.rest.relax.

aaah.. feels good to be home. Home early today coz i have to work late night. hmmmph. tonnes of things to think of at work, about work.. and aaaaaaah. here i am at home.. away from work. Poor husband. Just a little update on our trip to Perhentian Island during our long hols.

.us.

We stayed at Arwana Resort, on the Perhentian Besar. We took this package by A*njung Holidays, which includes meals for 3 days, and 2 snorkelling trips. The best part was, the resort we stayed has a swimming pool. So, that helps for people like me. We arrived at Kuala Besut jetty quite early that is. 9 am after we sent Tok back to Jerteh (besut). we reached the island 11 ish. the thing is, we had to drop others at their destination first, and indeed, we were the last. But the water was so clear, u can see the beautiful corals on the seabed. even if its 10m deep. and owh, so breath-taking.

We went for snorkelling that very afternoon, after lunch. ahahaha. we were supposed to go to 3 different stops. huhuhu.. but something happened. U guess? i wasnt that confident to swim without the life jacket on. Husband as always refused to put the life jacket on. *lantakla, janji dia xlemas dah. hehehe.. the corals were green, there were so many colourful fishes, and best of all, we saw 5 sharks. we were awe-struck at one point when seeing one shark. but later, when we saw there were 5?!! kecut perut jugak la. huhu.. According to the man who took us snorkelling, 'if touch, dangerous. No touch, no dangerous' ... that did got me rolling on the boat. *kidding.

so, have you guessed what happened? Just as we were about to set off to the second spot, i got dizzy. I really couldnt tolerate the waves. Boats keep passing by, sending big waves, and got me rocking on the sea. i really couldnt stand it. and i threw out in the man's boat. there goes my lunch.. all of it! damn! husband asked the man to send us back to the resort, and i made a promise to husband that i will not join him for snorkelling the next day. ahahahaha.

I spoilt myself with a session of spa while hubby is busy looking at beautiful corals and shells the next day. waited for him at the beach, and had lunch. The food was good, always good. We enjoyed our short trip to perhentian. It was all great. Great scenery, great weather, everything great. hurmm.. On our way back to Ajil, we stopped by at Jetty Penarik to get FIL some crabs, Batu Rakit in KT for lunch, and Pulau Wan Man for a trip inside the Masjid Crystal. hehehe.. okay then.. enjoy the pics.

.redup.

.the jetty.
.beautiful.

.Corals.

.termenung sendirian.

.more beach.
.beautiful.

.goodbye.

.batu rakit.

. masjid kristal, pulau wan man.

.kekayaan.

Selamat berpuasa to everyone. Salam

Bonding session

We just got back from Terengganu after a good 2 weeks holidays. Well, it was actually the Majlis Menyambut Menantu on my husband's side. Alhamudulillah, everything went well. My family came in 10 cars, my aunts and uncles and their families, i cant thank them enough for spending their time and money to join me in Terengganu. They went back straight after the wedding but did manage to stop by at Pantai Kelulut, Marang for a feast. Huhuhuhu.. and left me at my PIL's.

All in all, it was all new experience for me. I have been to my husband's kg, 2 times before we got married. But, mase tu.. Malu-malu lagi. I still get the ..'eh, xpela.. biar ma buat' sort of reaction. But this time, it was different. I am already part of the family. and they are so very nice to me. Sometimes, they still treat me as a 'budak bandar yang xpenah masuk Kg' but its okay. I enjoyed my stay with my in laws. Aboh, he's a man of few words. He doesnt speak much, and i got nervous whenever i try to have a conversation with him, but, there was one night, we had dinner, Husband and MIL was watching TV and there were only the two of us. Aboh can be quite chatty. He talked about his experiences of going fishing, the types of fishes he got and all. And i am so glad. I thought that bonding session was the best ever since husband and i got married.

Other than that, I got to know alot about my husbands family. Different than mine, but i like it. I got a session of full body massage. My masseur was Tok. huhuhu. Nice eh?! tu la.. ceni, everytime balek, kena cari tok. She told me this.. "Urak toko ni.. urak teghik" I had to ask husband to translate for me.. huhu.. I am still learning to understand their Unique language. But so far, i think.. i am doing well. :)

Yesterday, before we head back to KL, PIL packed us with lots of things. Pucuk ubi, owh tonnes of it.. Jagung, bertongkol2.. Pisang tanduk, sedap digoreng.. Buoh ttene or famously known as petola, and bendi.. 1 kg of bendi. Terima kasih ma aboh. Mudah-mudahan murah rezeki kita semua. All in all, i had a good time in terengganu. Getting to know my new family and the relatives. I still have a lot of memorising and recognising to do. But i guess, i still have a long time to get to know my new family. But, i am so glad. I am glad.

ciao

Terengganu

We're all ready to go to terengganu. Hip hip!! Hooraaay!!!
Aimi, Have fun in KL yo! muuaaah.

Sad Vs Happy

Yesterday, Husband came home with a long face and muttered,"they gave me a farewell party, sedih rasenye pulak". I didnt know how to respond at first really, because i do understand so much the feelings of letting go. I hugged him, i said.. InsyaAllah you will meet nice people in your new place. My husband will be posted to PJ as an enforcement officer. Work starts monday. But, i know his passion is not in doing raids and best of all paper works! But hey, Kami yang menurut perintah. hummmph. Poor husband. Today, on our way home from our friend's engagement ceremony, he mentioned it again. I smiled to him, ensuring him that come what may, i will always stand by his side. :)

As mentioned earlier, today, our friends, Nazha & Faiz got engaged. We are indeed so happy for both of them. U see, we were the ones (not exactly), but we did helped them to actually get together, and now they are already half-way through to becoming husband and wife. CONGRATULATIONS korang! cepat-cepat sikit kawen! i have yet to upload pictures from my camera. so, that will come later. But i was really happy because we got to meet friends whom we've not met for a while. huhuhuh.. Since we got married *just 3 weeks ago i've been getting questions on 'dah berisi ke?' 'dah pregnant?' from many.. I wished i am. but hey, we've just got married for 3 weeks. I am just glad.

Owh, more updates. The department held a farewell party for us PRPs. Despite it being a farewell party, we were told to provide food and presents for the department. huhuhuh..anyways, the party went well, everyone had fun. especially us PRPs and those who are close to us, PFs, PPKs and some of our bosses. we bought 2 sets of 21 pieces of big Apple donuts, and everyone went sugar-high. hahaha..including me. enjoy the pictures.

Beratur skema-skema. Thanks Adam for the very nice shot.

Ready, set! JUMPP!
But what happened to the rest of them? still waiting to jump?
fairuz and myself, already in the air! hahahahah!

erk! cot, sakit sembelit ke?

Half of us.. i love this shot. I took it, thats why!

hurrrmm.. memories..

That was it. I do have more. But i am so lazy to upload the pictures. Yes.. Huhuhu.. yang penting, everyone enjoyed the photo-shoot. Huhuhuhu..
till then, toodles

128th

Again, here i am for my 128th post. Baru!
nevertheless, i couldnt believe that we are already into the second week of marriage. I mean, it isnt really hard to cope (at the moment at least) with the changes. But we are still contemplating whether to further our studies and come back as tutors or to wait for JPA scholarship for another 4-5 years. At the moment in time, we are really considering to further our studies. Myself at least. And getting pregnant. We dont intend to get pregnant anytime soon, but IF it happens, we are most grateful. So far, as of now, i am most grateful to Allah for all that the has blessed me with. Alhamdulillah.

Next weekend, would be the reception at husband's kampung. I cant wait to join him there. And we will be on a week long holidays. That means, going round Terengganu, meeting new family members (me, that is) and then off to Perhentian for our VERY2 First honeymoon. Allah Willing. But there are things that we havent done yet, that is to go get my husband a matching baju melayu. Tomorrow ya sayang?

on a total different note, i just bought meself an electric oven, courtesy of the department i work in. They gave me RM250 and told me to get whatever that i need. And i know i need an electric oven. I do need it because sometimes, i need to bake. Plus, my colleagues bought me a nice kenwood mixer. (i wished it was the super mixer) but hey, its good enuff really. I bought it today,because husband had to work night shift... sob2.. We actually went to Ikano yesterday to look at the ovens at Harvey Norman's. We saw the Kenwood electric oven. But they were all out of stock. NIL. The only left was the display unit. Then, we went round to Tesco, (hoping that they have a reasonably good one) but husband wasnt keen on buying an oven of a different brand (i really dont know why) because he made it quite clear that he didnt want the other brands. And i found it at JJ OU. Owh, thank god. But it was still difficult to decide on the kenwood that i bought. But i have bought it anyways. So i guess, when i move into our own house, i will have to bake more often. Wink wink..

As of now.. I am desperately waiting for the most-handsome guy on earth to come home into my arms. I really do miss him. Haih. okay aimi. Bye-O

Our Wedding

At this moment, i am actually waiting for my dear husband to come home from work. I had to work night shift tonight, which explains the dire need for my husband to come home early. I just need to spend time with him before i go off to work tonight. hmmmph..

Anyways, that pic was taken during upacara membatalkan air sembahyang. The man in green is my new Aboh, and the lady in maroon is my new Ma. My in laws. I am so happy to see them smile in the picture. :) Just a little information on my wedding. The akad was held at Dewan nikah Masjid Wilayah. * i think it is very convenient to have the upacara nikah there. We had friends from afar attending our nikah, some came all the way from Sabah and Sarawak. We were very happy, and grateful. I am glad that the Akad went smooth and it was all good. I am not sure of what to write. i guess, i'll continue writing later, k?

One week

Dear Friends

Alhamdulillah
We are now Husband & Wife.. already for 5 days..
as for now, we are still based at my parents house. My husband is comfortable here, but we hoped to move out soon before we get very very comfortable and moving out will be even more difficult. Nevertheless, Life is great. I didnt know marriage life is this great. We are still the same people. except that, when we get up in the morning, we have eachother. husband is out to work. Poor baby. i'll start work tomorrow. hmmmph. I really dont feel like going to work. hahahaha..

i would love to extend our gratitude (on behalf of my dear husband) to all those who came to our wedding reception on the 26th of July. We really enjoyed the crowd and the presents and best of all, thanks for all the warm wishes and du'a. Allah have mercy upon us All, and bless us all with many happy returns insyaAllah. ameeen..

*gambar later

Bad day

I took half-day off to settle stuff for the upcoming wedding. Made a date with mommy dearest to go look for a tailor to make me my Nikah dress. But u see, mommy dearest have been complaining of back pain, not exactly.. She's been complaining of pain at her back.. waist? Nevermind. so, she's gotten herself an appointment for a physio session at the hospital. So, 3-ish, i drove down to the hospital to join her. She told me she was just about to have lunch. grrr.. u can never imagine how bad parking is at the hospital. People double park, and disappear. But i still went. and double parked. i was told by the men who watches over the parking bay that the row of cars parked on my left were in a meeting, therefore, they made it as though I can double park. They didnt tell me that i was supposed to leave my keys with them. ahahaha..

waited at the pharmacy with my mother, and i was also on the phone making phone calls, but during all those time, i was just there in the lobby. And then my mother went down to the Surau, i followed. I totally forgot that i double parked. So anyways, i went inside the surau, talked to mommy dearest and then she asked me, did u double park? why are u here and not there at the car? Then, IT struck me. oh MY GOD!!!! i ran back up to the lobby and the men, upon seeing me, haaaaa.. lame dah orang tu tunggu nak keluar. awak pergi mana? I was like, SHIIIITTT!!! i ran and saw this lady carrying a child.. i asked her, is that ur car? A harsh NO for an answer.. i did swear to her.. Sempat pulak. i totally panicked! like mad! i removed my car and i saw a young lady walking towards it. I ran to her and apologized profusely.

She said its okay, but u know.. u can never imagine the embarrassment! aaaargh. all this while, i've always hated people who double park their cars and worse; they do not put their phone number incase if the ones they blocked wants to go. And, It HAPPENED TO ME! sungguh memalukan! enuff said. the lesson to be learned is, Incase if you badly need to double park, just leave your phone number in your car. It makes everyone's life alot more easier.

Romantic!

I tried to watch Music & Lyrics once on the plane to UK, May last year. but i slept halfway through and i said to myself, it wasnt a good one. Yesterday, i got to watch the movie, and i loved it. In a way, the movie left a big impact in me. I love the songs, i am thrilled to watch Hugh Grant sing and dance (especially that POP song). Ala2 George michael gitu. if u still remember his 80's hits. hahaha. And i love the characters in the movie. the storyline is simple, but, i dont know. i think, british accent is sexy. huhuhu.

so, i uploaded the song. Enjoy.

My little cousin

Just a short entry on this cute little boy. Took him out for a movie last monday. it was just the two of us, and we definitely had loads of fun. I had fun going out with a three year old kid. :)

yummy in my tummy! *says Ahmad

adieu WDS8896

Innalillah to my uncle, cibud, cimin and ahmad for the tragedy that has befallen onto them. Alhamdulillah, they are all safe despite some cuts and bruises. Not any words can describe how grateful we are to Allah. The car is gone, but we didnt lose any family member.

The accident occured on the L*PT hiway, at around 6.30pm, wednesday 26/03/08. My uncle has recently been discharged from Hospital Te*merloh and under recovery at my grandma's crib in Kuantan. Alhamdulillah. My little baby cousin, Ahmad is enjoying himself with his cousins telling stories about his little adventure of the accident. Little did he know that it could've taken their lives. Nauzubillah.

Just to show the car after the accident. Eventhough, the car is our favourite car for us siblings, and it did got us teary eyes to learn that we've lost it, but then again, we can always replace WDS but we can never replace lost lives. So, eventually we understand that sooner or later, we must learn to let go. and InsyaAllah, this is a blessing in disguise. Ameen. My parents said, InsyaAllah we'll get another car for u children. Alhamdulillah. This i believe is all by willing of Allah.

excuse me for the low quality photos taken. it was just heart-wrenching when looking at the state of the car, said my brother and my dear fiance. (brother cried many times when talking to us on the phone, huhu)

Nothing that can be salvaged..

Maybe the 17" alloy rims? naaaah..

Engine still in place and can still be used, but car is a total wreck.

rear of WDS.. where is the exhaust pipe? Gone too

So, before i end my essay here (hihi.. sob, sob) i would like to bid my final goodbye to our ex-BMW 325 (WDS8896). The car has certainly done us good since we first got it in 2002. It is undeniably sad to see it gone in such way, but its better to have it gone than a family member gone. So, beemer dear.. Adieu. with much love. Jane

Emergency or not

i was working the night shift last night. clocked in at 9pm, and out at 7am this very morning. It was just like any other night shifts that i have done at the emergency department. Usually by 2.30 a.m, the MO's would already clear 98% of the patients (the crowd starts at 9pm). So, by then one of us would have the luxury to take a short nap first. So, after having had a nap, for close to 230 hours, my partner, KZ woke me up indicating that its her turn to take a rest. Who could resist the comfort of the warm fleece blanket especially in that super cold ED. Nevertheless, i still got up, washed my face, and started waiting.

there was only a patient from 4-5 am. 2 patients from 5-6 am. In between those waiting i did 'tersengguk' many times and once in a while landed my head on the desk. isk isk isk. So, into the last hour of my shift, i was alone at the desk. KZ was still sound asleep on the flattened boxes laid onto the cold floor. I didnt have the hearts to wake her up. So i waited.. and alone. At approximately 520am, 3 person came to me, asking me where is the ED screening counter. Showed them the direction, and waited. they came to me again, for registration. I dont know if they're illiterate or they are just plain 'lurus bendul'. Not any FIRST counter u see is the registration counter. Registration counter is next to the pharmacy. So i said, Registration dikaunter sebelah. Pretty much annoyed, but thats just how people are.

at around 6 am, I saw one of them taking a peek into the doctors room. In my thoughts, i'm sure they couldnt handle the long wait. And to make things worse, there were no other patients waiting. :P He came out and blurted something to his friends. Aaaaahh. ni sure doctor tido. In my own thoughts la. 10 minutes later, they were called in into the examining room. 620 am, they came out, walked to me and handed over the registration card. i scanned the code, and i didnt receive the prescription. i tried a few times, i tried to refresh the page 10 times, but to no avail. i told the patient that i havent received the prescription, and i asked them to wait. (sometimes, its not the doctor, but the system) and suddenly

Patient: Ni la ed yang paling teruk saya penah pegi.
me: haaa? (buat2 xdengar)
Patient: Saya datang, tengok doctor tido. skarang ni awak nak
suruh saya tunggu lagi? Ubat xde lagi?
me: *half-annoyed i was. xpe, pegi jumpa doctor balek and suruh doctor release ubat.
Patient: Nak pegi macam mana. Doctor dah keluar. Teruk punya doctor
Die cakap semua okay. tak tengok and xpegang saya pon. terus cakap semua ok.
Apa punya doctor.
me: *kept mum. called doctor straight.
Patient: Pastu mintak MC untuk saya.
me: * pulled a straight face. Aih, ko ingat aku ni ape? nak MC mintak la sendiri. siapa suruh memarah. heeeshh.

boleh x? and for your information, that scenario is a common scenario. Everyday, we get patients complaining to us about how rude some doctors are, and all those complaints la. it is stressful because, they are all angered up, and they dont tell you nicely. they raise their voice to you. Its stressful. I told the patient right after i've dispensed her medications. "lainkali, u nak complain, cakap terus kat doctor. Saya bukan doctor. saya pharmacist. borang complain ada u isi. Jangan datang sini marah2 saya. Bukan saya yang doctor." the patient was stunned to hear that. but eventually she apologized. I understand how stressful it is working during odd hours, and i understand how tiring it can be. But, its even worse for us because patients will not complain to them. because they know if they did, they're afraid that the doctor would deny treatment.

U just cant win when it comes to patient. No matter how hard you try to explain, they just wont listen. because when both person talks, no one will listen. really! For me, sakit or demam biasa its better to go and see the GP, rather than going to the emergency unless it is a real emergency. Many would say, its okay to wait rather than pay a hefty rm50 for simple meds and 5 mins consultation. But actually one waste a lot of time. Even in Islam, we shouldnt waste too much time doing nothing. If they come and read while waiting, i am sure it wouldnt be as bad. But the thing is, Tunggu semata-mata. memang la cepat marah. dah tu, siapa suruh buat dek je. Bawakla quran/story books to read. The doctors kat emergency tu, if there is a real emergency, they will have to leave whatever they doing. and that means, increased waiting time. So? siapa yang rugi?
think about it. till then.

Updates

Working night shifts can sometimes be interesting. It came home at around 8am this morning (thank god i missed the morning traffic) and went to bed immediately. I was flat and slept until noon. 147 pm to be exact. ahahaha. As soon as i got up, text dear fiance who's already at the mosque (friday prayers remember?). In the meantime, i remembered that i had things to settled:

1) To call Masjid Wilayah to book the date for 'nikah'.
2) To get all the documents for the 'nikah' ready
3) Attend kursus kahwin (We're definitely going tomorrow)
4) To call 'butik*syahirah' to confirm the rental rate for the dress found in a magazine (owh soo beautiful)
5) To call caterer to book for reception.
6) To check out on wedding invitation cards (already done, but havent actually decided on any specific design)

Alhamdulillah, i managed to get almost all of it done. So next is to get the forms and get all the forms ready for submission. Plus the HIV test also needs to be done as well.:) So i guess, that is it for now. ciao.

RM 6K for Medical Officers?

referring to a letter sent in by a father to a medical doctor/student, he said, the pay raise up to 6k for medical officers post 2 years of service in the government is so much relevant. And why is that so? because of the workloads. the working during odd hours, working long hours, etc2. In reality, does anyone realize that doctors in Malaysia are well paid? They get all the benefits that not any other profession in a hospital setting gets (So much for the so-called PRIMARY health-care provider). They usually get free lunches/free coupons, for the oncalls, they get to claim allowances for the extra hours they've worked. Imagine, if this doctor is super workaholic and decides to do on-calls for his friends, they do get a hefty-sum of money at the end of the month. They get most benefits because their doctors.

My point is here, What about the maxilo-facial surgeons? they too have to come in everytime a patient fractures his face (inc. mouth n face etc). If a patient bleeds from the mouth non-stop, these doctors will be called in, and not the medical officers. What about pharmacists? I'm not saying this just because i am a pharmacist. But little does anyone know, we too work during odd hours. Yes, the doctors do call us in the middle of the night, to ask for recommendations, dosages, medications that needs a pharmacists' authorization prior to use. yes. And as a matter of fact, we too work during odd hours. we too have shifts. But yes, our monthly salary is not even 1/2 of what they're getting. shame shame. I think being a doctor now is no longer about patient care. I salute the older doctors. I salute their passion towards treating patients but i guess, now everyone will want to be a doctor.

My opinion is, there is no exact primary health-care provider. U dont diss the dentists aside just because they specialize in oral and face area of the body. and U dont diss the pharmacists aside just because they dont do what the doctors do.the truth is, u dont see a medical doctor if you have a tooth-ache do you? You might find a medical doctor for advise on your medications but i guess now, the general public are more aware on the roles of pharmacists. If workload is the main concern, i dont think that increasing the pay to 6k monthly for a MO who's only worked for 2 years in the government is appropriate. In general, everyone has their work portion. and in hospital settings, I stand at 41 level, same with the other medical doctors and dentists. And if they say that we dont understand their workload, (just because there are and increasing trend of cases of medical negligence or error during procedures), i think they are plain wrong. In that case i think, we should revise on the dispensing rights for pharmacists! yeah?! I am all stressed out. bloody hell!

It was them who wanted to become doctors in the first place, and yet they complain soo bloody much! WTH? if only they remember what they always say after their SPM results. I wanna be a doctor because i wanna help people. Owh, F off!

Guess what..

What?

We'vae placed an order.. and its coming soon.. InsyAllah.:) May Allah make it easy for us and bless us with rezeki yang halal.. ameen..

Holiday

One the best weekends in my life, i shall say.:)
Saturday night, fiance headed back to KL from terengganu after casting his vote. (i didnt though, coz i 'forgot' to register). Sunday 530 am, i got myself ready and picked him up at the bus station, performed our subuh, and started our journey to Perlis. Imagine, Fiance travelled that whole day. From trengganu to Kl to Perlis. Poor baby. It was really a trip to remember. Imagine, we went in my car. Yes, that old car u see, and its proven that its still good. The day i remember was bright, skies were blue, and it was a pretty warm day. The wedding was on the same day, thus explains why we took the road early in the morning. My concern was, i couldnt make it on time to join the rest of the classmates. :P hehehe..

I took the wheels first. Fiance was too sleepy to drive. so i said, okay. That was my first drive on the NSH. I've never really driven that far. way till the end of the world. huhu. So, excited as i was, i let fiance gets his rest. I can say that i did drive fast, constant at 140km/hr because i managed to get to tapah within 1 hour 15 mins. My stomach was already growling and i realised that i was getting back pain due to the driving, so we had breakfast, read about the latest results on the GE, and after 30 minutes, we resumed our journey to Perlis. I didnt bring my camera so no pics. hahaha..

1045 am, we were already in Juru. Traffic was pretty heavy and fuel was already running low. but the car could still do with that little petrol left. I had driven 450km already. Refueled at Gurun and resumed journey. We decided to go to Kangar from Alor Star, (that was by recommendation from a few friends) and urghh.. Traffic was heavy and i could only do 80km/hour on a trunk road and still had a good 45km to reach Kangar. When we reached Kangar, dear Fiance was already holding the map on the back of the wedding card. (i've never really trusted maps on wedding cards. The scale is not accurate, they tend to missed out on important landmarks, they always skip on the traffic lights.. erghhh.. but still, that was the ONLY thing we had to direct us to our friends house. And.. we couldnt find the roundabout. on the map! we made a few rounds, passed by the stadium, hospital.. and by then dear fiance was already pouting and restless. And i said, okay, lets ask someone. fiance came back with a smile on his face. He said, okay this is easy. And it was easy. we stopped by at an old mosque to get changed. By 125pm, we were already at the wedding. All excited to see classmates whom we've not met for ages, especially those who came with their partners, and best of all, i got to meet aimi!

the wedding was interesting, the food was good, we had good company as well, and we stayed there until 3pm. G, aimi and I planned to go to Penang to spend the rest of the holiday there, whereas the others wanted to stay in Perlis. So after the wedding, G brought me and fiance to Padang besar to see some stuff. He managed to get a rugby jersey and i managed to get nice brooches for a good price. (after much bargaining, ahahah!). We were there for an hour or so because we had other places to stop by. 530pm, we left for Jitra through changloon. We passed by Cuping, the only (i think) and biggest Ladang tebu in Malaysia. and it was all so beautiful and the view was just breath-taking. Subhanallah. There were children running on the field with their cows. owh so carefree. If only life had been that simple right? ahaha. nevertheless, we stopped by Jitra, and then waited for G in Gurun. By 930 we were on the Penang bridge. yeeaaaahooooo!!! ahahaha. However, there isnt much to be seen. i mean, there were constructions left and right, but it was fun. I'm always fascinated when on the bridge.

we stayed in SMH penang. Had Nasi Kandar that night, and G brought us for some sightseeings. there isnt much to see since it was already dark, (and i fell asleep immediately after dinner in the car) but they managed to 'lepak' for abit at gurney drive. i missed that one though. ahahahaha. reached SMH at 1.30 am and went straight to bed. Penat okeh, i've been driving the whole day! 730 am, fiance woke me up. he called me on the phone by the way. then, we got changed and went down for breakfast. melantak xhengaat k. the food i can say wasnt that good, but its better than not having any. After bfast, G went to see her bf so the three of us, went toothpaste hunting. hahahaha. lepak2 at the hotel, by 1230 we were ready to check out n, went straight to pdg kota to mkn pasembur. Fiance, myself and Aimi spend 10 ringgit each for a plate of pasembur. Mahal okay! But i told fiance, its okay because we dont get to eat pasembur every day.. ahahahaha.. And then it was time to say Goodbye.

Sad.. i wished i had more time with my friends. But anyhow, i really enjoyed the trip though it was a short one. I always believe that planned trip wouldnt do for me. I like unplanned trip. yeah.. G took us for one last ride before we actually say goodbye, it was the ferry ride back to mainland. Ahahahaha.. ecstatic i was, really! Penang have always amused me. I just dont know why. By 2.30pm we were already on the highway, southbound. Fiance took the wheels first this time but insisted that i drive from Tapah to KL. hurmmm.. it really was a trip to remember.. minus the exhaustion.:P The only thing is, when we reach home, to have to think that the next day is work day, all the excitement went away, 'pooff'. it went away..:) Happy working everyone.

Today

My mother is now on her way to Manchester, to get her hands on her first cucu. And suddenly the house feels empty. She'll be away for a month leaving the rest of the brood behind. I could see that my dad was pretty much reluctant to let her go for a month. Thats pretty obvious isnt it, Men cannot be without women. ahaks. It is for my dad, uncles, my grandpa. maybe its a family thing. I got the whole day off today and i slept the whole afternoon. I do feel a bit, lost though knowing that my mom wont be around for a month.

Nevertheless, right after dzuhur prayer, i got myself ready and drove to the curve to pay dear Fiance's wedding ring. It hit me for a bit, I'm already at the curve, i shouldnt go home too early should i? then i went round, looking at things.. and.. i got myself two story books from the curve. I'm actually eyeing on Roald dahl's. But it was a bit too expensive. Couldnt afford the book, i need to save for our wedding. Immediately after that, i headed down the escalator. tak boleh lama2. Nanti jadi macam2. hahaha.

now, i'm waiting for the mechanic to send my brother's car home, but i have to send him back to his workshop, which is not so far by the way. so till then. ciao.

Welcome to the family!

My sister just gave birth to this cute little girl.. So Japanese.. So cute and adorable. I love her already! This is my first anak sedara. Name will be announced after 7 days of birth.:) Soon InsyaAllah. Born on the 25th February 2008. Cant wait to see her in July!

anak jepun mana ni?! u're so pretty!

One thing is for sure, i'm going to spoil this little girl.. infact, all my anak sedara to come. :) okay, ciao!

current readings

okay, Just a lil update on what i'm working on..
1st, its this novel; curtain by agatha christie.. something similar to the series Midsommer Murders.. i love watching it. i'm already half-way through it..:)


2ndly, is this book, Growing up in Trengganu, by Awang Goneng. Bought the book with mommy dearest last week, and havent actually started reading it. Soon, after i've finished curtain, definitely..
Okay, so.. till then.. ciaooo

the big day

Buying a car?!

My friend bought a car recently. A Vios that is.. and it got me drooled for a moment making me feel that i too need a new car. But, i already have a car. Abah bought me 4 years ago. :p okay.. So the only candidate left is dear fiance for he rides to work, day in day out.. (and got me worried day in day out too). After doing much of thinking, i suggested to him that we need another car, one that could ferry us back to trengganu, or at least a 4 door car.. mine is a 2 door. small.:p

Honestly, i am not looking into non Malaysian-made car, and definitely not into P2 cars. (i Have little interest in P2 cars, self-proclaimed national carmaker, plus the price of the car). Thus, that leaves us with only 1 brand. At first i wanted a car that could satisfy my cravings for speed, a car that is stable, and abit sporty. Thus, i suggested a N. At one point, i was so sure of buying it. The, after many discussions that we had, i thought N is a wee-bit too small for us. I mean, there'll be mom and father in-law in the picture soon, so the car isnt sufficient.

Then, came the brand-new engine. Read about it alot, and was so thrilled to get my foot in it, and test drive.tp, i dunno what happened.i. Hahaha. So, with the new engine coming out soon, i said, why not wait for it. Afterall, all the cars will be replaced with the new engine. Then again, we dont know when exactly the upgrading-process will take place. on another note, I had W in mind. With the new engine, i believe that it will produce a much better car than the previous ones. The interior is not so bad afterall though it looks abit 'orang-tua-ish'. but the car is a beauty, already.

But this is a big decision. we dont want to lose too much of money from buying a car. So i decided to ask my dad, his opinions about buying a car. It was a good one discussion and that was what i needed to hear i guess. the conversation went:

Me : abah, Fiance needs a car. What do u think?
Abah: ok, thats good. what sort of car is he looking at?
Me : thats a good question bah. the thing is, we're not too sure of what to buy.
i'm thinking of a N, but it'll be impractical after we get married. what do u think about W?
Abah: Its a good car. plus the new engine. But i think its a bit expensive for you. Listen..
Buying a car, is not an investment. Its a liability. U have to feed petrol, send the car for service, maintenance, etc2. And it will cost a lot of money. U all ni beli kereta nak bergaya. Duit tu simpan la for house. U will need a house soon. And whats the point of beli kereta mahal2, tapi rumah takde. ur car should only take up to 30% off ur monthly salary. Faham. So, abah suggest go for the new S. I think its sufficient for both of you. etc2.. there he goes.
Me : Abah, u know me too well. hehehe..
Abah: I was once ur age. But it never occured to me that i need a car to bergaya. A car is just a tool to get you from one place to another.
Me : thanks bah. love you


So, after much of thinking and thinking, we have actually decided to go for a S. But when will we put in the down-payment? dont know yet. Ahaks.. But i guess, this is the beginning of our journey as a couple. There is no more you and i, theres abah and ma, and sisters and theres abah and mama, and sisters. and uncles, and soon, there'll be juniors. Life does not revolve around u and i like how it used to. Lets hope this is the best decision for many years to come. The car i mean. :)

Good boss or bad boss?

Every friday morning, we will all gather in a small room, for a session called 'morning prayers'. I am sure, it is called as such because we have it on a friday. It is like a day to sum up events/happenings in the department especially plus motivational talk (i think they should do it on Mondays instead of Fridays). Lately, things happened in the department. All the unexpected things and we are indeed popular for all the wrong reasons, how unfortunate. So, when we gather the superiors will go about with the problems, and will give input on how we should go about it and all the words of advice. yeah..

Yesterday, A gave a short speech (motivational talk, so they call it) and i liked it. His speech was about why we should never blame or faults on others but ourselves. The world around us can change, people will come and go etc, but if we dont move forward, we'll still be left behind. Our new boss, he's a really nice man. He smiles and greet everyone in the department, he remembers all our names, and he's a kind person. The problem with him is, he never says no. i mean, i am sure if there's some sort of help needed, he will try his best to help. And that has affected some in the department. Many thinks that he's being too kind, and biar org pijak kepala.

Sometimes, the doctors make suggestions that i shall say, a bit 'selfish'. But my boss here, will never say No and he will try to find ways on how to help them. The outcome does not matter. Whether its a yes or no. The most important thing is, He will never turn anyone down. baikkan? But many misunderstood his actions. many thinks that that is more of a burden. And they out-do him in the department. Talking behind his back and all, and most of all not respecting him as the leader in the department. True enough, the leader has to earn the respect from his subs, but we subs should always respect our leaders either way. The fact that he's not done anything shameful to the department is whats important.

So, that was why A read out that story to all of us, to remind us that our leaders can change, the people around us can change, but if we do not cooperate with each other, we will never go far, wont we? So lets see the what will the topic for this coming friday be. huhuhu..

loneliness

its only been 2 days he's away in Terengganu, and there will be many days to come, but truth is I miss him dearly. already. I know. i cant wait till he gets back. It feels different, i mean in a way, i felt embarrassed of myself for not being with him at this very time. I wished that we're already together so that i could go with him, and comfort him. I mean, theres still a few more months to go, maybe i should just be more patient.

Takdir Allah

Sunday afternoon
my phone beeped and 'cik is not well..i wa...' appeared on the screen.. Opened and read the message from him. he said he wants to go back in terengganu. I replied 'ok. we'll get the bus ticket tomorrow'.

things went on well, he was happy man u won againts everton. My family had a small bbq, my aunt and her family came over. He did too. i was very happy, but abit stressed out since the day after is a working day. past 1030, he went back to his small crib.

Monday
phone beeped again. 'i'm already at the hospital.kerja elok2.i love you' he wrote. i replied back, 'dont forget to apply for leave okay?'. worked really hard, and by 5pm, it started to rain. this is no cats and dogs. it rained so heavily and the wind was strong too. As i walked to my car, i was nearly blowned away by the wind. (exaggeration) but it was such a windy2 day, plus the rain. Reached home around 630pm. sat infront of the box as i had to have my daily dose of SpaaQ.huahua. Suddenly my phone rang. He seldomnly calls but it was him. answered the call;

him: ya, where are you?
Me: i am at home. just got home from work. it rained so heavily tadi
him: ya.... (long silence)
Me: yes dear
him: Cik dah takde. ya cik dah takde ya.. (he was already crying)

I was already speechless by then. Cik is the beloved grandfather. i've met him, once and i love him immediately. such a nice and warm old man. and it breaks my heart that He didnt get to by cik's side during his last breath. Cik died of old age. He was 90 plus. Later in our conversation i told him to get ready, i'll take him to the bus station and he;ll head back to terengganu that night itself. He agreed. Thanks God he got himself a bus ticket and by 9 he was already on his way back to Terengganu. Me? i had to stay. I told him if he ever needed me with him, i can take the next flight, but he assured me that he'll be alright. The burial proceedings was done immediately and he didnt get to say his final goodbye to cik before he goes 6 feet under. Anyways, he took the news quite badly. and i understand perfectly. Cik was the one who took him and picked him up from school. Cik was a big part of him. He loved his grandfather so much. Nevertheless, this is what Allah planned for us all. May Allah bless Cik's soul and ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman. And i told him to always make du'a for cik. Sad as anyone will be, It is all in the Power of the Lord, Allahuakbar..

al-Fatihah.

Kerja

hey. have been busy these days. Since i've started working, i dont have much time to blog nowadays. Nevertheless, i'm blogging now. So, how's work and everything u ask? yeah, work is good. I love my work. Suka kecoh2. hahaha. but u know, there will always be days when u just dont wanna go to work, and there will always be those who will bug you in everyway they could. Anyways, i'm enjoying it. every bit of it. i'm currently attached under clinical, which means, i will have to go up to the wards and follow the rounds. With specialists and medical/house officers. i enjoy it. I enjoy listening to their discussion, enjoy trying to understand how they interpret the Xray-film, CT film.. hmmm.. i'm amazed they could see what i couldnt. hahahaha. And the best part is, being questioned about drugs, dosage, side effects, how to administer, when to administer etc. That should be my area of specialty. Although i have to admit that i most of the time have to rely on books to answer all their queries, but i'm glad.. i'm actually contributing. kan? Ketaq gak lutut. Bukan lutut je, tangan pon habis ketaq. tp jawab mesti yakin. Salah pon, yakin. tapi mesti betulkan, dan dengan yakin. heh.

i was in ICU for 2 weeks. How i wished i could stay longer.. i enjoy the rounds so much. The ICU team, they are really good, and the best thing is they really respect pcists' say. Good. And, seeing all the patients in the ICU, really got me 'insaf'. Its just sad, looking at the patients attached with so many wires onto the body, with all the beepings from the ventilators, pressure monitors and etc. Because they are all intubated, the nurses will have to perform suction from their throat for aspirate. and u know, its actually painful. worse still, when they contract bugs from the hospital environment itself, nosocomial infection and these bugs are usually resistant to many antibiotics which leaves the docs antibiotics with increased risk of organ damage. Some survived, some didnt. Its just sad to know that the patient couldnt survive. Insaf.

That was ICU. Now, i'm attached under the Infectious Disease Ward. We are the referral center for patients with retroviral disease. So, i could say that 90% of patients in the ward are RVD +ve patients. Semua ada. Melayu, Cina, India. And they come in with all sorts of weird infections, ones that normal people dont get, but they do. if u're in the medical line, u'll understand when they say, opportunistic infections. Its a bit scary though. 3 days in the ward, my eyes became very itchy. i dont know whether its just me, or its the ward itself.but everytime i go up into the ward, i'll start rubbing my eyes, and it does scare the ***t out of me. Anyways, no matter how they contract the disease, i hope they will have enough time to ask for Forgiveness from Allah and that Allah will help them during the time of death. Let Us all make doa that Allah will make it easy for all of us.

Sometimes, we should look at these people. When u talk to them, u can sense the feelings of regret in the patients, only that it is too late. sedihkan? Jadi, kita2 yang sehat ni, lets count our blessings. And lets become an obedient servant to Allah. Mungkin kita kene bawak anak2 kita ziarah these RVD+ve patients to teach them to value life. Dont do drugs, dont do prostitutes, sex rambang and homosexual/bisexual relationship.tolong la jangan. sedih melihat. let us learn from their mistakes and lets not do the same mistakes, can we? Kita ada Tuhan, Jadikan Dia sebagai tujuan hidup so that our lives will be more meaningful and be blessed, with Allah's will. ameen.

thats enuff for today.till then. ciao

series of unfortunate events

How would u feel, if u're getting news of people around you have passed away? undescribable. This i may call my series of unfortunate events. I thought, what the heck since i'm now working in a hospital, and u know how fast things go in hospitals. Today they are ok, the next day, they're gone. But nope, it didnt help me, not a bit. to start off with, my old friend, Fadil died in mid August. he succumbed to his injuries after a road accident. the news came like a thunder. I thought he was already getting better, thus i postponed my visit to the hospital. what a shame. He died the next day. Shame. shame. I wished i had visited him. and thats only a wish.

With Fadil no longer alive, and me consistently monitored my friend [the gf] i know she is going through a rough time trying to get used to the fact that Fadil is no longer here, made it even harder for me to come to a realisation that he's gone. sometimes, after reading what she sent to his f*riendster, i thought he is still alive and well.. Just as i was about to come out of it, i received a news from my cousin that my aunt is very ill. Didnt want to take the chance of not getting to see her incase if she died, i went to see her. with Him of course. She died the next morning. that was early thursday morning. And on sunday morning, i was awakened by my mother, telling me that our neighbour from our previous home, the son died in an accident. and he was my age. sedihkan?

tu tak kira lagi patients ICU. i am now supplying meds for ICU patients. Its just sad. I wish u people well, and i'll always make d'ua to Allah, that He'll grant us good health and let us enjoy the days remembering Him, praying to Him, and enjoy the company of our loved ones. insyaAllah.

I wish Hasrul bin Rashid (a patient in the ICU) well. May Allah help u and bless you. May Allah bless us all. amiin..

Count your blessings, before its too late

remember my last post about my late bestfriend, Arwah Asiyah? Today, another friend of mine passed away. It got me stunned in disbelief for a moment. A friend informed me about the accident sometime in june, and it got me wondering why is he still not recovering after 1 month in the hospital. It turned out that, he had many complications due to the accident.

When i received the news, i didnt know how to respond. to cry or to not cry. The news came like the wind. it just went, but u can feel the breeze. I cried abit in disbelief, teringatkan arwah asiyah and remembering how much he loved her, and now, he will be joining her. I can say that i was emotionally confused. I called Joe up immediately, told him the news. We were just trying to set-off after a commotion [which i irresponsibly started]. Poor him. But i was grateful, that he would still listen and gave words of comfort. that was what i needed.

Rang up a few friends of mine, broke the news to some who have yet to be notified of the death of our friend. All that i received was, 'hah?!' 'yeke?'. After all the phone calls, i wondered to myself, it could've happened to anyone, to me, to my loved ones. How will i handle the emotional stress when i couldnt even control myself from not being jealous. erkk? I quickly made my prayers to Allah, the Almighty. part of it was, 'panjangkanlah umur ku and the ones i love, dan dekatkanlah kami dgnMu. Pls forgive the sins of those yang telah meninggal...' Owh, Allah.. The Greatest, i am indeed so grateful that i still have my loved ones with me who loves me dearly. Owh Allah the Greatest'. Maybe i took Joe for granted all this while. Hurt his feelings, many times. But i truly love him, and i am so grateful. so grateful, to have him, My family, friends who loves me, and everything that i have today. syukur syukur syukur.

i should do this more often, i believe. I am still grieving, teringat2 arwah asiyah. But i believe, These are what has been written, and yang Maha Mengetahui is Allah. i'll make du'a that Arwah will be at peace in the hereafter... Al-Fatihah..

Home at Last!

And so, for your information, i am HOME!! at last! I am so happy to be home. I have definitely missed out on alot of important events during my stay in Manchester. I am so so so happy to see Him, again after a good two months of not seeing each other [mujur la teknologi canggih]. I missed my mom, my dad, my 'budak kecik', kakak and my one and only brother. Despite that, i'm starting to miss my other sister, the one in Manchester [I miss u already!]. Okay-okay.

Just so u know, I travelled by E*mirates, and it was just a bad experience this time. We arrived at the Manchester Airport fairly, 2 hours before the scheduled take-off time. As soon as i stepped in into the airport, MY FREAKING ****!! the queue was terribly long! Just to make sure that i was in the right queue, i asked someone in the middle part of the queue. Kejiii!! Apehal la e*mirates ni? apesal service teruk sangat! Dahla kat Manchester airport! I was certain it's a full flight, and all the maks and paks a*rab with their very2 big and many luggages, 'owh God, boleh ke bag2 aku nak masuk ni?!' i said to myself. 10 minutes before i reached the check in counter, it was already 45 minutes to take-off. i knew we were running late. but i kept praying that they would delay the flight. Finally it was my turn. I kindly asked the guy to put me together with my grandmother. what do u expect. thats the reason me being there, to accompany her. And then the DRAMA began...

the guy: How many hand luggages do u have miss?
me: Three all together. I had a handbag, a laptop bag, and my grandmothers handbag.
the guy: Ok, i want to weigh ur hand-luggage now.
me: hah? ok. (nenek ku dah berlari mengambil bagnye) excuse me, my gmother went to take her bag.
the guy: Its okay maam..[He saw her walking swiftly towards us and the same time, lifting the bag up in the air.] now, would u mind putting ur luggages here.

my brother in-law helped me with the bags. It was bloody heavy! i had 3 luggages with me. and i know it is going to be overweight.

the guy: Look, ur luggage is overweight by 7kgs. But u have to check in quickly. so, I suggest that u remove some of ur things from the bag, and leave it here with ur family or pay. Decide now, quickly! there are other passangers waiting to be checked-in..
me: WHAT?!! How much do i need to pay?
the guy: its 37P per kg maam, and for 7kg is 300P (that bit of info, mcm angin lalu je)

****! i was panicking! my sister called for my uncle, but obviously he was not much of help for that situation. dalam hati aku, Him, being a frequent traveller he should have known the trick. 'we cant pay 300P, its just too much! xleh nak buat ape, keluarkan je la ur barang2' he said, instead. i was already sweating the shit out of me, and cursing everyone [dalam diam]. okay. i carry two luggages with me. i bag, filled with clothes, the other is penuh dgn hadiah2. my nenek pulak terus attack buku Harry Potter [i bought two of it]. marah dah ni! those are for the 'budak kecik' and her friend! mcm la barang aku je kan yg ada dlm tu. Kalau die xtumpang beg tu, leh la nak sindir2. hisssh! Marah dah nih!! pastu my uncle said, ha, remove the chocolates from ur luggage. mind u, i bought chocs worth of 10P. kecewa!!!! those are mainly for my dad! and then, i removed the bedsheets and other stuff from the bag as well. so fine. we hoped that that was 7kgs worth of barang2. Then, i went to another counter, nak check in balek la ni! the lady there was very2 kind. She weighed all the luggages, and to our surprise..

the lady: miss, it's 61kilo only. u can carry more if u want to!
me: haa??!! WHAT! those things i removed cant be 7kg.
my sis: so which one do u want to take home first?!
me: i want the bedsheets. [hatiku teramat sedih ni]
the lady: okay, the plane is leaving in 20minutes, so u have to run.
me: what! [hish, mcm tu je la perkataan yg aku tau] okay. thanks for ur help.

Salam2 my sister in a rush, i cried. xterhingin nak salam him and her. hahaha. but i did. and xsempat nak say thanks to my brother in-law. but i have a card for them. sedih sangat! i miss my sister already! okay. sampai security check, the queue was long. there were easily 15 people in front of me! i peeped at their tix, and owh, not going on emirates, so i asked them if i could make my way first. then the security guy stopped me. miss, only one handluggage is allowed. i said to him, My flight leaves in 15 minutes! tp, sumbat jugakla my handbag in the laptop bag. then, we had to wait. bloody hell! lembab gile buat kerja!aku nak balek la!! aaaah, as soon as we passed security check, RUN! RUN! my grandmother had to take off her shoes. sian die. and after that, things went better.

Stupid la e*mirates. Dahla inflight entertainment rosak. Lauk hari tu wek! xsedap! service macam bangang!! sian chocolates tu! Bila dah tenang tu, i started recalling back what happened earlier. i remembered him weighing my laptop bag, and my laptop is a 3.5kg laptop. BODO!! he weighed my laptop!!!so,sebenarnye, xla 7kg overweight and i could have just stuffed in the chocs in my laptop bag!and carry as handluggage. ^&%)%^#%%*&! i started swearing and cursing to that guy! Esok ko jadi KATAK!!! benci nye! and my sis says that its not worth it if she post the chocs home. so, tataula, pass la kat sedara mara mana yang nak balek nanti. kecewa. bodo lah E*mirates. kalau dah a**b tu, a**b jugakla. macam la hebat sangat! aaaaah!! oppression!! i should have told the guy 'look, i am late because ur system is so stupid! it took you a fucking 4 hours to let us all in! and now u want to put the blame on me? and create all this unnecessary problem! u had 5 counters running, and yet your service sucks!' ini setelah menyedari diri ini diperlakukan!!:(

okay, i need to go to bed. Jetlag still. but, it feels so good to be home!jeds, I miss u! it wasnt our day. and hari ni, i can accept it. okla.nak tdo.ciao!

Old Trafford!

Take me home, United Road
to the place, i belong
To Old Trafford, to see United
Take me home, United Road

So i am so excited to tell you about my very-very first Manchester United match. i know i sound a bit poyo.say whatever u like, but it was really an amazing experience for me, really. My brother in-law took me to the stadium. We went there twice on the same day, Ist August 2007. early morning, to be the first thousands to get the latest home kit. for him :).. That'll last him for two seasons, i'm glad. bought some souvenirs for myself and a friend. then we went back to hulme for lunch. By 530 pm, we were ready to get our butts into Old trafford stadium. So many people, some of whom we've met came all the way from birmingham, and i am sure many came from all over the country. I was so excited that i giggled alone, and jerit2 sorang2 in the car. My brother in-law being a liverpool fan, wasnt really amused but i know he was as excited as i was, secretly. hahaha. by the time we arrived at Old trafford, tarffic was terrible. Mujur ada policemen (in hot leather pants,yaww) to guide the traffic, it took us 1 bloody hour just to get to the parking, then it was 7pm and we had to pay a freaking 10P for the parking tickets!! Shoosssh!!! But it was just soo good.

Glory-glory Man United!
Glory-glory Man United!
Glory-glory Man United!
As the Reds go Marching ON! ON! ON!

traffic congestion on the way to the car park.
Fans walking towards the stadium.

When i got out of the car, i was so overwhelmed. adults, elderlies, childrens and babies mostly clad in the new home-kit can be seen everywhere. Just too many of 'em! Met a few malaysians there. i wore his New jersey. I had too! but he gave me all clear to 'rasmikan' his new jersey. There was still an hour before the game begins, so i heret my brother in-law to go see what the locals have to offer. Byk k! Man U scarves, man u emblem pins and many2 more. I just didnt have enough money to buy 'em. managed to get 3 man u pins for ourselves. that thing costed me a bloody 2.50P each!! Siap ada episode berebut the emblem pin dgn this mat-saleh. He wanted the one that i bought and that was the last piece. haha.. sorry dudes!

This is before the game begins. Just look at the crowd!

By 7.30pm we started to make our way into the stadium. and when i stood facing the field, i was just so overwhelmed and excited. I wish you were there with me. I know it would be more meaningful for you, and for us. The field, was so beautiful. Very green and very-very well maintained. And i could see players from both teams on the field. kicking some balls, running here and there, warming up. I had to take pictures for him. I know he'll love it so much! i could see Rooney, Christiano Ronaldo, Ryan Giggs, Ferdinand, Van der Sar on the field. yang lain tu, xfamiliar mula2. At approximately 7.45 pm, the show began. It started off with the song *we are the champion, sung by two singers from New Zealand. It was superb! i went goosebumps, Yela, Inter Milan won the Siera A league and Man U won the EPL. Pastu they pasang lagu Take me Home United Road and Glory Glory Man United. Those around me menyanyi dgn semangat. If u were there, i am so sure you would sing ur heart out darling. U were constantly on my mind. muaaaah!!!

warming up session

Rooney! rooney!!

At 8 pm sharp, the game began! fuh. the rest of the Man U players were, Vidic, Wes Brown, Michael carrick, Chris Eagles, Evra, Oshea. Rooney scored the first goal at 15th minute. All of us stood up and jumped in joy!! and then they started singing Glory2 man Utd followed by united cheers. When the camera focused at Rooney, everyone screamed Rooney!rooney!rooney!. Just 10 minutes after the Man U scored, Ibramovic pushed Evra down! Kejii!! and man U players sort of lose their focus on the game because the ref refused to stop the game and then Inter Milan scored their first goal. S**l punye ref!! 10 minutes later, they scored another one!! Damn! haih!! Shortly before the end of first half, Inter Milan scored yet again,their 3rd goal, just like how they scored their first goal. ref!! lu siutss!!! Hurmm. Italians are soo super-opportunist! Kejiii!!! by end of first half, the score was ManU 1- InterMilan 3.

Just before the game starts

clap! clap! clap!

Throw in for United! Thats Giggsy!

at half time, this singer, *cortez sang an opera song, the famous *Nessun Dorma, and it was just lovely. 15 minutes later, the players got back onto the field. and the game started. This time, Christiano Ronaldo's free kick was deflected into the goal by InterMilan's players. and so we scored the second goal. I really hoped that Man U would recover back from the 1 goal difference. and perhaps and equalizer so that there would be a penalty shoot out. However, they didnt managed to do it. aaawww.. kecewaa.. but it was good though. my sister wasnt so well, that at first we thought of heading home straight. But just imagine, 73,000 people turned up at the stadium, the roads would be so badly congested. I remembered reading this girl's blog, saying that they waited outside the south entrance (where the players come out) to get for their signatures. Waited and waited, Inter Milan Players were immediately directed to their busses. xsempat nak mintak signature. byk security guards and we had to stand behind barriers. i had to squeeze myself in between those matsallehs!! dahla besar, busuk pulak tu! then from afar, i could see rooney, ryan giggs, Ronaldo. tp diorg xnak sign. Fine! pastu mase tu tomasz Kuzsczak tgh busy sign2! so i screamed! Please sign mu tickets!tp, xdpt.sedih sangat. but seb baik my brother in-law pergi dapatkan his signature for me. Then there was Anderson. owh. yang ni maximum jerit!! He came so near.depan je!and he's cute. I got his signature!! :D then came nani, and chris ronaldo, they all masuk into his car. Fletcher pon ada, ferdinand, and oshea was the last. so, xsempat nk dpt their signatures. dpt 2 pon jadi la. happy enuff. that will definitely make him soo much happy..

Tomasz Kuszczak,hmm.where are the others??

went home feeling contented. i hope that i could come here again, i want to take him with me. and take him to see a match. before we start having children. And tomorrow, i'll be on my way home. i just cant wait to see him!i really cant wait!! oklah. i've run out of ideas. ciao!!

dikala bosan

i have been here for almost 2 months, and i just cant wait to go home. i really do. I've learned so many things here. macam2, and i've been through all sorts of experience,throughout my stay here. Apart from the heart-wrecking experiences which i dont wish to remember, there are other things that did brought me to smile, and feel happy. I enjoy the bus rides to the city centre and to Traf*ford Centre. i mean, i dont ride buses back in Malaysia, coz i have a car. so, i do enjoy it here. I am sure, it would be very much the same in Malaysia. I know that they've improved the bus system. Good. Sometimes, i would missed the service and ended up waiting for another half hour. When i'm just inpatient enough, i'd just try other services and make sure i would get to the destination . usually, its faster that way. Other than that, someone will drive for me. The road system here is different than in Malaysia. Memangla diorg lagi curteous. that is without a doubt.

ok, so other than that, i cook like almost every single day. I repeat, every single day. i've never really cook, as in real meal. i do la spaghetti (shadap! at least i know how to), gulai udang, chicken curry, sup ayam. yg lain2 tu, i;ve never tried it before, so buat la ayam/dgg masak merah, masak paprik la. and buat sup daging. fuiyooo! as well as gulai daging salai! achievement! never tried it before, but of course i know how it is being done la. mmg, boost my confidence in cooking. Pastu, i've always wanted to try to decorate cupcakes, but i just couldnt find the correct icing recipe. So, one day, went to a bookstore, and i found this baking book for childrens party, and gua ape lagi, cikun la recipe. secare terang-terangan.xpe.kat sini, membaca buku di kedai adalah legal, apetah lagi nak mengcikun recipe. jadi, i tried it and owh, it tasted so good, manis,tp x la sampai kencing manis. sedap! haha.puas hati! Owh2, karipap jugak!! semangat betul!!

oklah,dah bosan.
ciao

Aimi

this is a birthday entry for my dear dear friend, Aimi. She is a very special friend to me. And i love her very much. My dad used to tell me "Your true friends are those from school days, sebab mase tu masing2 kecik and the freindship is pure, dah besar2 ni, masing-masing ada kepentingan sendiri. and i dont make a good friend myself. I'm more a family person. I think so. ahaks. But she was the one who has always been there when i needed someone. She has always listened to whatever that i feel like babbling, during happy moments and even sad moments. Even this blog, i think she has never failed to update herself with whatever that i feel like telling (okla, sbb die je yang tau pon :p). And i am so grateful to have her as my friend. And despite me being the lousy friend as always, i will not forget to wish her on her birthday, so i'm going to do it right now, coz i know she'll be reading it.

Yang, i dont do this to any other friend, but you. Thank you so much for all the memories we had, thank you for all the kindness you've offered to me, and thank you for being such a wonderful2 friend. I miss you so much.

May Allah bless you with many happy returns of the day. I hope u will get married cepat2, have babies cepat2, and happy always. ahaks, :p. and i hope that whatever comes in between us, be it distance, husbands, (bfs have failed to keep us apart la kan?) we will always remain as we are. *maybe kite leh match make kan anak2 kite pulak..(overla kan?) hahah.

Happy 23rd Birthday Aimi


lots of loves,

Jane.ahaks

If it makes you happy..

its been awhile since i last felt happy. i am happy only when i'm with my sister n her husband. I so love their company. and when i go out to town/go out of the house, even for a walk to a nearby shop to get milk. i'll be miserable immediately when i'm back at the house. Just dont ask me why. However, today was different. Its the little boy's birthday party. there were easily 50 people in the house (not including us, the host). and everyone did have a good time. I myself, felt so much happy. at least i get to meet people. Suddenly, the crave to laugh with someone else, and not them.

they are the over-stayed malaysian doctors, architects, engineers and they are doing really well here. with their children, all speaking london ok! berabuk! ahaks. but they are just a bunch of very nice people. so, since there were about 15 family who came, the little boy received 15 bday presents.owh how lucky. all the best toys a child would want. Malangnya, masa aku kecik, mane ada erti bday2 party ni. Of course we celebrate bdays, but its just amongst us, family members. Maka, hadiah pon satu sahaja. obviously from my parents la kan. and that only happens in like, once in, i dunno, probably 3-4 years. So this boy is a lucky boy. And then, i realized that, memangla best kan party-tarty ni, nak2 kat sini. u dont have ur family here. adik beradik semua kat malaysia. pastu, all that u have is your small family and friends from the uni days. or after that, which ever la kan. sebab tu la semua org happy2. *dah tu semuaorg sebaya kan? cuba kalau buat kat malaysia, mana ada 50 orang. kawan atuk nenek lagi, kawan mak, kawan bapak, u know those kinda things. hmmm..*tatau la ape yg aku bebel. tp, aku teringin nak bebel.
And i am so freaking tired! i love the kids, wpon diorg buat aku berang *kadang2 coz i caught the whole brood, jumping on the bed, MY BED!! tp, they are kids. Kalau aku dulu pon aku buat jugak, tp gerenti kene piat telinga. The day wasnt very kind to us. It rained in the afternoon, and windy so it was pretty cold. so kanak2 riang girang tu HAD to play indoor, instead of outdoor. tp, xpe. i liked it. I know i wont get these often. So it was good, wpon all the good things wont last that long though. there were some episodes of *kesakitan hati. Tapi, the day was very much better than the days before this. owh so very much better! Owh2! i know why. sbb, org xorg gaji kan aku! ahahahaha. aku syukur sangat. wpon the kemas bit was hell. Sampah ya rabbii!!! seb baik dalam rumah je, imagine kalau kat luar! sure esok kene rake the garden,damn!!so,it was good. Good good good.

So, since i did most of the cleaning up, i am so freaking sure that i'll have to do the rest esok. Sampah, sape nak buang?! Nanti busuk. Aku suruh buang tadi degil. ergh, BBQ set, canopy, sape nak dismantle? erk?me?! *gulp. hahahaha. aku pon nak berkira laaa kan? eh, dah la. ni ada gamba kanak2 riang girang bermain games. Aksi yg sungguh melucukan.. aku sungguh gembira.

listening to the instruction on how to play the game
focus kids, focus!

shake your booty!!
kecik2 dah pandai joget mcm org tua!
nasib baik joget dan melompat, that makes u
a kid, still. pheeewwwh!

hurry up!pass the box over to me, quicklY!!

budak-budak tido?whatt!!
ini bday party,kenape kene tido?!
sebab korg tu memekak sangat!hahahaha!
semua kene tipu!bagus2!
Pssst psssst*they though it was a game.hihi

okay la.i'm tired, i need to get some sleep.
ciao.

Muhasabah

wow, i've just read this blog. It is where all the articles written by dr. Asri. Mufti Perlis. and i've backlogged for six months. Personally, i like the way he delivers the message, it is very clear and because he relates it to Our (malaysians) lifestyle, mindset, and that have made it even clearer. Rase mcm nak copy paste one article. Tapi he didnot only discuss about one problem, but as u go along, u'll realize that everything is related, in many2 ways. For example, he mentioned about single moms, yg amek hormone pills to breastfeed the adopted child. he said, there is no problem with that, but we have to investigate why, org dh xnak kawen, have their own children. Thats where he relates the problem. Masalah in family institution, *hak wanita (as according to Islam, not the feminist) xdijaga, mahkamah syariah tidak efektif, masalah kemunduran dalam pemikiran Islam dikalangan masyarakat. fuiyooo.

The thing is, Dr. Asri dah menyediakan kita semua, a medium, memudahkan kite. sometimes, we do not realize until someone hits us on our back. So practically, that is what Dr. Asri is doing, and what we have to do is, Jangan cepat melatah. We must want to learn. mencari ilmu. Ilmu agama to be exact. I mean, this is obviously for myself as well, a reminder. the message that Dr. Asri is trying to convey is, Islam is not rigid, not difficult to practice, and definitely not backwards. If only we know how beautiful Islam is. hmmm. what we have to do is, we have to open up our hearts and mind. and Mintak doa to the Almighty that He will mudahkan ilmu untuk kita semua, dan tunjukkan kepada kita semua, jalan yg benar. InsyaAllah.

wow, please go here if u want to read more. please do.
toodloo.

Demam already

they wanted to visit their friend in sheffield, but it was merely to get the feel of their new audi a3. yeah. cun gile.i like the car too. but i really didnt feel like wanting to join them to sheffield. i am feeling abit under the weather. ermm.. low grade temperature, muscle aches, chesty cough and sore throat. and i dont want to go to their friend's place and terpaksa terbaring on the sofa just because i'm not feeling well. so, eventually i was alone. luckily, it gets dark around 930. and they were already home. so, xdela cuak sangat.

btw, rumah ni dah tua. it is a 200+ years old house. So, u can expect la all the scary bits, once a while. u do get things like, the baby cuz just went 'my friend is downstairs.. my friend is old' hahaha. it does sound scaaaryy.. tp, so far, xdela lagi kejadian2 yg tidak di ingini. ahaks. anyways, i'm 20 days away from going home. lepas tu, owh, i just cant wait.

okla,i've to rest.
ciao.

keberjangkitan kuman

budak kecik tu demam, and now, i have sore throat. tidak ku suka!! kalau aku sok-sek lepas ni, nasiblah kamu-kamu yg ada dekat dengan aku. pasti akan turut berjangkit

Which group do you think you belong to?

i received this article from a good friend. :) And i think it is a good piece of article. terdiam sendiri membaca. Mesti mencari lebih ilmu dan du'a agar tidak tergolong dalam mana-mana golongan yang terlupa.. ameeeen..

There are 1) the women who wear Hijab out of conviction that it is the Islamic thing to do. Then there are 2) the women who wear it only because their mothers and grandmothers wore it; unaware of its true Islamic significance. The third group, 3) the non-Muslim feminists, rally against anything that covers up even one inch of the female form, but we already expected this from them. And finally, 4) there are the secular "Muslim" women, who almost never practice Islam anyway, but who have Muslim names and roots, who make it a point to appear at all Muslim gatherings with hair fashionably styled in full public glory.

i wish i could write more..but i think the article would suffice. i wish you all the best, and baca lah dengan hati yang terbuka.

Masih Aku Terasa

Akan ku simpan
kenangan cinta kita
yang tak akan terpadam selamanya

Kehangatan cintamu
masih aku terasa
seperti baru semalam kita berpisah

Masih aku terasa:Gersang

I miss home so much. the food, the weather, everything. it was a good thing he transferred loads of songs malay and english into my laptop before i left. So listening to malay songs, makes me feel so much closer to home. The thing is, i crave for songs from early 90's era. the likes of gersang, lefthanded, wings, blackrose, damasutra. and its on repeat on my laptop. But this particular song here, reminds me of my late friend, a bestfriend she was to me. Asiyah Hananah. *:(

She passed away when she was only 2 months away from her 17th birthday in a car accident. Sedih pulak. Allah lend her to me as a bestfriend, for just a year. I'm glad enuff for the short time given to enjoy her company. owh,i miss her so much, still. owh back to my story. during our school days, we always right messages to each other, eventhough we meet like every other time. *we werent in the same class, but of course we hanged out together alot. buat perkara jenayah bersama-sama, dgn jaja,atam,zilad. One fine day, she handed me a msg. very nicely folded, neatly written with pencil. inside it, the lyrics that i put up. Mase tu terlupe betapa bestnye lagu gersang tu. so she sort of like ingatkan balek the song to me. and we nyanyi like all the time, and thats how it kept playing on my mind.

a few months later, i lost her in a car accident. it's terrible to lose someone whom u've been very much attached to. and the rest of the gang was with her *they survived, and were given a month rest. i was alone, and it was just terrible. i cried most of the time, in class, when i wake up in the morning *coz i had to pass by her dorm where i usually stopped by before having bath. And especially when i listen to this song. And now, i still miss her. so much. its been 6 years already. Asiyah, i know that u're in good hands of Allah, and u're always in my heart.

okay, i'm crying now. rinduuu..

susah senang dikongsi bersama

i need more garden therapy
the heart-ache is really eating me out
if i dont stand up,
i know i'll crumble down
crumble down really bad!

More garden therapy please oh please!