I accidentally...

....CRIED....

What happened ey? We've just finished watching CSI. I was bored and i couldnt sleep.. So i browsed through the channels and.. Ahah! 413 was playing the movie P.S. I love you.. I've watched it once during one of my nightshifts at the ED. I cried throughout. Luckily, i sat near a tissue dispenser. So tissues were reachable.. and there were not so many patients. So, yeah.. this time, i was pretty much excited to watch it AGAIN.. although it was already halfway through.. I thought i could just holdback my tears this time around.. heheh.. tp, i cried again..

I find the movie very-very real. I mean, i couldnt imagine having to lose someone i deeply love. and I believe that moving on with life, after love is not easy. Ramai yang xsuka H.Swank's acting. Just cause she's not that cantik.. But for me, she carried the character soo well, and so effectively. I was so moved watching it. I love the songs in the movie as well!! to bits.. hehehe..

aaaa.. so cute!!!

heart melts..

haih.. harap-harap ada lagi malam ni.. :)

Because I am Still Pregnant.....

...... We just had to attend Mal's wedding in Bluewave Hotel, Shah Alam.. Organized by the husband's family. it was a beautiful wedding. they looked sooo good!! Pelamin sangat cantik! thing is, i missed their wedding in Ipoh. So i can't miss this for the world eh babe??! Thanks so much for inviting us. Alhamdulillah, i am much better this weekend.. *Bila baby nak kuar ni?? Again, the photos are all courtesy of kak fadh the owh-so-kind-but-super-good photographer!!! To Mal n husband, again.. CONGRATULATIONS!! selamat berangkat to AZERBAIJAN! :)

sebelum upacara merenjis.. :)

freestyle-0! I seriously didnt know what to do..
hehehehhe.. *skema

yes.. This i know i do best.. kuikuikui!!

The function ended 2-ish. After the photography session, went back home straight. Husband had a rugby game that he too couldnt and wouldnt want to miss it for the world. I thought of accompanying him at first. But, with this huge tummy of mine.. i had to kiss him bye-bye instead.. Penat!!! So, that was it..

Kebosanan Melanda..

Hari ni tak kerja.. Viral Fever. I am worried about the little one inside of me more than my ownself. Thus, the staying at home. Husband is off to work. I said to him, i 'll call him if i feel like giving birth. huhuhu.. Sayang suamiku..

No stories to share today.. But, i do wanna share some pics from our babymoon in the UK. Enjoy.

husband, bergambar dengan seorang pakcik yang tidak dikenali, tetapi tak kisah gambarnya diambil. This is in Manchester, city center.

His dreams!! He will never accept NO for an aswer especially when Old Trafford is within his reach! Shopping at the MAN U Megastore.

Train ride to Cardiff, from Manchester.

Cardiff Bay..
Apparently, semua orang ada gambar kat sini..
Mum and Dad, Jeds and Fawwaz, Kakak and A. Imran.. hihih..

Sekembalinya kami ke Manchester, kami telah memborong barang-barang di sini..

Ini adalah Arndale! Saya suka ke sini..

And we made another stop by at the Old Trafford, again coz husband wanted to get some more things from the Megastore. Thus this picture was taken.

(I love you!)

My brother in-law got themselves tix to watch ManU play against Portsmouth!
Husband was soo over the moon!! I am sure he is.

At The Old Trafford Stadium!
Just before kick-off. husband in the stadium!

xbest rasanya if we didnt stop by at the Manchester City Stadium..
their megastore..

The Last Day in the Land Of the Queen

Greenwich,
London

Cantik sungguh.

On the way up to the Observatory Center, Greenwich.

It was cold at first

Finally there.. the day became alot better!

which side are you on darling? East or West?

Kuala Lumpur

The Real Time? Greenwich Time

Bye-bye Greenwich! See you again next time.

down in the Valley already.. :(

A Visit to the Rival

On our way there..

One of our last Tube rides, this time around..
annnndddd.....

Here we are..
Stamford Bridge Stadium, Chelsea..

saje suka-suka..

Apa yang dibisikkan tu, abang??!


Finally, Goodbye England..

Till we meet again, InsyaAllah..

okay yo.. That's all about our trip. Well, yang rajin untuk dipostlah definitely. Banyak juga places we went. toodles

Over the Weekend

Di kesempatan ini (ecewaaaah)... We would like to congratulate Mal and husband on their wedding.. Teringat our times dulu-dulu.. Not so dulu.. it was just about a year ago.. almost.. hihi.. To Mal (penumpang Satelite ku...) and husband, Semoga berbahagia, and diberkati and dirahmati Allah sentiasa, with good health, happy life, cinta-mencintai dan dicintai.. Ameeenn.. We are terribly sorry we couldnt make it to your reception.. Haruslah diampunkan mak buyung yg sorang ni ye..

pic courtesy from Kak Fadh, thanks!

Event kedua, Wedding another colleague of mine, which I, i mean We failed to attend.. yet again due to my poor health condition.. Puan Faiszah and Encik Loloq.. Selamat Pengantin Baru. Sama je lah macam Mal and Din..

Event ketiga.. Is my little cousin's birthday party. We were late for his party, but food was good. My uncle and family drove all the way from Kuantan for Ahmad's birthday party. Ahmad is only 5 years old by the way. Food was delicious. Nasi Dagang you.. Sian husband tercinta.. he missed the nasi dagang! *sape suruh xdapat attend...hhihihi.. He went to see his friends play rugby.. itu cinta hati dia.. i have no qualms about it.. :) I didnt have any camera with me at the party, so, no pic.. But anyhow.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMAD!! We enjoyed the clown too!! hihihi..

Event keempat.. My Dad and my little sister (she's 23 btw) went back to our kampung in Senaling, Kuala Pilah last night. Konon-kononnya nak experience dian ghahad!! They packed with them tents, and sleeping bags, insect repellant.. Last-last.. atuk xbagi tido dalam kebun durian!! They camped in the house instead.. HA HA HA!! but, they came home today with A BAKUL FULL OF DURIANS!!! and RAMBUTANS as well!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaarggghhhhhhhhhh!!! Kesedapan yang amat! But too bad, i could no longer take the pungent smell and taste of durian. Sikit-sikit can la.. Tapi, dah belasah the rambutans! Ameeeennn.. kenyang anak dalam perut ni.

Owh, talking of my little one.. I am so anxious waiting for the arrival of this little simba of ours.. So is the daddy! Ahah.. sometimes, the tummy becomes so tight.. rase macam nak beranak! But it only comes by at night!! But, husband said to me earlier.. 'Baby will come out when baby is ready..' Okay abang.. In the mean time.. please bear with all the 'bang, tolong picit tangan' or 'bang, sakit perut!!' hihihihi.. i love you so much!!

reminiscing our babymoon in the UK

Our 1 Year Anniversary is just around the corner.. hurmmm.. what should i get for husband??!!!

37

Yes.. you read that right.. 37 weeks..

Hari ni ada appointment OnG at the hospital. Too tired to go and wait for my turn. I don't know why, but lately i feel that it's just so difficult to go to bed. I'll watch husband sleep, turn on the TV again (sometimes), play that darn B*arnBuddy on FB (so addicted to it!), browse the net.. But my brain won't shut down for the day.. It's making me feel lethargy during the day. I'll probably doze off at 2 am. Usually.. Warm shower does help sometimes.. see, sometimes.. i want to be able to sleep for 8 hours.. i need the energy!! aargh!!

Owh, another thing is.. my extremities has started to puff up abit.. Most people will tell me "biasala, bengkak-bengkak sikit".. It's worse when the day is warm! it'll be very-very uncomfortable when i try to genggam.. Aaaaargh!! nanti kena tanya doctor lah..

Anyways, I am blogging from my computer at the satelite. Husband had to send me to work, coz my little sister 'cikun' my car to sleep over at her friend's. Haihh.. I am sure he's gonna be late.. Thanks so much dear.. But today.. i have alot of things to do. I have to re-do the ICU and NICU floorstock lists! I am still waiting for them to get back to me. they have yet to submit the forms back to me.. But they've called and asked about things. So its all good. Yang paling utama, I have to get it done before baby comes out! Sila la buat kerja dgn cepat-cepat ye, staff nurses.. hurmmm.. i don't feel so good today.. but, i am wishing a happy day to all those who reads this..

menghitung hari

Went to see the doctor last night. She said, baby dah engage.. and, baby can come out anytime.. it may take minutes, hours, days, or even weeks.. ngeeeee... i am not sure myself if i am ready to experience labour, just yet! I am all jittery and nervous! Hopefully, things will go smoothly for both of us, me and baby.. hmmm... including bapak baby..kehkeh.. We are almost 37 weeks, and baby's estimated body weight is 2.7++kg. Alhamdulillah.. heheh..

Owh, nak gossip.. Yesterday, after the most-time-wasting lunch call, I headed back to my satelite.. Bumped into one of my bossess.. Obviously i was waiting for the bloody lift, coz satelite is on level 3. Hello!! And you guess what!! She blurted...

Xboleh naik lift.. nak senang beranak kena naik tangga, tau.

i smiled, and said nothing.. My staff laughed.. We were definitely speechless.. people have been telling me that i should be moving around alot. In other words, active.. tak leh malas-malas.. Fair enough.. But, please don't tell me that i have to climb 3 storeys up to get to my workplace supaya senang beranak. Habis tu, orang-orang yg tak mengandung tu, tapi naik lift.. tak ke nnt cepat gemok and xsihat?!! Aiiihhhh.. There was this day, i couldnt come to work coz i had very bad diarrhoea. only to be criticised by these 'unmarried' bossess of mine, telling all the other people that I (specifically me!) shouldn't pamper myself too much, and lie down and do nothing! and that i should be up and about instead!! *dah aku diarrhoea!!! dia diarrhoea pon leh MC!! haihhhh... I do move around alot! and infact i walk faster than they do!! I guess, walking fast doesn't count.. Ntah ape-ape tah! Diorang ingat, duduk kat satelite ni memang duduk sahaja je kot.. Geram sorang-sorang.. kuikuikui..

I don't pamper myself like what they think i am doing. Its just, you will only know it once you are pregnant. Penat, sakit belakang, sakit perut semua. Bukan mengada-ngada.. walaupon ada orang yang memang buat-buat mengada.. Hehehehe.. definitely not me ye.. please.. Kadang-kadang stress memikirkan mereka-mereka yang suka memandai-mandai sendiri.. Anyways.. Mudah-mudahan semua akan berjalan lancar.. ameen..

Weddings to Durianss

Attended two weddings on saturday. 1 was in Shah Alam, the other 1 in Kajang. It was all good. I must say that i had a good time.. we both had a good time. Aimi and Rad looked soo cute together, now that they're husband and wife, Alhamdulillah.. so happy for my classmates.. Aimi & Rad pon cinta Kuliah juga.. huahuahuahauha... lepas nih, Nazha and Faiz pulak.. hihihih.. Walaupon jauh to get to Kajang from shah alam, but because we missed their wedding in Kedah, so we couldnt miss this reception for the world! lagipon, dah bertahun-tahun tak jumpa si Aimi tu (exaggeration!)

Yesterday, was even better! Last weekend, when we were in Kuantan, Dad received a call from my aunt..

Makngah: Along, minggu depan balek kampong, dian dah ghahad!! (durian dah gugur dgn jayanya!)
Dad: Dian abah ko? yo lah.. nnt kitorg balek!!

On saturday, i was told by my aunt that the durians dah dicuri oleh orang-orang lain.. and my atok was so disappointed. He decided to spend the night in his kebun.. to guard his durians.. and he did!! So, we drove down to seremban early in the morning to have a taste of my atok's durians.. Makngah came back with 30 biji durians!! banyak woooooo!!!! and it was all good!! i couldnt help but stuff myself with more than 10 ulas of durians!!! semuanya manis2 dan fresh-fresh belaka!!!! owh, sodap boto!!!! Makngah cooked lunch.. we had gulai ikan sembilang salai, gulai telur itik, rendang, tempoyak and cili api, and macam2 masakan kampung! owhh!! memang heaven.. keji sungguh lauk-pauk hari itu.. maka akibatnya.. terlenalah sekejap diatas katil empok atok! hehehehehe... bestnya!! i've always enjoyed balek seremban..

sape nak makan durian lagi!!???

Friday babbless

Kebosanan melanda diri ini.. Owh definitely.
Mal will be away for 3 weeks (org nak kawen la katakan).. Ina is taking the afternoon off, nak balek kampung katanya. So that leaves me and this 'little one in me' alone in the satelite. Its terribly cold in my satelite.. Feels like 11 degrees here.. aarghh!! and now hidung ku sakit. Perut ku juga sakit!! Simptom-simptom beranak mungkin?? owh tidak.. we're only into our 36th weeks.. kan baby??

Today, accompanied husband for his second dose of physiotherapy. He was put on the electro... ??? ape ye? and the second one is traction. When i came in, he looked abit sleepy. Harap-harap ada kesan la.. coz his back pain is really getting worse and he is complaining alot lately about his back pain. So far, Alhamdulillah.. the therapy seemed to work. The best thing is, i got to go to work with my husband today.. Selama ni pegi dgn mal.. *next week??!! owh no!!

Anyways, kepada penumpang satelite3 iaitu Mal, Selamat Pengantin Baru.. I feel so happy for you.. if this little one decides to come out ealier, please dont be upset ye if we couldnt make it to your big day.. Hadiah ada.. hihihi.. Oklah.. Gotta go.. nak amek ubat!!

Balik Kampung siapa?

Hate MOndays!!

We spent the weekend at my mom's kampung.. It's only husband's third time in Kuantan. But seriously, we had fun. There's nothing much in Kuantan, really. They have shopping malls, but we can always buy things in KL, kan? Best of all is the beach. But TC is just too crowded, plus the days were so warm and humid.. so we stayed in the house aje.. What we enjoyed most was the company we had. My uncles and their families, and my grandmother. Quality time that is.. hahaha..

They are all amazed with my bulging tummy! *dah tu, nak beranak dah namanye...

Saturday night, husband wanted to eat Lala Sweet sour so badly.. so we went to this restaurant in Tanjung Lumpur.. we had quite a feast jugakla.. with the sotong goreng tepung, ikan siakap 3 rasa and all dan macam2 lagi.. And, we had two rounds of durian eating session!!! walaupon diserang diarrhoea.. i couldnt resist it!! i had altogether 10 ulas of durian!! uuuurrrrp!!!

Kesimpulannya, we had soooo much fun!!!

Updates on Simba

Went for my regular check-up at the clinic in my workplace. I got a better dr today. Alhamdulillah. Baby's estimated weight is 2.3kg at 34 weeks. Alhamdulillah.. (that explains why i am 62kg now.. aaargh!!) But as long as simba is doing good, healthy and growing, i am most glad. Syukur to Allah. Simba is already in cephalic position (head-down la) and i hope simba will maintain in that position sampai dia lahir. At the moment, I can feel simba hiccup-ing. hehehe.. I love it when simba hiccups!
it feels.. errr.. how do i describe it.. it feels.. funny. there's this consistent beat down there! Only a few weeks left.. I am nervous and i so cant wait to see my simba. Dia tgh keras2 kan perut nih! adeh.. Dia dah bangun.. oklah. ciao

Diarrhoea...

.... Yet again.....:(

Sakit perut.. Poor Little Simba, has to put up with my contracting bowel! Simba is so uncomfortable... (at least i can tell) because of Simba's non-stop movement. And it's worsening the stomach pain. Nak amek leave, but sian kat my staff. Lagipon pagi-pagi ni, bukan banyak kerja pon.

Husband sent me to work this morning. :) I love him to bits!! tapi sbb xde transport, kena la duduk diam-diam kat hospital ni..*bila la nak pegi bayar phone bil nih!! hihhiii..

Since my staff is out for lunch, leaving me alone and sleepy in this room, maka.. telah la aku berkemas-kemas especially the documents yang melambak-lambak.. Yang xde file, yg xdi filekan betul-betul.. hurmmm..

I'm hungry already. wanna go grab something to feed Simba..

ciao

Kepulangan

Ye.. Kami sudah pulang.. dari Kursus Induksi dan juga Kursus Ken*egaraan. All that i can say is, I did enjoy myself there. Well, partly because i got husband to attend the two courses with me..*senang sikit sbb dah memboyot dgn dasyatnya.. And on the other hand, we made new friends.. and it was all good. Pengisian?? Pengisian perut every 6hourly.. hmmmm... does more harm to the body weight than anything else. But, induction was good. *baru la reti nak buat claims and what nots.. hihihihiih.

Induction taught me to become a more responsible 'Penjawat Awam'.. They taught us how to answer calls, etc.. *haruslah aku menjawab telefon dalam 10 saat!! hihihihi.. And my group won Best Performance!! hihih.. Thanks to the creative groupmates of mine, Dr. Arvin, Dr. Munzir, Ang, Mas, Dr. Jessica, Dr. Nurul, Mei Yao, Gege and myself!! Kami telah menggemparkan dewan Hotel Sri Malaysia itu! huhuhuhuh.. We had fun! Tetapi, sungguh mengstresskan bila balik kerja. Kerja amat mengstresskan!

Anyways, kami gembira kerana dapat bertemu dgn kawan-kawan baru!

induction course

hey, i.m blogging from husbands hp.we.re in genting for our induction course. Food here is good. We had some good speakers and some,well.. They are okay. Ok lah. I have to prepare for my public speaking.

Macam Monyet

My mother called us yesterday, just before Maghrib. 'I don't feel like cooking. Jom makan meehun sup kat de5?' we said yes.. Sian dia makan sorang-sorang. So after Maghrib, we meet up at the named restaurant. I had soto, my mother had meehunmee soto, and husband had grilled chicken chop. *the soto didn't taste that yummy though. but we stayed on abit. We chat a lot, laughed and just before 9pm, we left for home. Sesampainya kitorang kat rumah, we had another round of borak-borak. Always about my cute anak sedaras especially Anfaal.. *she's having a hard time adjusting to her new baby brother.. Suddenly abah called on the house phone. I went to answer the call. and as i hung up the phone, he called again. This time, with an instruction. Then....

I felt this sharp pain down there! AAAAAAAAAAarrrrrgh. I went out, to tell my husband to help me with the thing dad asked me to do.. and at the same time, i was holding my lower abdomen, and terbongkok.. I said, 'help me with.. blablabla... i need to go to the toilet!' mother and husband looked at me in awe. I taktau diorg tu nak gelak or kesian.. hmmmphhh.. But i was still standing there.. with all the aduhs and aaahss.. *mengerang kesakitan ok.. And then i immediately went away when the pain lessens.. Husband and my mother joined suit. They left their seats and made their way into the house. Tiba-tiba.. the pain came back!!! i had to go to the toilet! but i couldnt. it was just too painful!! i tried to walk. slowly though, and i went to the toilet akhirnya.

Job done, i went out. crying... husband helped me. dia apply minyak sikit on my lower abdomen. and that did help to ease the pain.. Out of the blue.. he said 'Sian ya. Abg tengok mcm monyet jalan pon ada tadi. Abg kesian pon ada, nak gelak pon ada..hehehehe..' and he burst out laughing! Ada ke!!! Sampai hati dia.. I laughed too cause i can imagine myself, jalan terbongkok, and terkengkang sikit.. memang macam monyet! BUT, truth is, I was in PAIN!!! haih.. macam monyet!

I woke up 4 times through out my sleep. sakit perut. *siap sempat tgk Man U vs Wigans... walaupon they played so badly.Seb baik menang! I dont know if this is food poisoning or symptoms experience due to the changes of hormones. But i really don't like it! Hate it infact! hurmmm.. if this thing won't go away by tomorrow, i'll have to go see the GP..

till then..

Nothing

I am tired due to sleepless nights..
This little simba of ours loves waking up at the wee hour of the day.
To make things worse, i have to stayback for the extended hours shift today.

Haiihhh..

I feel like taking a nap!! Just a short one.

ZzzZZzzzzzz.....

Little Simba

My sister calls my baby Little Simba. Sila lah teka maknyanya sekiranya anda pandai. Hihihi.. Anyways..Last 2 weeks, i had an appointment at my work place. Dr. scanned my ever-growing tummy (i could see my baby so clearly..:)* heart melts) and i was told that the placenta was a bit low-lying. He said, i might have to deliver via C-SECT. I was not so happy to hear that. But the truth is, it is just the edge of the placenta and it's quite huge i tell you. But, thing is.. he did it already. I went home, worried sick. Husband was very calm though.. he said, 'its okay. everything's gonna be fine. You'll be fine and little simba will be fine too..' tenang hati ku seketika.

So, yesterday i went to see my dr. She didn't say a word about my placenta. I waited, and it was like before she dismissed us, i asked her the question. I even showed her my book. and u guess what, she was disappointed. She said, it is normal to have the placenta low lying, but she said, i am only 29 weeks pregnant, and it will move up when my tummy grows bigger. Plus, my baby is now head-down as compared to the last scan i had at the hospital, baby was in transverse position. hehehe.. lega hati.. The best part was, she kept reminding me to make lots and lots of du'a to the Almighty.. Baiknya doktor kuu.. In the car, husband said to me.. 'i told you not to worry. But i understand.. i will always make du'a for you and baby.. *heart melts!.. Now can we go shopping?!' hehehe.. I am most grateful. Moga-moga dipermudahkan for me and baby. Ameeen.. till then. Gambar ultrasound xscan.

Kecik-kecik

We used to live in the UK for a year and a half. My father sambung belajar and all of us tagged along. I was 4 1/2 at that time. In the UK, it is compulsory for children age 3 and above to go to school. Preschool, nursery, and then sekolah rendah n menengah dan seterusnya. So, my parents enrolled me into F1 kot.. haa.. I still remember the names of my teachers. Mrs Daniel and Mrs. Neil? tembak je. Best ok! Sekolah bukan macam kat Malaysia. So, there was a time, i was sick for a few days, and missed school. So when i got back to school, I was asked to draw an animal for our class presentation. We worked in pairs. My partner was robert. hahaha.. So, the deal was.. i prepare the drawings, and Robert wil present it during assembly. HAHAHAHAHA.. So, i took the pen, and started drawing.. Itu la gambar anjing yang telah dilukis!! Mrs daniel laughed so bad, aku rase nak lukis balek. She went ' owh look, nadia's dog has eight legs!!!!' and they all laughed! aku yg xtahan malu mase tu, rase nak koyak and buat gamba baru je!! hahahhahaha.. MALUUU!! i tried to ask to re-do the drawings, but all i got was, 'it's okay nadia. your dog is cute'.. bodo sungguh.

Tiba lah pada hari assembly, diorg pon introduce la lukisan2 kami.. When it was our turn, i hid behind robert, especially when mrs daniel announced 'Nadia's and robert's Eight legged dog!' Habis mak-mak and bapak-bapak dalam assembly hall to gelak! My mom pon gelak, and she remembers it until today! so, Hari ni.. teringin rase di hati nak mempersembahkan, My eight legged dog, SPOT! hahahhaha.. Sila lah gelak dgn keji ye???

sekian, salam

Incident Reporting

Urrrrp... Alhamdulillah.. Dinner was yummy. Had Ikan kembung singgang, ikan kembung bakar with cicah budu, cili api n petai, on top of that, ada sayur goreng and it was all good. then, we sambung chit chat after dinner.. biasa lah kan? Gelak2 and all. It was all good.. i could take my mind off of work for an hour.

Hari ni, i had a super long day at work. Haih. We had to get this particular vaccine. We called up all the hospitals in Klang Valley. We could only get 4 vials. We needed 6 vials. Tried Seremban, Melaka, Johor, even Kuantan and Ipoh to get the vaccine.. But to no avail. I was very busy making calls today and it was just so tiring.. I was worried because the patients who needed the vaccines are babies. newborn babies to be exact. And its really frustrating that, this incident happened not on natural cause, but because of circumstances that could actually be avoided. Anyways, things happened. Dah sibuk bebel2 tu.. things came back to me in no time.

I received a call from one of the assistants, telling me that the ICU staff nurse came down to return a vaccine (a different one) that i have dispensed earlier before i went home. I was supposed to dispense HI vaccine. But i took out VZ Vaccine. I wont say i am lucky.. but i would say, the doctor/nurses did their job well, read the label i gave and read the name of the given vaccine. Thank you. So, they returned it back before administering it to the patient. It got me wonder.. Baru aku bebel to those yg xbuat kerja betul2. But, actually.. anything can happen. But anyways, i've learnt my lesson. I will make an incident report and will have it sent to my superior. Responsibility must come first. right?

All praise to the Almighty.. Salam

just updates

I just got back from the ICU round. its damn tiring. mentally definitely.. physically too now that i'm pregnant. i haven't had lunch, and baby is already hungry.. i can tell. hihi, kan baby? Anyways, aside from yawning every 5 minutes, I am verifying the prescriptions and its boresome. Called husband a while ago. he said, he'll be coming home abit late today. FUTSAL, FUTSAL. i can't complain much see, coz he needs alot of exercise. his tummy IS bulging out. and in no time, he wouldnt be able to shove his cute butt down into his pants. hihi.. sorry bang!! I love you so much! hihihihi..

activities these past few days? None. Owh owh.. last saturday, husband and i went to OU to check out some baby stuff. hihi. well, we went into mcare. But husband went ballistic (hahahah) when he sees the prices. 'xpe baby.. we'll get nice, cute and comfortable stuff for you' says husband. i x kisah pun. i have a lot more to think of at the moment than cute clothes. huhu.. maybe later.. I am so disorganized. aihh.. nak beranak kat mana pon, i couldnt decide. aaaargh.. hurmm.. mampu kah anda membantu ku?? anyways.. husbands agreed on buying baby a cool stroller. yeay!! okla. i need to do my work. ciao

Kerana Mulut Badan Binasa?? Bila?

Its 3.15 a.m, and here i am at the hospital WORKING. haihhh.. I hate night shifts! coz it's just so tiring. Fortunately, there are only few sick people left waiting for their turn. I can see myself dozing off really soon.. heheh.. i couldnt stand staring at the stupid box. At this time of day usually the guards will turn some lights off.. berjimatkan.. ekonomi tengah gawat. and that's the best time to tido..

Since i am working, lets talk about work. MINE i mean. hihi. Sebenarnya, satelite ku berfungsi to supply medications to TWO Intensive Care Units. General ICU as well as Neonatal ICU. Dua-dua pon ICU. and because the nursing care provided are Intensive, maka akhirnya diriku ini terjebak dengan ke'stress'an ditempat kerja. I told you i have a super-efficient assistant. Yes, she helps me alot. And she makes managing the satelite so much easier. But u see, kerja ku juga melibatkan orang-orang yang bernama boss yang berpangkat lebih tinggi dari U41. dan juga staff nurses yang kebanyakkannya cantik-cantik (tetapi biadap), dan juga doktor-doktor yang kadang-kadang terlampau 'cinta' kan pesakit sehingga lupa akan tanggungjawab sebenar diorang. Iaitu, to function as a doctor/specialist. owh, and not to forget penolong ku yang makin lama, makin sukar untuk aku communicate with, because i believe we both hate each other, deep down inside. ahahaha.. Nevertheless, for me.. Work is Work. i dont carry personal things into my work.. or at least i try not to. But u see, when i'm getting all sorts of rumours (yang sering mencairkan taik telinga ku yg keras ni) from many people, it gets difficult. Really difficult.

I am lucky husband still make an effort to listen to all my complaints about this particular person, eventho i know he too couldnt handle the stress of just listening. i try not to complain too much, but sometimes.. kesakitan hati itu is just unbearable, yang tahap boleh meletop. and believe me, i feel alot better after that. hehehe.. I love you Abang.. muaaah! Thing is, masalah perasaan ini, for me are too small a matter. And i have 18 patients in the ICU that needs medications.. So, i brushed it off aside just many times. Cuma, akhir-akhir ini.. things got out of hands. Nampaknya, aku juga sudah tidak mampu to maintain professional.. and its getting personal now. Aaaaarghh! I was called-in by my immediate superior.. and it sounded as though aku yang bermasalah. Aku kecewa.. i believe in this malay saying.. Kerana Mulut Badan Binasa. Tapi, in the end, i had to explain things.. and u know.. it is terribly depressing..

Tapi, hari ni.. keadaan menjadi lebih buruk. dan aku telah mengamuk sedikit. susah kerja when u can't communicate well with those working around you. And i do not agree kerja mengarah-arah. Aku kerja Gomen je. Banyak lagi boss2 yang perlu aku answer to. dan hanya 2 orang yg answer to me. And sebab ramai yang terlibat dalam chain kerja aku.. So, haruslah kita berbaik-baik sesama kita, right? kenapa kena kerja gaduh-gaduh dan xpuas hati?? Kerja lebih penting!! thing is, i tried to explain to her about how i hoped/want things to be. tapi, unfortunately dia susah nak menerima 'arahan' from me, apatah lagi untuk mendengar.. susah-susah.. haihhh..

Aku xsalahkan dia 100%. I believe i too contribute to this problem. Tapi i believe, bukan aku yg mulakan dulu. or at least, i know that i would never to hurt her feelings. Mungkin secara xsengaja.. dan i regret for the times that i've hurt her feelings. hurmm.. haiiihhhh... anyways.. i am already sleepy now..i think i just going to land myself on a not-so-comfortable-and-cold toto.. heheh.. oklah.. sekian bebelan ku..