Baby Steps

 Hamza Jatuh Katil... LAGI! :(

Yes and i am not kidding. It was an incredible week for all of us, including Hamza. He fell off the bed, AGAIN (yeah, i know what's on your mind already but let me just finish this off) and this time, i panicked. He was asleep when i left him. thing is, the bed is only some 5 steps away from the dining table (room is right next to the dry kitchen) I dah kepung-kepung him with bantal, although i know it wasn't enough. And yes, I underestimated him. I thought he'd sleep longer. I was dead wrong. I even left the door ajar. Unfortunately.. :( And then, 'the cry'! My mother was 'Hamza jatuh katil!!! Oh no!!' true enough, I found him on the floor and crying in pain. Worse, his nose was bleeding. It didn't bled out, but you could see that there were blood in his nostrils. I panicked! *seb baik husband tenang sikit. We just had to take him to hospital. We brought some ice to cold compress the nose. Alhamdulillah, Hamza is fine. We took him home.

 By the time we reached home, He was already feeling and cheerful and excited. I was traumatised! I don't dare to put him on the bed. So i put him in the cot. Much to our surprise, Hamza started to stand in his cot. Sila rujuk 3 gambar terakhir dalam previous entry. Ye, dia baru baik dari jatuh katil. And, he just refused to sit. Ada incidents dia terhantuk hidung kat cot. Hmmm. But we couldn't do much. We could only observe him, because he was just so determined and excited. All of these happened just 3 days before he turned 7 months. Alhamdulillah.

My little baby is a big boy and very determined, i can see. Since that day, whenever i put him in his cot, he'd reach out for the side of the cot and pull himself up. He'd play with his reflections in the mirror, talk to his reflections, laugh a bit and when he's tired, he'd make small cries. Mintak tolong make him sit/ carry him. Clever. When i pray, i'll put him on the floor right next to me. A few days ago, he would just sit and kadang-kadang pegang my telekung. Now? He's found joy in making a mess. He'd pull his toy basket or worse, he'd pull out all his creams and botol minyak out of its bakul. And to date, he's polished up his crawling skills. Ye sudah LAJU!!! and best of all, He can already go round his cot (meniti). My mother says, he'll make small cries when he's tired and wants to sit or when he couldn't get something (e.g. bila ada bantal/ comforter dah bergulung and dia xboleh crawl) But whenever he was able to overcome the problems, he'd smile gleefully and cheer for himself. Amazing. My son. Other than that, he has also started to express his likes and dislikes and wants. And he too understands us. *susah nak explain disini.  Buat-buat je la faham ye? :)

Yes, of course i am happy with Hamza's incredible developments. Everyday, i'd gloom for having to leave Hamza for work. I wish i can be there for him all the time. Tapi, this is life. And I thank Allah for all the blessings. I so enjoy being a mommy! Walau begitu, I believe that lain babies, lain personality and lain development. For Hamza's case, He has 2 other cousins of the same age. Ye, Hammam and Ameer Muadz. And Alhamdulillah, the family tidak membezakan any of them. We enjoy them infact. I love to share mummy-baby experiences with my sisters. And i hope, when Hamza and his cousins (mama's and baba's side) dah besar, they'll love each other just like brothers and sisters. 

Okay, till then. Toodles.

 

 Smile baby!

 My little Imam?

Hamza's amazing progress

Hamza, our son started to turn (with confidence) only when he was 4 1/2 months. Still, he wasn't so comfortable lying on his tummy for long. Then, he learned to turn back to lying-on-his-back position. Alhamdulillah. I was happy to see his physical developements. On top of that, he can properly focus and grab anything in his way. He loves the TV remotes. huhu

At 5 1/2 months, he can flip/turn easily and has started to pull himself forward. *engsot-engsot je.. My husband came home saying that his colleagues daughter has started to crawl. Sometimes it hit me, slow ke anak aku? But, we decided not to push Hamza too hard just because anak orang lain dah boleh crawl. We should encourage him instead and we did.  When he was about to turn 6 months, he started to i shall say.. be in a crawling position. dia goyang kedepan kebelekang sikit.. laugh abit and do it again. He could also stabilize himself to properly sit. 

 

Hamza, duduk dengan jaya :)

2 week later, He tried to bring himself to sit from his crawling position. And he managed to achieve that too! Owh, alhamdulillah. My baby is a big boy now. He grows so fast! :) 6 months 3rd week, Hamza started to crawl. Dapatla setapak dua. he flips faster now and he loves to play!

 

crawl baby..

Today, 1 week before turning 7 months, he started to stand!! in his cot!! started out with him standing on his knees.. calling out for mama and baba. hehehe..

 

 on his knees

And then,this!

struggling hard!

5 minutes later!

dah berdiri!!

Aih, i love being a mommy!! i love to see Hamza grow. :) Now that he's alot more mobile, i really have to make sure that he's safe all the time. I love my little family! Thank you Allah!

Speechless

Langkawi..

.. a blast!

Hamza's first swim

Hamza loves his bathing time so much. When he was smaller (and shorter in length, hehe), we bathe him in his tub. We bought him a recliner, and that made it alot easier for both, Hamza and us. Basically, he'll just relax away and enjoy his bath. His feet and hands'd go spleesh! splash! He'll kick the foams and he'll eat 'em. So, during the Christmas Hols, the family gathered in PD. We took the chance to take Hamza for his first swim. My sister pulak, gave him 3 swimming nappy! aaaah, Syukuuuur. *kang xpasal-pasal poo dalam pool kang. eeeww. We bought him a float, tapi besar for him since he couldn't sit properly. We still use it despite it being too big for him. 

His Baba put him in his float, and u know, he didn't do much. He didn't paddle/swim. *maybe sebab air sejuk. But, it lasted for 5 minutes only. 5 minutes! His Baba took him out, wrapped him in his towel, and u guessed? He fell asleep almost immediately! hahahahaha.. Hamza, hamza. all his granduncles and grandaunties geram looking at him! The next day, he went swimming with Hammam. Hahahaha. This time, he stayed longer in the pool. Haih. My son, dah besar dah. How time flies.. hmmm..

In my car (float!)

Can we go now? Sejuk!! Bbbrrrr!!

Mama!! Come in and join me and baba!!

More and more Holidays

I have been extremely busy with work. Tak sempat nak update cerita. A lot of things happened this past few weeks. On top of that, we've been traveling a lot lately. Dari PD ke KL and then to Kuantan, back to KL again and then to Terengganu. Now we're back in KL again.

So, where did we actually go?

During the Christmas Holidays, my aunt and uncle rented two apartments at PNB Ilham Resort. *itu la tempat kami sekeluarga melepak. 4 out of 5 families joined the mini-reunion. Atuk and Wan came too. Mak Teh, had to go back to Kelantan because her mother inlaw was ill. Yeah. Plus my little family and my sisters(my brother in-law arrived from UK that very weekend, terus ke PD) 3 Babies altogether!! Everyone enjoyed the babies and the babies LOVE the attention too.  Everyone enjoyed it. The man in the families, played touch-rugby. The women? we cheered for our husbands and sons. The girls? They cheer for everyone.. Err.. kot. Malam-malam, my uncles and cousins berkaraoke dengan sakan. Happy. All of us were happy! Hamza? Mandi swimming pool. huhuhu.. Selesai sudah di Ilham Resort, my uncle brought us to this restaurant (ala, macam kedai mamak) somewhere in PD Town for lunch and we had superb Kari Kepala Ikan! Habis licin okay!!

Nak pass ke mana tu abang?!

  Tangkap Jang!

Yang ni, akan diceritakan dengan lebih lanjut nanti..

The week after, on new year's holidays, we stayed home. Penatla travel jauh kan. My husband spent his New year's eve with my cousin and brother berbelanja di Uptown Kota Damansara. I was sound asleep with Hamza. Saturday morning, we drove back to Kuantan. We went in 3 cars. My mother beria-ia nak bawak my brother in-law and the babies see her hometown, Kuantan. Kuantan for me, memang best. We arrived in Kuantan around 3pm. So, all of us headed straight to Teluk Cempedak. Had lunch, and brought the babies for a dip at the beach. Tak mandi la. But Hamza, Hammam dapat la merasa celup kaki dalam air laut. Anfaal? she sat in the air terus! And loved it! We too love to see her enjoying it. Habis bermandi-mandi, we headed to my aunts house. 5 mins drive from TC. Makan, tido, makan, borak-borak and by 7pm we headed back to Bukit Sekilau. Rehat-rehat. balik KL the next day.

family potrait, Teluk Chempedak

Neyna, I want one.. please!!!

 

Hamza and Neyna

  

 Anfaal yang dah lencun! huhu.

2 weeks later, Anfaal, Hammam and the parents flew back to Manchester. Haiih. Sedih! Anyways, itu la serba sedikit updatesnya. I have more to write. Later la ye? Nak cerita about Hamza's first swimming experience. till then.

Chicken Pox ke Teething?

I just got up some minutes ago. He woke me up several times, and now I just couldn't put myself back to sleep. He is though. I do not hope for this. But i think Hamza is not feeling well. It started off yesterday morning when changing his nappy. I noticed some coarsness in his voice and i think he had a bit of temperature as well. But, i thought that that's normal. Yelaaa, bangun pagi kan? Fed him as usual and left him for work. Since it was a friday, i came home earlier. Saw my mother trying to feed him his porridge. But, again, something was amiss. He didn't look excited like usual duing mealtime. and my mother said he slept for a good 4 hours that morning. Which to me, is a bit unusual and so unlike him. He'll usually sleep for a maximum of 3 hours.

On top of that, he only took 3 1/2 onz of EBM, his baba fed him around 12ish. He usually takes 7 onz of EBM at that time of day PLUS his porridge. I came home with an engorged breasts. On other days, i'd express on oneside and let him feed on the other. But this time, i fed him on both breasts coz he wasn't eating and drinking well. And fell asleep immediately. Weird kan?

Later when i came home from work, I asked my mother and was told that, He woke up at 3.00 pm, after i left for work, and played a bit and had his feed. he took 3 1/2 onz which lasted him for 2 hours and had another 3 1/2 onz before dozing off again at around 5ish. Memang sangatla xbiasa macam tu. Biasa dia bangun when we come home. And u know, I had to wake him up, coz it was already 730 pm and it's past his dinner time as well as bathing time. Dia mandi kol 630. But i managed to feed him and bathe him soon after i woke him up. He did take his porridge. Tapi slow sikit la. 

I am pretty worried. My neice Anfaal was down with chicken pox 2-3 weeks ago. It was difficult for child quarantine. There were only 2 carers for 3 babies. My mother and my sister (the mother). So Hamza is already exposed to that. Hammam is now having pox now. Hmmm. Doa je la. If it comes out, fine. I hope it wouldn't be too bad. Praying for the best. Owh dear. As for now, I couldn't find any spots on his body. Mudah-mudahan takde lah.

hmmmm. Eh, Hamza is up. I need to feed him. Macam ni la rasanya dah jadi mak. Amazing. Thank you Allah. Thank you Allah.

Nursery for Hamza

yes.. I am.. I mean, we'll have to put him at a childcare center or a nursery starting May this year. Reason being, my mother is leaving for Cardiff.. Yes yes.. Again.. This time, it'll be longer. 2 months. My eldest sister needs help for her son. She'll be sitting for her finals sometime in May. And i obviously can't take leave for 2 months. Impossible.

So, i have to start scouting for a nursery or a babysitter to look after Hamza while mama and baba is away at work. So far, i am looking at nurseries. But you see, it is not as easy as that. I've found one in Kota Damansara. CIC. I've called them up. Unfortunately, they no longer offer that service. So, i have to start again.

 help my mama and baba please

Anyone who lives in Kota Damansara? Suggestions? I definitely need help.

Kota Kinabalu

I have never been to Sabah.. ever.. So, during my confinement days, my colleague called up asking me if i want to go to Kota Kinabalu to attend a Conference on Rural Medicine. She told me, another colleague turned down the offer. Only to find out that, the participants will be taken to Kudat on the 3rd day of the conference. I hesitated initially, but after discussing with husband, I said yes. The condition is, I will have to bring husband and Hamza along with me. *No way i'm going to leave my baby (babies) behind. huhuhu..

2 and a half month later, we finally set our foot in Kota Kinabalu. Flight was good. *we flew by MAS. I was quite worried about Hamza. But, Alhamdulillah he was very well-behaved throughout our journey. We stayed in *Courtyard Hotel, 1Borneo. Its a good 30 mins drive from the town. But the good thing about it was, the hotel was just 5 mins drive to and fro UMS. The conference, it was a 3 day conference. No, 2 actually. The third day, UMS took us to their Rurak Medicine Education Center in Kudat. Fuuh, It was an amazing journey for us.

Kudat is only 100++ km from UMS. *according to Husband's GPS. But, it took us 3 and a half hours to reach Kudat! If in KL, it'd only take u what? 45 mins to an hour or so? The road was not so good and small. Sian sangat. But I am not complaining really because Hamza was such an angel! He is such a good boy. He didn't complain at all. They took us to the RMEC for closing ceremony and some prize giving. They fed us lunch and packed us with some food before we left for a few other places after that. Baik sangat. They took us to a Longhouse. It was more or less a demonstration about how they reach to these people in the rural area. Then, they took us to Bavanggazo Cultural Village. We were treated with a traditional dance of the People of Rungus. I bought some 'manik-manik' keychains. The rest were just too expensive. yeah.

Later, we went to the Tip of Borneo. Beautiful. Subhanallah. Its the meeting of two seas, the South China Sea and the Sulu Sea. They said that there's a line. In other words, the two seas does not mix. But we arrived nearing sunset. So I couldn't actually find the 'line'. Husband did. Took some photos, ate some icecreams, and then we headed back to Kota Kinabalu. We were all so exhausted from the journey. But i enjoyed every bit of it. So did Hamza and his baba. It was basically our first Holiday as a three! huhu.

I enjoyed the hospitality of the Sabahans. Very nice and kind. The School of Medicine UMS, they were so kind, to help arrange a van to send me back to the Hotel so that I could feed my son. Baik kan? yes. And best of all, All my love for my dear husband for helping me look after Hamza. Thank you abang for everything. I know, it is both our duty to look after our child. But, he was so positive throughout the conference. And i know he loves his son so much, dia bawak Hamza jalan-jalan. Very attentive and kind and loving. aaaah. And Hamza too. Such a good sport. sikit pon tak berdecit. good boy! Mama and Baba loves you so much!!

Eventhough we didn't get to jalan-jalan in KK, but i am glad we went. Next time, we'll know where to stay and how to get about in KK. We'll definitely come again, kan Abang? huhu.. I have to pen off now. Enjoy the pictures.

Hamza's first flight, waiting with Baba..

At the Hotel.. Hamza rasmi katil besar..

 

Raindeer? Out shopping with Baba to 1Borneo.. mama?

Conference :(

 

 R&R (Kota Marudu)

On the way to Kudat. Stopped by at Kota Marudu

 

Jemur kacang ye kak?

 

Orang-orang Kampung di Sikuati. Showing off their traditional Dance

 

Lajong Longhouse

 

Bavanggazo Cultural Village.

Traditional Dance by the Rungus people.

 

Rantai untuk dijual.

Guess, how much it cost?

 

Family potrait [loves]

Hamza, sangat cooperative.

 

Us.. Again :)

 

At the Tip of Borneo!

Can u see the line?

I can't. But i swear its there.

 

Lama tunggu turn tau!

 

Hamza with Mama.

 

Hamza and Baba in the 1Borneo Rainforest

ala-ala Mini Zoo gitu

 

Ulaaaar!!!!

Okay.. That's about it! Toodles

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

where did you spend your new year's eve? me? i was sound asleep in bed with Hamza. Husband? out for quality time with my brother and our cousin. huhuh. I did wake up to the sounds of fireworks. but, i dozed back to sleep immediately. huhuhu.. New year resolution? hehe.. i'll keep it to myself.

And again.. Happy new year everyone!

Hamza at 5 months

I am on leave today... Why? Hamza had his 5th month immunisation jab yerterday. I will usually stay in incase his temperature shoots up. So, that explains why. But Alhamdulillah, as until now, hamza is as active as ever. No muscle pain at the injection site, and no low-grade fever. Syukur. The previous jab was painful i know because he cried the whole evening, and i couldn't even touch his right leg. Sengal. He'd cry everytime we try to cuddle him, lift him up or when we try to put him down. It's so heart-wrenching. But it lasted for 1 day only. He got better the next day but with a low-grade temperature. Sian anak aku. But i am glad the nurse was more gentle with him this time.

At 5 months 8 days, Hamza now weighs 7.3 kg, and is 70cm long from head to toe. His head circumfeence is 42cm. Basically, he's growing well. Alhamdulillah. And still feeding on my milk. But at 5 months, he drinks 7 onz of EBM. Banyak!! So i've started him on solid. I had  no choice, but he too loves it to bits. I started him with apple puree. Now, we feed him rice [brand nestle tu] during the day. otherwise, it'll be a nightmare for me. Hamza is one baby with huge appetite and huge tummy as well. huhu. [anak baba la katakan]

Owh.. i want to share this incident that took place while i was in the room waiting for the nurse to check on Hamza. My son has a small white patch near the corner of his right eye. So, i requested to see the doctor. the patch looks to me like fungal infection. So yeah, i just wanted to confirm that it is fungal. The nurse took us to the doctor. baik hati dia. then she started the conversation..

nurse: awak kerja hospital bahagian apa?

me: Farmasi.

nurse: ooo. patutla awak tanya pasal anak awak. ubat dah tau la ni.

me: haah. saya nak confirm diagnosis je. 

nurse: awak pegawai kat Fever Center ke?

me: tak. tapi semua pegawai rotate kerja kat fever center. 

nurse: tu la.. ni nak cerita ni. maybe farmasi terlepas pandang kan? [aku dah apehal nurse nih?] 

           kebetulan smalam, doctor sendiri pegi amek ubat dari farmasi. dia datang kat kami tunjuk 

           ubat. doktor kata "tengok!farmasi bagi ubat dah 'expired'! ada ke?" 

me: [terkejut!] ye ke? staff nurse tau ubat apa?

nurse: tak tau pulak ubat apa. tapi memang dah 'expired' pon. doctor sendiri tunjuk kat kami ubat 

           tu. dia tulis 12/09. kan?

me: doctor pulang balik x pada farmasi? mintak ubat baru?

nurse: kami ada offer nak pergi balik pada farmasi. doctor xnak. itu lah. mungkin farmasi terlepas

           pandang atau pon farmasi nak habiskan stok. ye la, ubat batuk kan semua orang makan.

me: eh, xkan la kitorg nak bagi ubat yang dah nak expired. lainkali, pergi bagitau pegawai farmasi 

       tu. Janganla biar je. bagitau, supaya kami tau salah kami.

Bengang kejap! i mean, come on. How could the doctor? Went to the nurses, show to them our mistake and not tell us?! Apa masalah dia? Bagitau je la. Inform. Saje je nak mencari salah orang! I called up the staff incharge immediately and told her. She was definitely shocked to hear about the incident. And when checked, memang dah nak expired. I said to her, memang it is our mistake. negligence i shall call it. But does it hurt to tell us that the drug is nearing to its expiry date? does it? Maybe it does kan? Haiyooo..

On the contrary, after complaining about us not doing our job, she too didn't do hers well. She didn't even ask me about Hamza's development as accoding to the check-up book. All the other nurses asked me except this one. All she did was, gossip [it was more like a gossip than a complaint] and tulis-tulis dalam buku. tak tanya tak apa. aduih haih. 

Oklah, hamza dah menjerit-jerit! Got to go.

New Layout...

... YET AGAIN!

Well, to be honest.. i got bored of the old one. So.. Tadaa!! I like it. I hope you like it too. Plus, I have removed all those unnecessary widgets. kuangkuangkuang... Hurmm.. Now i feel like updating more often. Owh, Thanks to Blogger Templates. They've definitely helped make my life easier.

On a different note, Yeah, we've been travelling almost every weekends, December kan bulan bercuti. My sister and her family came back from the land of the Queen for a 2 months holidays. Then, we went back to visit my In-laws in Terengganu. Last weekend, we went to PD for a  mini gathering with the families from my dad's side. And it was all good. It was a good getaway from work. I'll find time to update on PD and maybe some other stuff. I am quite busy with work, and Hamza being Hamza. So irresistable.

Ok y'all. Till then.

Salam

Lets go to the Zoo

My brother in-law and his family are here in KL. So we thought, why not take them out, Jalan-Jalan in KL. Aquaria, too expensive. So, we've decided to bring Fatihah and Iqbal for a visit to the Zoo. Tengah hari begini. But i am sure the kids are going to enjoy watching the animals. I need to get ready yo!

Updated**

Setelah sekian lama ingin mengupdate our trip to the Zoo, baru la ada masa. Anyways, it was just a short trip. We spent close to 3 hours in the Zoo. It was just so good i tell you. We the adults were definitely more excited than the babies. They are still too young to understand. But hey, its never too soon right? Hamza slept 3 quarter of the trip. Hahaha. Only to wake up when we've done watching the lion roar.. RROAAAR!! huhu.

Zoo Negara is still a good place to bring your kids to. I'd rather bring my child to Zoo than to the mall. *walaupun Mall adalah untuk memuaskan nafsu shopping mama Hamza. kahkah. anyways, anyways.. The entrance fee, the last time i remembered, i paid rm3. Now, we paid RM20 per adults. Bayar je la. Lagipun, kalau yuran murah, how are they going to maintain the Zoo right? We took the Zoo tram coz its a bit too warm to walk. plus the babies, memang xlarat nak berdukung all the time. So yeah, we paid an extra rm3 per adult for the tram around the Zoo.

Other than that, i enjoyed having my brother in-law and his cute little family around, spending some quality time with our children. Plus, his children loves Hamza to bits. hehehe. So yeah, thats just about it. till then.

Lets go to the Zoo.. *sings

The brothers and sons co.

I forgot the seal's name. he's shy by the way
clap*clap*

Melman the giraffe and friends

*'tengok tu.. Zirafah'
Says Aboh to his daughter

Awww.. he's thirsty..

that's our stop

'Hamza.. Look!! tiger!! Raooooo!'
says Baba to Hamza [sleeping]

Where's the tram?? we're tired!

dah nak balik? Hamza baru bangun!!

With the inlaws.
Bye-bye zoo!!

Happy

Alhamdulillah

Hamza was very cooperative with me, his father and his neyna. He was such an easy baby the night i had to leave him. Husband sms-ed me saying that he talked himself to sleep. Cute! He never does that whenever i am around. That's for sure. The whole 10 hour away-from Hamza felt like ages! I kept looking at the clock. Bila la nak pukul 8 pagi ni??!! There were times i felt like driving home to be with my baby. :( I missed my son terribly. I even cried at my husband before i left for work.

By 8 am, i was all ready to go home. Drove home as fast as i could. Aaaah. As i reach home, Hamza was already up and waiting for my return. I think so. My breasts were so engorged that morning. I forgot to take the breastpump with me to work because i was too busy being sad that night before i left for work. I fed Hamza immediately. It couldn't wait. The pain i mean.

I am most glad and grateful to Allah. Syukuur Alhamdulillah. Ya Allah, u can never imagine how worried and sad i was that night. And i know, Hamza is such a good son, and a very patient boy. I am most glad. Upah susu 1 hari. :) 

okla, i need to have some rest.

**on a different note, i'll be working the 5pm-11pm shift tomorrow!! Aaaargh! Hamza, tunggu mama balik ye baby.

Dugaan

I had to work from 5pm-10pm yesterday. Thank you for the superbly-done timetable. Anyways, this is infact my very first time away from Hamza at that time of day. Usually, we'll only be separated from 8am to 5pm. I always make du'a to Allah so that Hamza will always be okay. Kita sentiasa du'a but, Allah knows best and Allah yang menentukan. Hamza refused his bottle. Yet again. He cried for an hour. He refused to be held by his father. Poor husband. Still, all husband said to me was, Hamza is a bit unsettled, but he's alright dear. Mungkin dia xnak merisaukan diri ini.

Husband came to pick me up at 10pm. Hamza was with him, asleep. I quickly took Hamza and fed him. I can see from his face that things were not alright. I asked him, and he told me, He only took close to 2onz. of milk. That's too little for Hamza. Husband said, he only wanted to cuddled. And he'll scream at the sight of his milk bottle.

I didn't know what to do. Owh, sungguh mencabar dugaan yang Allah berikan. Maybe for some, this is a none-issue. Of course breastfeeding is easy. I do not blame breastfeeding. I am sure it is Hamza. He's so not used to not-having me around him, especially during his bedtime. So i guess, that made it worse. I have never done the 10pm-8am shift since i gave birth. Tonight, is my first night away from Hamza. I am worried and worried and so worried and sad on top of that.

There'll be another nightshift in December. Owh Allah, Have mercy on us all. I hope Hamza will take the bottle without any fuss and will fall asleep easily. Baby, mama will come back as soon as i can ya? please behave. Last night, I refused to breastfeed him. I gave him the EBM instead. He gulped it down in just minutes. I guess he was hungry. But, i had to cuddle him for almost an hour to make him sleep. :( We can only work as hard and try as hard as we can. But, it is all Allah Willing. I am indeed hoping for a miracle.

I am not complaining. I am grateful i can breastfeed my son exclusively. and my milk supply has not run dy just yet. Tapi, dalam kesenangan, I am sure ada cabaran and dugaan that we have to endure. Be it me or husband. But, I am not going to give up just yet. I am already considering to... well, maybe its a bit too soon to say it here.

okay. i guess, i shall go now. Quality time with Hamza.

I'm up so early...

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That is my currnt status in my Facebook. It is early. It's 3.10 in the morning. Alhamdulillah, Hamza has just dozed off after his dose of mama's milk. Good. Husband is soo asleep. I am sure after all the struggle...? not struggle, really.. effort and energy put forth looking after Hamza while i'm away at the University. Owh, I forgot. I am now blogging from Kota Kinabalu. I am attending the 2nd ICORM here. It's all good. Sabah is good. We enjoy it. The only thing about going places is the 'damage' it will cause especially to my Wallet. *but is causing some damages to husband's too. xpasal-pasal he brought back two story books..huhuhu..

The hotel we're staying is in the 1 Borneo hypermall. Not exactly In the mall. But it's attached to it. Jadi, ape la lagi? I haven't had the chance to go round the whole mall. Its huge. Something like MV. maybe a little bit smaller. Lots of shops.. and yes. the damages to my wallet . Soon if not now. But you see, it's always more convenient to take Hamza to the mall than to town. Leceh x? babies and panas la, xcomfortable la. But there's always a free shuttle that can take us to town. Its Free, isn't it?

The conference is held at the Main Lecture Hall of UMS. I mean, we're only coming in to Day 2 but as a matter of fact, i do enjoy attending the conference. It's good, it's not common in the place where i practice or work. Of course la kan? This conference is about Rural medicine. So, it's cool. The organizing committee, they are very nice and kind and super helpful. I had to go back to the Hotel to feed Hamza. So, they arranged for me a van to send me back to the Hotel. I am very happy. Plus, the thing about conferences like this, i get to listen to the Free Paper presentations. Some are good, very good infact. and some are just, well.. not so interesting i shall say. well, that's just about it.

Still enjoying Kota Kinabalu. Planning to go sightseeing soon. Okla, dah ter'over' dah nih. I've gotta get some sleep. kena bangun awal.:)

My Dream Kitchen - PART 1

Haih.. I so can't wait to have our own house to live in. It's really thrilling and exciting. The best and scariest part is definitely to furnish the house. Yes. Yes. But it takes a lot of CASH to furnish it. Everybody knows that. Since i am getting a relatively big and spacious kitchen, *and my interest in cooking and baking, of course i want a nice and functional kitchen. We are in no rush to buy things for the house just yet. Biarlah selesai segala proses dengan lawyer dulu, then we'll start thinking of how to furnish the house. But, THIS, i can't help but think about it all the time. *not all the time, but it comes to my mind often, sometimes i feel that i need it NOW! Kronik aku ni..

THIS IS MY DREAM NO.1

A Range Cooker

SMEG Range Cooker

Picture taken from here

Range cooker is what our mothers and grandmothers used to buy. That was before the popular hobs were introduced into the market. It is usually a 5 burner stove that comes with an oven. I think so. Yeah. Tapi the range cooker that i like comes with modern features *bukan macam mak-mak kita pakai dulu ye. And i tell you, i so dream of having it in my kitchen. At the moment, the only place to get these modern range cooker is at this shop in TTDI, BENOVA. But these range cookers are all imported product. The brands that i know of is Smeg. *that's the brand that BENOVA is selling i guess. And i googled for range cookers, i found that electrolux produces range cookers as well. The other brands, i don't think they are available in Malaysia. Range cookers are more popular in europe countries. Yang I tau, in UK. *Coz my aunt has 1 and its so cool, for me at least. 

SMEG Range Cooker

Picture taken from here

Electrolux Range Cooker
Picture taken from rangecookers.co.uk

The ONLY reason to not have it is, PRICE. It is not common in the country, so they couldn't sell it by volume. Maka, harganya pon sangat TINGGI. Anda rasa berapa for the smallest range cooker? a 3ft  *smallest ye range cooker is roughly around RM5000. Mahal, kan? It hit me, perlukah spend terlampau banyak for a 5 burner stove and an oven? Adakah saya akan masak 5 jenis lauk sekali harung? Mungkin tidak. But trust me, Hati ku meronta-ronta inginkan ia. Mungkin kena usaha jual Tupperware dengan lebih jaya, tidak begitu?

The most important thing is, we are still a bit far from moving in into the house. Plus, it is a shared property, *suami juga ada share walaupon saya yang empunya dapur. As for NOW, it will only be a dream/wish. Andai rezeki kami tiada, i am more than happy to use the built-in hob with 3 burner *sempat lagi, kan? Dan, andai rezeki kami ada, apa lagi? i'll be over the moon, the stars, everything! huhu.. Sekian sahaja angan-anganku untuk kali ini. Nanti sambung PART 2 pulak ye?? I want to continue to deam of these HOT range cookers.

Indesit Range Cooker

Picture taken from rangecookers.co.uk

There are more to see. Many more! All sorts of brand and design. *drooolll.. I've attached some links for those who are interested to look at. I hope u'll enjoy as much as i do. :) Have a nice day!