Introducing...

... Our Newborn Son...

Hamza bin Md Faizul

Ye, itu lah nama diberi. Semoga menjadi insan yg kamil dan muslim yang soleh.. ameeen..

Welcome My Son..

I guess, u can by now guess that i have given birth.. Yes.. I have. To a healthy and big baby. And it is a boy. It wasnt all an easy labour. But Alhamdulillah, I am glad, i have passed one of the biggest challenges a woman could ask for.

Chronologically, this was what happened..
20th July 2009, 11.00 pm

After watching House MD, I started experiencing intense contractions. I didnt time my contractions though. But the contraction was not that regular, except that it was intense. I woke up almost every hour because of the very strong pain. Woke up my husband and told him about it. He stroked me back to sleep.

21st July 2009, 6.05 am

I was asleep when my waterbag gave way. Husband screamed in shocked seeing me jumping out of the bed. *dia risau jatuh katil.. hehe.. It was a gush of fluid.. So, yeah.. i know that we'll be seeing our baby really soon. But, thing is.. we haven't actually decided which hospital to go. Yeah, we decided to go to a nearby *pusat bersalin. We thought that was the best decision and the most convenient in terms of distance from home. Told my mother about it, and got ready.

7.30 am
Had baked-beans for breakfast, while husband prepares the car for me. My mother told me not to worry because the amniotic fluid will be replaced from time to time.

9.00 am
Already at the Pusat Bersalin. Went in to see the doctor and she said that i have to be admitted. Yes, and she said they will have to induce me and saying that baby has to come out within 12 hours or there will be a high risk of baby getting infection. Yeah. Checked in, and they gave a shot of enema. I was already starting to experience contractions but it was very mild. Ala-ala Period pain gitu.

Boleh senyum lagi sbb belum induce

1.00 pm
I 'walked' into the labour room. I was quite shocked to see the condition of the labour room, but i said to myself.. We've made the decision.. so yes. they started me on the drip, and i started to experience contractions.. Husband was there to help me with my breathing techniques, and best of all my sole comfort provider.

2.00pm

Doctor came in and VE'ed me.. I was only 4 sentimeters dilated. And she said.. "we have to push u into the OT for a C-Sect. Your baby is not fully engaged, and we cannot wait. Baby will be at risk of lungs infections and its not good etc2.." I said to husband, i dont want to be cut open. This is only my first child. Why can't she let me try for a normal birth? Husband was definitely out of words. My mother came. She didn't look too happy with the situation. I was already crying. I asked husband to call my aunt (she's a gynae) and she said that they can wait for up to 72 hours. The doctor came in many times, asking us to decide. I asked for more time, she wouldnt let me. It was like an ultimatum for me. I hated it!! I asked husband to call the hospital through my boss to see what will the hospital do for cases like mine. After much considerations, I said to my mother, I want to be transferred out to Hospital Sungai Buloh.

5.30pm

Left the PUsat Bersalin, and still having contractions. 5 minutes apart. husband drove like mad.

630pm
Already being assessed by a specialist. She said, baby was already fully engaged. position wise, normal (doctor tadi cakap, baby buat face presentation), and i am still 4cm dilated. *maybe sebab stress.. They said they'll continue with oxytocin and will see me again in 4 hours time. I was praying hard that i'll be able to deliver within that 4 hours.

730pm
VE'ed me again. Still 4 cm. It was stressful to know that i havent really progressed from 4cm.. this time around, husband couldnt be with me in the labour room. Its the hospital's policy we have to abide to. But i still bargained for my husband. But all attempts failed. I cried really bad. Macam orang meroyan pon ada..

800pm
They increased the oxytocin dose, running at 12mls/hr!!!! Contraction got worse!! it was just super intense!! I took a dose or 2 of the laughing gas from time to time.. but obviously it didn't help at all. Then, i decided to have Pethidine! but they were so slow! they said they had to monitor the baby first. Ok, i waited for 15 minutes, and still no sign of nurses wanting to give me pethidine jab. after a good 30 minutes, i was already screaming for it. hahahha.. tapi, memang sakit gila!!!

930pm
the specialist came in to assess me. Contractions was beyond imagination already!! i was in soo much pain! unbearable. I dozed off from time to time due to the effect of pethidine, but, the pain was still there. So i called for the specialist. I said to her " can i go to the toilet? i think i need a hot shower" she was shocked, and VEed me, only to find out.. i was already 8cm dilated. She said "you'll stay on the bed, and we will call for your husband. Dah x lama dah ni" And my husband came in! aaaaahh.. i cried immediately.. Sakit ok! He couldnt help me with my breathing techniques anymore.. sbb dah kerap sangat and everytime the contraction comes, its just Super INTENSE!!!

1045 pm
I started to realise that i wasnt "menahan" sakit anymore.. But i was already starting to push to kill the pain. So i said, call them in. I think i am ready! And they came in and yes.. I was already fully dilated and baby dah entered the birth canal. Not long after that, i started to push!! 1108 pm, the cute little entered the world.. Lega.. Hilang semua sakit! Alhamdulillah. as soon as they handed the baby to me, Husband took him and Azan kan baby.. I cried. Xpercaya..

Now, presenting my little Hero.. His name will be announced on the after day 7 of birth.

His 1st Hour.. Our son..

We are most Grateful to the Almighty for this little gift here. Alhamdulillah, he's a healthy boy. My family love him to bits. Including all the aunties, atuks and neneks, and great grandparents.. My inlaws pon came all the way from Terengganu to see their new cucu. hehehe.. Syukur alhamdulillah.. Ramai yang visit bagi cash.. so we'll open a savings account for him really soon. And best of all, I am most grateful to Allah that we decided to pindah to Hospital Sungai Buloh.. Coz i got to experience normal birth instead of being operated on. Syukur..

okay, till then.

Kenapa dia xnak dengar???!!!!

I really have a problem with people who does not know how to take NO for an answer!! Aku tau la patient tgh critical.. But, again.. it is not solely our fault that i couldnt supply the bloody noradrenaline. I did, but i know it was not enough.. Ye la.. ICU la kata kan... haihhh.. the last time we faced the same problem, i forwarded the matter to 'the sister'. But nothing was done. Dia tu Boss.. aku ni pekerja saje. dak?? Pastu, coz there was no solution from her part, i took the easiest way out. Marah.. Sian staff nurses tu.. And i guess they too couldnt handle the stress, so they complained back to the doctors. and i was attacked by 'the sister'. Dem U!!! Fine, but because not one freaking human being in the freaking department yg pangkat lagi tinggi dari aku could provide with a bloody solution, sape yg xstress!!!

So, this time around, 'the sister' was not around. I took matters into my own hands and called up the specialist. I explained to her the situation. But i did assured her that we'll be getting some more supplies early next week. She was okay, showed some level of wanting to cooperate with me. Tiba-tiba.. ada orang went down and asked another colleague on who told this doc about the ubat blablabla.. and my colleague called me to inform me about it. When i was about to leave hospital for home, i received an sms 'the sister' saying that the ubat is ONLY for NICU and ICU. Whatever la kan??!! habis, kalau ada patient collapse kat ward, xkan nak biar mati??!! eeee.. double standard!! menyampah!!!! so, i immediately called 'the sister'.

explained what happened etc2.. only to find out someone had actually informed her about the problem. And, U guess????!!! she Freaking yelled at me!! Blaming all the other people kecuali, diri dia, diri ini dan ICU!!! WTF?? she went...

the sister: why did the news come from you, and not from the store??!!!
me: because i find it easier since i am the one who supplies daily meds to the ICU. Is it wrong??
the sister: Xdela. Nampak sangat orang store xbuat kerja. Dah tau stock low kenapa xnak cari before stock habis??
me: yes, but i have been communicating with Th***s about this. and he's been helping me out. we've been calling....
the sister: i'm not talking about you.. i am talking about orang store yg xreti buat kerja!
me: no, thats not true.. (sape kate orang store xbuat kerja?)stress...
the sister: blablablabal*already yelling

and she hung up! Dem YOU!!!!!!

Gilo!!! Kenapa la dia xnak mendengar? and why keep blaming other people when she couldnt even listen for 1 bloody second? i was not trying to protect my dear colleague, but the accusation was just too kurang ajar!! i couldnt take it!! aku pon same marah, so, i too didnt want to listen to her cause i think she's gotten it all wrong! She wasnt even there when the problem occured. and she wasnt even there to help solve the problem. Yang dia tau, MARAH!!! macam singa betina!!! Aku stress sangat-sangat!!!!

Sebagai pegawai yang bawah dia, xpernah la aku dapat solution daripada dia when a problem occur. Sampai kena bergaduh2 dulu, baru la ada boss yang nak ambil tindakan!! BODOHNYAAAA!!! aku stress.. dah, i need to go pray! Stress.. kang beranak pulak!!

I accidentally...

....CRIED....

What happened ey? We've just finished watching CSI. I was bored and i couldnt sleep.. So i browsed through the channels and.. Ahah! 413 was playing the movie P.S. I love you.. I've watched it once during one of my nightshifts at the ED. I cried throughout. Luckily, i sat near a tissue dispenser. So tissues were reachable.. and there were not so many patients. So, yeah.. this time, i was pretty much excited to watch it AGAIN.. although it was already halfway through.. I thought i could just holdback my tears this time around.. heheh.. tp, i cried again..

I find the movie very-very real. I mean, i couldnt imagine having to lose someone i deeply love. and I believe that moving on with life, after love is not easy. Ramai yang xsuka H.Swank's acting. Just cause she's not that cantik.. But for me, she carried the character soo well, and so effectively. I was so moved watching it. I love the songs in the movie as well!! to bits.. hehehe..

aaaa.. so cute!!!

heart melts..

haih.. harap-harap ada lagi malam ni.. :)

Because I am Still Pregnant.....

...... We just had to attend Mal's wedding in Bluewave Hotel, Shah Alam.. Organized by the husband's family. it was a beautiful wedding. they looked sooo good!! Pelamin sangat cantik! thing is, i missed their wedding in Ipoh. So i can't miss this for the world eh babe??! Thanks so much for inviting us. Alhamdulillah, i am much better this weekend.. *Bila baby nak kuar ni?? Again, the photos are all courtesy of kak fadh the owh-so-kind-but-super-good photographer!!! To Mal n husband, again.. CONGRATULATIONS!! selamat berangkat to AZERBAIJAN! :)

sebelum upacara merenjis.. :)

freestyle-0! I seriously didnt know what to do..
hehehehhe.. *skema

yes.. This i know i do best.. kuikuikui!!

The function ended 2-ish. After the photography session, went back home straight. Husband had a rugby game that he too couldnt and wouldnt want to miss it for the world. I thought of accompanying him at first. But, with this huge tummy of mine.. i had to kiss him bye-bye instead.. Penat!!! So, that was it..

Kebosanan Melanda..

Hari ni tak kerja.. Viral Fever. I am worried about the little one inside of me more than my ownself. Thus, the staying at home. Husband is off to work. I said to him, i 'll call him if i feel like giving birth. huhuhu.. Sayang suamiku..

No stories to share today.. But, i do wanna share some pics from our babymoon in the UK. Enjoy.

husband, bergambar dengan seorang pakcik yang tidak dikenali, tetapi tak kisah gambarnya diambil. This is in Manchester, city center.

His dreams!! He will never accept NO for an aswer especially when Old Trafford is within his reach! Shopping at the MAN U Megastore.

Train ride to Cardiff, from Manchester.

Cardiff Bay..
Apparently, semua orang ada gambar kat sini..
Mum and Dad, Jeds and Fawwaz, Kakak and A. Imran.. hihih..

Sekembalinya kami ke Manchester, kami telah memborong barang-barang di sini..

Ini adalah Arndale! Saya suka ke sini..

And we made another stop by at the Old Trafford, again coz husband wanted to get some more things from the Megastore. Thus this picture was taken.

(I love you!)

My brother in-law got themselves tix to watch ManU play against Portsmouth!
Husband was soo over the moon!! I am sure he is.

At The Old Trafford Stadium!
Just before kick-off. husband in the stadium!

xbest rasanya if we didnt stop by at the Manchester City Stadium..
their megastore..

The Last Day in the Land Of the Queen

Greenwich,
London

Cantik sungguh.

On the way up to the Observatory Center, Greenwich.

It was cold at first

Finally there.. the day became alot better!

which side are you on darling? East or West?

Kuala Lumpur

The Real Time? Greenwich Time

Bye-bye Greenwich! See you again next time.

down in the Valley already.. :(

A Visit to the Rival

On our way there..

One of our last Tube rides, this time around..
annnndddd.....

Here we are..
Stamford Bridge Stadium, Chelsea..

saje suka-suka..

Apa yang dibisikkan tu, abang??!


Finally, Goodbye England..

Till we meet again, InsyaAllah..

okay yo.. That's all about our trip. Well, yang rajin untuk dipostlah definitely. Banyak juga places we went. toodles

Over the Weekend

Di kesempatan ini (ecewaaaah)... We would like to congratulate Mal and husband on their wedding.. Teringat our times dulu-dulu.. Not so dulu.. it was just about a year ago.. almost.. hihi.. To Mal (penumpang Satelite ku...) and husband, Semoga berbahagia, and diberkati and dirahmati Allah sentiasa, with good health, happy life, cinta-mencintai dan dicintai.. Ameeenn.. We are terribly sorry we couldnt make it to your reception.. Haruslah diampunkan mak buyung yg sorang ni ye..

pic courtesy from Kak Fadh, thanks!

Event kedua, Wedding another colleague of mine, which I, i mean We failed to attend.. yet again due to my poor health condition.. Puan Faiszah and Encik Loloq.. Selamat Pengantin Baru. Sama je lah macam Mal and Din..

Event ketiga.. Is my little cousin's birthday party. We were late for his party, but food was good. My uncle and family drove all the way from Kuantan for Ahmad's birthday party. Ahmad is only 5 years old by the way. Food was delicious. Nasi Dagang you.. Sian husband tercinta.. he missed the nasi dagang! *sape suruh xdapat attend...hhihihi.. He went to see his friends play rugby.. itu cinta hati dia.. i have no qualms about it.. :) I didnt have any camera with me at the party, so, no pic.. But anyhow.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMAD!! We enjoyed the clown too!! hihihi..

Event keempat.. My Dad and my little sister (she's 23 btw) went back to our kampung in Senaling, Kuala Pilah last night. Konon-kononnya nak experience dian ghahad!! They packed with them tents, and sleeping bags, insect repellant.. Last-last.. atuk xbagi tido dalam kebun durian!! They camped in the house instead.. HA HA HA!! but, they came home today with A BAKUL FULL OF DURIANS!!! and RAMBUTANS as well!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaarggghhhhhhhhhh!!! Kesedapan yang amat! But too bad, i could no longer take the pungent smell and taste of durian. Sikit-sikit can la.. Tapi, dah belasah the rambutans! Ameeeennn.. kenyang anak dalam perut ni.

Owh, talking of my little one.. I am so anxious waiting for the arrival of this little simba of ours.. So is the daddy! Ahah.. sometimes, the tummy becomes so tight.. rase macam nak beranak! But it only comes by at night!! But, husband said to me earlier.. 'Baby will come out when baby is ready..' Okay abang.. In the mean time.. please bear with all the 'bang, tolong picit tangan' or 'bang, sakit perut!!' hihihihi.. i love you so much!!

reminiscing our babymoon in the UK

Our 1 Year Anniversary is just around the corner.. hurmmm.. what should i get for husband??!!!

37

Yes.. you read that right.. 37 weeks..

Hari ni ada appointment OnG at the hospital. Too tired to go and wait for my turn. I don't know why, but lately i feel that it's just so difficult to go to bed. I'll watch husband sleep, turn on the TV again (sometimes), play that darn B*arnBuddy on FB (so addicted to it!), browse the net.. But my brain won't shut down for the day.. It's making me feel lethargy during the day. I'll probably doze off at 2 am. Usually.. Warm shower does help sometimes.. see, sometimes.. i want to be able to sleep for 8 hours.. i need the energy!! aargh!!

Owh, another thing is.. my extremities has started to puff up abit.. Most people will tell me "biasala, bengkak-bengkak sikit".. It's worse when the day is warm! it'll be very-very uncomfortable when i try to genggam.. Aaaaargh!! nanti kena tanya doctor lah..

Anyways, I am blogging from my computer at the satelite. Husband had to send me to work, coz my little sister 'cikun' my car to sleep over at her friend's. Haihh.. I am sure he's gonna be late.. Thanks so much dear.. But today.. i have alot of things to do. I have to re-do the ICU and NICU floorstock lists! I am still waiting for them to get back to me. they have yet to submit the forms back to me.. But they've called and asked about things. So its all good. Yang paling utama, I have to get it done before baby comes out! Sila la buat kerja dgn cepat-cepat ye, staff nurses.. hurmmm.. i don't feel so good today.. but, i am wishing a happy day to all those who reads this..