasih.

Kisah Gossip orang dewasa?

Yesterday was i guess much better than the other days.. despite the emotional disturbance *yg ni xnk cerita la, Alhamdulillah i managed to brace through it. Many doctors and specialists came over for dinner. Though i was never part of their chit-chat group, but i did manage to make myself useful by helping out with the little ones, *owh so adorable..speaking london cam mat saleh you.. and the servings as well. Hmm.. some were pretty annoying though. ahaks.

Nasi ayam was the main menu. i did my share by becoming the food-tester. Di kala tgh syahdu melayan perasaan, i will be called for testing like every now and then.. *tolong rase, cukup xgaram? xmasin? nak tambah gula? plus, i cooked the chicken soup for the soul.. NOT!.. the rice i mean. it tasted soo good plus with the *xjadi sangat chicken rice, BUT in the end, everyone belasah like monkeys. we bbqued 3 whole chickens cut into 10 pieces each and the first batch of them ate like 2/3 of the chicken pieces. hohoho. they were really enjoying it i guess. they liked the bbqued chicken soo much. well, tgkla siapa yg marinate?! hahahaa.. they didnt stay for long prolly for 3 hoursla. after they left, cleaning up was easy, the dishwasher seemed to be very much useful.hahaha, so we just lap-lap meja, rearranging stuff and this like that lah. *fuh, seb baik!

I tried to sleep after that, *baru nak tutup mata nih, pastu a very close relative from Malaysia came for a visit. Dah penat aku kemas2, kene pulak punggah balek. hohoho, but hey, i love their company. obviously i'm very much familiar with these ppl la kan? so, we updated ourselves with gossip2 dari Malaya, semua lah. it was alright and i can say interesting. well, nak interesting cane lagi kan? Nothing beats the *hati yg kecewa. eheheh. nmind, i love you more!

by 10 pm, i was all tired and sleepy. *yawn yawn. I dozed off without changing into my pajamas. ni sume case main tido terbongkang, and only to wake up at 3am in the morning seeing myself still clad in jeans and tshirt i wore yesterday. hahahahaha. it was okay la. something different. i was able to socialize abit, abit la. hurmm.. So today? life is meaningless yet very meaningful for the other side of the hati yg kecewa. i stayed in bed most of the time. soo useless, and meaningless. Prolly, cross-stitch would do justice to this at-the-mo meaningless and useless self. hehehe.

gambar tiada.told u.useless and meaningless.ciao.

Rain Rain go Away!

sojuk!!
its been raining non-stop since yesterday..
bbbrrrr..
SOJUK okay!
bbbbrrrrrrrrrr...

Daily Babbles

i've been going back and forth monton - hulme and like everytime i will pass by the *old trafford stadium, but not even once did i realize that i'm passing by it! bodzo gile! so, this morning, on the way from hulme to trafford centre, i was.. eh!its the stadium.. *ok, i didnt la sound so tekejut,kan.i tak jakun k (hahaha.. xnak mengaku).. bodo kan? i mean, of course the stadium is not the likes of the stadiums we have at home. terpegun dua saat jap, wondering, how come i missed that huge thing all this while.. Not so big of a matter kan? but well, my sister promised she;ll take me to *old trafford. so, heheh.. ;p. jgn jeles k?

on another note, i'm back at being the house-cook. sometimes, it sucks so bad.. sometimes, i enjoy doing it. And its raining cats and dogs outside, so i cant go the shop to get some celery.. i dont know what to cook!! so, my daily routine here is cook,clean,babysit (only when i feel like doing so),cook,clean,online and sleep. sometimes it got me wondering, it is hard to do cooking, babysitting, cleaning up.. hmmm.. macam mane lah dah kawen and anak2 lagi nnt..

i've always believed that it's easy.. u have a man named husband to help u with the kids, abit of chores, but sometimes, most of the time, not all husbands are 'kind-enuff' to help you out. lagi la kalau husband tu mmg dysfunctional. duduk and do nothing. and seeing it here before my very own eyes, its not easy to raise a child. two?maybe easier, but one? ooowh so difficult. i dont know why i had to blabber on this topic, obviously aku tak kawen lagi, not to mention ada anak. tp, from what i see, its not easy. the attention they 'need' (not want) from you is not like 10 minutes of playing together.. it takes hours.. memang penat la nak layan of course, but then again, compromising on the attention u ought to give to a child? oooooo..that will affect the growth of the child.. and hey, it's not just mommies duty to give enuff love and affection, but daddy has big roles too in a child's development.. seriously.. at the age of 3, if u dont train them good enuff, mmg la jenuh after that..

attention for me is not all the time snuggle2 and kiss2 or play together, but it is also to teach them, discipline. Susah! sometimes u have to raise ur voice to the child, correct their wrong-doings mcm baling2 barang ke, maybe a bit of body-contact i.e. pukul tgn die/or kaki die.. semua bende! susah la actually.. makan kene train, b**ak k**c*ng kene train.. kalau bende2 tak di planned properly/ tangguh2.. then it'll be very difficult.. i dont know.. if i were to be a mother, i want to try to give them the best i could. balance la sayang2 and discipline ni. i hope so.. i dont want them to be spoilt. taktaula.. i still have a long way to go before i start thinking about having my own children.. hurrrmm.. the moral here is, we are the adult, and we will have to determine the daily routine of our child and not the other way round.. u let them loose/u teach them right. i dont know.. too much of something is still bad enuff, so moderate2 la.. tp jgnla terabai terus anak tuh.. hahahaha..

kesimpulannya, bukan senang nak jadik parents.. theres just alot to think off. boleh la jadik counsellor pasnih kan? my hope is that, we will all learn from our mistakes and give the best out of what we can.. selamat berusaha!

i hope i will be a good mommy,myself! amiiiinn..
aku dah penat bebel.. nak perambos pulak. ciao

The Question is....

should we get this blog a 'tagboard'?
do answer this question..
ciao

beautiful day

Its midnight here in manchester. Today is a good day. The weather is good, not too hot and not too cold either. i love all the smses i received today. *have always loved 'em and always will. ;) I cooked well today except for the extra hot daging paprik. too bad, not everyone could eat it.

we went to town to get a yarn of wool for our knitting project! owh, confirm mak2. since they have like almost all the mak2 kinda stuff, u name it crochet, knitting, cross stitch *owh my favourite!! and bykla lagi arts stuff.. owh, it got me meroyan for abit in the shop! i was so ecstatic to see those cute things, beautiful cross-stitch designs and that got me realized i havent finished my 3 year-old cross stitch project! muhahahaha. so obviously i coaxed myself out of the shop by making believe that if i am able to complete it before i go back home, than i can have one nice design for as my new project.. and i hope i can get it done by end of july!! or maybe ealier?! who knows.. owh so stressful, yet soo irresistable..

anyways, got myself this yummy choc-chip brioche. die ala2 cinnamon role gitu, but its not cinnamon and its got choc chip on it. soo yummy! had two already!hehe. did abit of shopping for those in Malaysia. hope they'll like it lah. i dont have too much of money to spend on. but i'll try to get as many as i can. huhuhu. owh,then we had dinner at Nando's. they serve Halal chickens ok. bykla chit chat and gossip. luahan emosi. but it was really good and i really enjoyed the day.

oklah, think that should be it. nnt aku bebel on something serious pulak. baru tekeluar bijik mata. hahahaha. ciao.

stress di tempat orang

Hidup di tempat orang

my mother always tell me, 'bile ada org datang rumah, greet them well. give them food to eat sbb they bawa berkat into the house.' dulu, bile die ada kat rumah aku, aku tak pernah miss asking him ape die nak for breakfast, lunch or even dinner. kalau aku malas masak pon, i know i'll have to go get something on the table.

dah banyak kejadian2 yg terjadi dimana, bila kat kg, gather ramai2, there's always not enuff food. Just because they think that nasik 10 pot is more than enuff for org seramai 36 org. Woi! ko gile ape! 10 pot je? ko nak aku makan berapa butir nasik tuh?! and because of that too, sanak2 saudara akan berebut2 di meja makan. oowh, sungguh pathetic. ade ke rebut makanan? Jadi, sejak dari kejadian tu, my mother will take charge of the kitchen esp. bab masak nasik nih. die slalu ckp 'anak2, dah besar nnt bile kite punye family pulak gather, never compromise on food'. ape la siap boleh gaduh2 tak puas hati nasi tak cukup sedangkan diorg yg masak tak cukup. owh, sungguh tidak pandai.

tp, the situation is different when the tuan-tuan rumah tidak sensitive kepada tetamu mereka dan cuba untuk hidup seperti biasa. they still buy food that they usually eat, tp mengharapkan agar si tetamu itu untuk masak. owh. sungguh memeningkan kepala. kalau dia yg masak, aku boleh la nak makan ape saja. tp ni die yg nak makan and i have to cook what they usually eat. takpelah. kerana aku menumpang dirumah org, terpaksalah biar insensitivity itu tolak ketepi. what can i do? nothing i guess.

so, the lesson here is, a host should never compromise on food,walau mcm mana susah pun hidup dia. mmg la hidup di tempat org lain dari di rumah sendiri. tetapi, sbg host, u should be more alert and sensitive towards ur guest especially if they're there to look after you and do housechores for you.. owh dammit. dahla tuh. enough of this babbling. aku rase mcm mak nenek pulak dah. oklah. perambus dulu.

More than words

i really cant tell you how much i miss you.
it is beyond words. *sigh.

Nevertheless, i am enjoying it here. slowly.
missing home soo terribly. :(

life and people

i've come across so many people in my life.
i realized that many are hypocrits.
many claimed that they dont care when actually that is all that matters to them.
being honest is being looked as evil and insensitive.
nevertheless, i am grateful to Allah that i can still put my feet on the ground.
i still believe if we're burdened with problems,
it is not for us to judge who's fault was it.
because it is all from the Almighty.
we must also believe that we're not perfect and things can happen from our own mistakes.

i dont know. that is life i guess.